Monday, March 31, 2008
woohs.. been spending some time looking through the clubsnap forums to read up more on photography and all~ really got me fired up man! the only thing left is for 450D to come out! based on what they say, it should be out by 2nd week of April!! argh!! so close to exams!! sigh.. maybe i'll have to buy it after exams? or just buy it and oogle at it all i like! hahaa.. those you wanna volunteer to me my practise targets AKA models please book earlY~~ hahaa~ but think ultimately what i enjoy to take pictures of is environments, nature, sky... people portraits aint my emphasis.. but i shall try!!
wah today gym very tired... did 3 sets of weights before the rest came and then ran almost 6km? nearly half of the RunNUS route and ran up haw par villa too! hahaa.. good hand and leg exercise.. now very doopy le.. hahaa... kk lar.. go kun le!! i still love my own sengkang bed the most!! banzai!!
dEminG
I HATE PEOPLE WHO PUT UP FALSE FRONTS!
My mind's unweaving/ 11:33 PM
Sunday, March 30, 2008
haha been really hesitant to make another post since the previous post was my 600th post!! woohoo!! since then i have been looking around at the right DSLR... i had my scout senior gerald advising me along as a nikon user and then marcus whom i just met from the nus canoeing team who was a canon user... so i went down to amk yesterday to ask about the 2 models they recommended to me, the Canon 400D and the Nikon D40 or D60... at first i thought of getting D40x but the shop said it was an old model and was sold out.. so i caught hold of the canon 400D and D60 and felt more comfortable with the D60.. when i decided to get it, the shop owner also reminded me of the lens limitation that D60 has... he also advised me that both models were good but canon was more economical for newbies like me...
so i went home and check on forums and after much opinions and website researching, i've finally decided what to get! Canon 450D!! haha its the newer version of 400D that will be released in april! no wonder 400D was on sale now... bleahs... shall wait for a few more weeks even though my hands are itching like mad, then i shall get my first DSLR camera!! RRP with kit = $1400++ this is really really gonna burn a hole in my pocket! but its better to invest in a new one rather than a old outdated one that might just run low on resale value should i need to sell away along the way... also without the limitation of 3rd part lens i can use, i hope it will stay as my buddy for a long time! and can become my 3rd Lao po!! 1st = Bike, 2nd = Laptop, 3rd = DSLR!!
today i had a talk with my parents and to my pleasant surprise, i can finally do what i want!! to be honest it is SUPER convenient to stay at my relatives place, to be able to cut on transport and wake up late too! with air con, a fridge, a nice bed.. it rocks! but then.. my relative's family is super thrifty for a well off one (1x BMW + Landed Property).. and sometimes when i forget to turn off appliances i get nagged pretty badly by my aunt.. even clothes wise she'll ask me to reuse them for a week!! even for those i use when running! then if i would wash the clothes myself she will then say she feels bad and wash it for me instead.. --__--|| its really hard enough to not be able to talk normally with them... and though i try to minimize hindering them, as my mom said, the way i am brought up (which my mom and i are proud of) and my lifestyle no matter how practical to me, will be an inconvenience to them... i already wanted to move out since the start of sem 2, but cause of the internet i subscribed and not wanting to make my parents pay more for my accomodation, i just kept to myself and stayed on... but now my parents also support me moving out and look for a hall~! oh yesh! cant wait to live independently again without having to be nagged at! the only problem now is...
HALL APPLICATIONS FOR UNDERGRADUATES ARE CLOSED!! ARGHH!!
*eureka!*
i feel like stabbing myself with this..
dEMinG
Help!!
My mind's unweaving/ 2:29 PM
Thursday, March 27, 2008
Newest picture addition from my K850i
The sun sets on NUS
can't wait till i get my hands on my DSLR!! the pictures will get you mesmerized! =]
oh btw!! Anyone wanna go desaru cycling with me?? Joining with the NUS Odac people!! 29-30th July!! 2D1N!! please contact me asap if you wanna join k!! =]
dEminG
countdown to DSLR
My mind's unweaving/ 8:31 PM
Wednesday, March 26, 2008
"Thats Just The Person I Am"... thats the title of this post... for some time in this semester... i have always been at war with myself... pushing myself to corners... driving myself to frustration.. looking down on my alter ego.. being unsatisfied always... being ashamed of who i was... today after 2 hrs of waste of time during my mol gen lecture.. as i was heading back with stormy clouds ahead.. i felt so tired and drained and also dissed with myself for not studying in that 2hrs.. just msn-ing away.. i initially planned to run 2.4km today... but i felt so tired i just wanted to give it a miss..
with all that 'fighting' in my self.. i was unknowingly imposing myself on fabby i guess.. haha thinking back i was really selfish then huh.. like pouring my crap all over him.. but he said something that got me thinking "...you joined canoeing cause you like it don't you?..." i joined the NUS canoeing team for various reasons... i wanted to stay fit.. i wanted to be part of something big.. i wanted to be faster.. i wanted to be zai... i wanted a medal to symbolize the hard work i placed since i was in SRJC Canoeing team.. but most of all... i loved the exhiliration of racing on water... when i paddle fast and feel the glide... i feel happy... and thats the sense of happiness and piece of joy i yearned... yes... that was the '..piece of me that i have lost along the way...' its funny how i always thought i was good at consoling others.. yet i couldnt realise something so simple as this... really gotta thank fabby for this man..
so i went back, changed and went out for my run... jogged to the track at NUS and ran 2.4km.. timing was bad at 11.30min.. but within silver limits.. abit worried but i did abit more training before i headed back.. all that while i kept thinking what's wrong with me.. since i joined the TeamNUS, though no pressure has been placed on me, i have been pressurized heavily as being the slowest rower in the whole team.. the weakest link to say.. tuesday i also didnt go down to paddle as i had to rush my suja for submission.. and as they said as long as i didnt padle for more than 2 days, i would be starting from scratch again! then theres PA coming up soon and i kept doubting myself... even thinking if i should quit the team all the while silently..
I'm a jack of all trades.. but master at none.. i thought of it as something bad... as there is no one thing i can proudly say im good for... but then... thinking along.. thats just the person i am! so i ought to be proud of it! I sought happiness and satisfaction in canoeing.. and material gains of a medal aint that important after all..i decided to stay on in the team.. train hard when i train.. and if my team is being held back by me then i will excuse myself.. for now.. i just want to "wake up my idea".. this aint no time to be emo... its time to be 100% of who i am..
1. Studies
2. Enjoy the Sport
3. Companionship
JUST DO WHAT I HAVE TO BE HAPPY!! NO MORE REGRETS!!
dEMinG
orientating one's direction in life
My mind's unweaving/ 9:26 PM
Sunday, March 23, 2008
wow... another weekend just brisks past.. but hey! its a long weekend? lolx.. thanks to good friday!! woohoo~ it has been 2 days of back to back activities and i finally find time to settle down and look at what i have to do that is due tml! =P haha die-ed... on good friday i went down to macrithcie to paddle before leaving early to meet up with the greenies for dim sum buffet at harbourfront! tried organising for my class gathering a few times but i guess they either 1. didn't wanna eat it... 2. have better things to do... so never managed to satisfy my hunger for dim sum~ kudos to weiling for pulling this off for the green team! was nice seeing them again and talking bad about nat and all again.. LOLx opps did i say something.. >.<
Green Team rocks! Team 100 rocks my socks! =P
after eating for 4hrs we then walked around with our heavy tummies at vivocity... they decided to do some window shopping so i took the chance to check out the white berms i saw at AX and zara.. as expected AX was overly priced at $169 and i didn't like its black zip.. then i tried the one at zara for $59 and found it nicer so i bought it! oh yeah! one item off my wishlist!! =] continued walking and went to see new urban male to see anything i could use the vouchers for.. but its amazingly expensive... i always wondered how they dared to raise prices so exuberantly high... it was almost on par with other fashion boutiques like guess! it so shocking to see the tank tops gals and "fit" guys always like to wear.. costs $79!! what the hell.. some colours no doubt are nice.. but just for that... a single word in front... and its $79?? i always thought those people who wore such singlets were abit exhibitionist.. now i realised they are stupid too for spending so much on it.. lolx..
after that i headed to my auntie's house near school to take a proper shower and took the 1998 bourdeax that she asked me to finish and i headed to clementi station to meet brandon and the other year 0s and year 1s before we headed to xiaohui's house for the Team NUS canoeing team gathering/party/birthday cerebration... the house was packed to the max with over 30 people in the living room playing cards, nintendo wii (rayman was damn funny!)... was potluck and we ate alot of food again.. abit of wine, vodka and all.. was really fun and got to know a few more seniors better.. then we left around 11pm with felix cause we had training tml too... got home about 12mn and K.Oed to a very nice and peaceful sleep (thanks to the alcohol!)
saturday once again went down to paddle... my K1 is steadily improving but still far from good as i tend to stop repeatedly to ensure my sitting is correct to prevent capping.. saw the SRJC juniors paddling too.. and even met marcus and liang kiat from NTU canoeing team just when i suay suay capsized near the pontoon as i wasn't careful.. lOlx.. went home after lunch at bishan J8 and then went out to plaza singapura to meet my canoe buddies weiliang and marcus for Step Up 2: The Streets... as the reviews say... the plot is 0.01/5.0 but the dance moves were the highligh at 3.5/5.0... the dance sequences werent as nice as i hoped.. even for the finale dance.. cant help but think step up 1 had better sequences... but still my fav dance movie has to be you got served! =]
Verdict 2.2/5.0!! =| not a must watch~~
after the movie pok and i went to raffles city to window shop abit and even landed up in the wrong queue for the chippy british food.. so sia suay can.. lolx.. after waiting so long also! haha but oh wells... maybe its divine intervention to tell us not to eat so much.. lolx.. later we went to raffles place mrt to meet zhen hao, daren, liang kiat, amanda, weilun, dawn and MONICA!! woohoo.. it was an outing to meet up with our dear vice captain who has a break from her studies in japan!! went to pit stop to place some games like jurassic, imaginiff, first hand, sequence and all... after our 2hrs was up we went over to tcc the gallery to chill out and i ordered this lamborgini kaffee which was really quite nice.. the coffee was really smooth and dark.. mixed with the kahlua was woohoO!! but there was too much sugar syrup i guess.. and the rest who tried it couldnt quite appreciate it.. lolx.. but the place was really nice and cosy man~~ nice...
nice and cosy~! nice atmosphere man!
so that concludes 2 days of back to back fun!! woohoo!! i came to realised i was more emotional and down due to low morale i guess... since i spent like 80% of time in NUS alone... was so hard getting friends out that these 2 days of fun and laughter really recharged my batteries again~ guess i really should re-evaluate which group of friends i should really spend time with instead of wasting my effort and getting myself depressed all the time~~ alright man.. time to hit the books and do what i must.. no point preaching about getting good grades and showing off if you dont work hard for it!! lets do this!!
dEminG
I'm back!
My mind's unweaving/ 11:04 AM
Wednesday, March 19, 2008
5.8km incline in 24min 10 sec
Haha... I realized I'm really stupid... Really..
dEminG
Running with a heavy heart just makes every step even heavier
My mind's unweaving/ 9:06 PM
Seeing things i don't want to see...
forgetting things i don't want to forget..
deproving in skills i don't want to deprove..
feeling emotions i don't wish to feel..
dEminG
maybe this 5km run will help me leave all these things behind
My mind's unweaving/ 7:53 PM
Sunday, March 16, 2008
arh... yet another weekend breezes past just like that... well i got myself to blame for napping off the most of my saturday afternoon and sunday morning... went down to mac to paddle on saturday with my wrist feeling alittle sore from friday's gym session... as feared, my strength quickly dwindled to a near zero as my body still wasnt conditioned and i felt really bad as i was paired with jun huang on a K2 and made him paddle doubly hard because of me... nonetheless i kept going with my unglam strengthless strokes and even discovered a misconception i had all this while of canoeing... boy do i have alot to unlearn in order to improve myself!! after training i went with the nus team (on their cars convoy *cool!*) to longhouse for lunch and a long chit chat session before brandon and i headed back to sengkang.. along the way i spotted a bike shop along thomson road and to my pleasant surprise they sold the chain washing device!! wooohoo.. maintaining my wife's gonna be alot easier! but of course it came at a cost.. $50 consisting of the snap on device and the degreaser..
Well i wouldn't have bought it if i knew what was to come.. my dad told me that him and my mom were going to take a pay cut likely in the next month and was asking me if i was alright with cancelling one of my insurance plans.. of course i consented as i never quite liked the idea of paying for insurance in the first place.. but what mattered was when i did some self reflection on the burden that i was to my family at this point of time.. currenty my parents pay my uncle $200 monthly to stay at their place to cover for electrical and utility expenses.. yet i still left my computer on overnight and enjoyed the luxury of air condition.. not to mention the hefty university fee that though i am glad i made it to a local uni as it is cheaper, still bears a large amount every semester.. so i decided that i will ask my mom to cut my allowance from next month and cut down on electricty and water when back home.. and now i have to seriously rethink about getting a tuition job again like last semester.. but with training and all i wonder if i should give tuition again..
i guess i have to throw away my aspirations of getting my oakley shades and DSLR camera... its just so infuriating how companies abuse their employees like pawns.. sure.. GST and rising fuel have hit them hard.. but with inflation, the economic should be growing... but with seemingly stagnant interest rates and the 'big daddy' way of how companies work in singapore.. i can only wonder what can be done.. though i would encourage my parents that there is bound to be other companies around and to boycott their current companies, i also remind myself that my father has risk of another heart attack and their education levels aren't that high... damn... its just so unfair... thats why i yearn the day to be an employer... not an employee at the whims of a lousy company..
another reason why i dont fancy tutoring is due to the kids.. 1. I don't know if i'm capable enough to tuitor the kid, 2. I don't like the responsibility of a kids tuition... though i say so, i find it funny how much i enjoy playing with children and even toddlers... just as i was having dinner alone at yoshinoya, it seemed like family day there as i saw so many prams and toddlers around.. there was one baby that was lying on the bench and just kicking her legs aimlessly and seemed to be having so much fun.. haha... how strange that i relish the thought of trying that out myself.. which reminded me of the conversation i had with brandon about family... though it seems easy to correlate family planning with burden and troubles... i find and relish the thought of having a family as an achievement and something i would look forward to... children are messy but they are also an evidence and a part of all our existances... that is why when a man and a woman make love, their children is their summation of their souls and wishes for the future...
anyways i realised i didn't blog much about last week.. but i think 2 things are worth talking about... my mid terms are 4/5 over!! woohoo!! shioks man... felt so relieved... aint too well done.. but also not failing my expectations... left with biochem paper this thursday.. hope to do it well man!! 4.3 is my target CAP and i shall achieve it!! the other blog-worthy event happened on wednesday prior to my Molecular Genetics Test... i left the library early to take a break from mugging before the test.. when i went to the canteen i saw wai kit and his friend... and he invited me to join them.. so i did.. i placed my laptop and bag there with my revision summary notes on top of my laptop.. i thought for a second if i should ask wai kit to keep a lookout for my valuables.. but i thought it would be a given.. boy was i so wrong... within less than 1min when i returned with my drink, my revision summary notes was missing.. at first i thought it might have flew off and we sparked off a 15min search but to no avail.. then i cant help but wonder if it is that guy who was sitting next to our table who might have took it.. cant remember his name.. but its this irritating guy from sem 1 in general physio lab... super noisy and crappy.. didn't really like him and i guess my facial expressions tell it all.. its impossible for my notes to fly out of the canteen for so far that i cant find in less than 1min.. its bound to have been someone who either took it to use, or threw it away in contempt.. 2 lessons... I will have to trust my valuables to more trustworthy friends... 2. never leave any openings for contempt to strike...damn it.. 3hrs of hard work.. all gone...
haiz.. anyways i moved on from that event and so another week is about to begin.. and boy.. why do i always forget to remind myself not to take NEL to harbourfront at 8-9pm? oh man.. it was all peace and quiet till farrer park and little india.. the strong whaft of men who havent bathed all day... simply priceless...
dEminG
i think i ought to invest in a gas mask and a notes trap (works like a rat trap)
My mind's unweaving/ 9:58 PM
Thursday, March 13, 2008
NUS のせいかつはたのしいですが、すこしさびしいです
Translation => Life in NUS is enjoyable, yet alittle lonely at times.
Well to sum it into one sentence, I realise i have many friends but few companions... In uni we meet new people every time we sit with a friend, join a planning event, attend a new tutorial group etc etc... We greet, shake hands, self introduce... Friends (or some say acquaintances) are made... I would like to say all these people who i have met and interacted with a few times are my friends and most of them i prioritize the same way as other friends.. save for my old friends since sec sch, jc or army..
but its always remains a shock when i feel that i am a 'friend/acquaintance' not worth the sacrifice of my friend.. that spending time to do me a favour, help me check something, chat with me, is almost a waste of time... i aint doing any advertisement but i know that i always do my best to help my friends in need.. (A friend in need is a friend indeed?) So its really a harsh reality that this feeling is not mutual and is rarely reciprocated in the same extent...
By my second semester, i have gotten used to travelling back and forth to my relative's house at pasir panjang, keeping to myself and doing my best to not be a nuisance to my uncle's family.. this sem i have all my dinners by myself before i return home (also due to the late time tables)... not until when asked during a japanese dialogue class that i realised that i ALWAYS had meals alone... so this week i thought of trying something else.. try asking my friends out for dinner! due to the late timing, i was restricted to asking my friends who reside in the halls.. but to no avail as this week was no different from the rest.. everyone seems so busy nowadays.. with japanese lessons picking up and becoming more fun... my other modules with my revisions progressing well... making new friends and getting to know them better during lessons... life is pretty enjoyable... but still its still alittle lonely...
Many people assume i have many friends hence never a lack of companionship... maybe thats why they all stay away from me... I would like to beg to differ... I know i maybe a nuisance and really irritating at times.. but if possible i would like to have companionship every now and then to make my life abit more きれい(beautiful)..
U2 - Sometimes you can't make it on your own
Tough, you think you've got the stuff
You're telling me and anyone
You're hard enough
You don't have to put up a fight
You don't have to always be right
Let me take some of the punches
For you tonight
Listen to me now
I need to let you know
You don't have to go it alone
And it's you when I look in the mirror
And it's you when I don't pick up the phone
Sometimes you can't make it on your own
We fight all the time
You and I...that's alright
We're the same soul
I don't need...I don't need to hear you say
That if we weren't so alike
You'd like me a whole lot more
Listen to me now
I need to let you know
You don't have to go it alone
And it's you when I look in the mirror
And it's you when I don't pick up the phone
Sometimes you can't make it on your own
I know that we don't talk
I'm sick of it all
Can - you - hear - me - when - I -
Sing, you're the reason I sing
You're the reason why the opera is in me...
Where are we now?
I've got to let you know
A house still doesn't make a home
Don't leave me here alone...
And it's you when I look in the mirror
And it's you that makes it hard to let go
Sometimes you can't make it on your own
Sometimes you can't make it
The best you can do is to fake it
Sometimes you can't make it on your own
dEminG
noT an "EMO" post... a post of my inner feelings..
My mind's unweaving/ 10:06 PM
Sunday, March 09, 2008
whoa.. with a blink of the eye its already sunday!! argh! hahaa.. ok lar.. after another life shortening thursday (thanks to jap) i went home (sk) like a limp zombie.. only to read the papers about the man being shot at outram mrt.. but guess by the time i took the train home it was all cleared up and all... went down to macrithchie on friday morning to paddle abit on K1.. realising my pathetic balancing again.. after training with TeamNUS, i was about to head home when i spotted the J2s waiting for training too.. so i decided to just stay and look at the juniors training..
waited for about another 2hrs before their training started when i saw coach.. as usual he doesn't even make eye contact or talks to me.. i guess having cross eyed means he doesn't have the b*lls to look properly.. lolx.. when they finally moved the boats down to the pontoon, i was seated on a chair waiting for them when coach surprisingly called my name and asked for the keys.. so i said 'oh.. coach catch!' then i lobed the keys at him.. he just stood there like a block and the key dropped below his legs.. hahaa.. was abit shocked then.. but now i think about it.. the stupid look on his face was priceless! in fact it felt kinda deja vour like this happened back in JC too!!
probably coz he couldn't take the humiliation of having a slow response time he said 'deming, i appreciate you for taking time to come down and help but can you please leave now? Next time when i take training, don't come' hmm.. i was intepreting his tone and all at the same time repressing my urge to shoot back.. but as usual that coward said this in front of the juniors.. in interest of not worrying the team about a fight, i decided to back down and just leave.. what i really wanted to say was: "ok fine.. i never liked to see you here anyways.. I come here not for you not for the school.. but for the team... please don't be a hindrance or deadweight to the team and make yourself useful alright?" arrhh... take that you wh*re!
anyways.. after that went home took a nap from all the fatigue and then took my tongs.. (not thongs) down to ecp at 5pm plus to meet lina and co for the alumni BBQ!! woohoo.. our alumni strength is 44 i think.. all in all about 20+ attended.. alittle dissapointed at first as we wanted this bbq to bring the whole alumni together to let them know about our activities.. but i guess the 'lao laos' or the senior alumnus aren't too keen on competitive and senior advisor roles le.. but nonetheless it was nice mingling with different batches, even andrea who just got his A level results that friday was asking us for opinions about uni admission.. thats the merit of having an alumni isn't it? =] next target: Army Half Marathon 2008!!
SRACC WHOOSH!!!
saturday was MR500!! this year was held at seletar reservoir instead of MacRitchie (hence its name: MR) and was my first time attending a DragonBoat cum Canoeing Race.. was quite refreshing as i saw familar faces like choon guan and jun xiong from the NUS dragon boat team there too!! went there to cheer for the NUS canoeing Team.. then saw lots and lots of unfamilar faces that seemed pretty unreceptive... and as usual when they know i was from SRJC their faces will change.. eitherways i really enjoyed the sunny day and race atmosphere even meeting our own alumni ppl, zhen hao, yaohui, jeremy, sharon and marcus there.. I just love canoeing!!
go dragonboaters!!
SRJCians in TeamNUS! Train Hard and Prove Ourselves!
1 Man Action!
beautiful waters under the bright beautiful sun!
went home showered and napped again before heading out to aranda country club at night for xue ying's 21st birthday!! Xue Ying, Beng Heng, May and me dated way back to Secondary 3 in 2001 i think.. we were scouts and guides from St Gabriels and Mayflower sec respectively that met and clicked well so we formed a sorta 'godbro godsis' family back then (was the "in" thing you know!) and called ourselves the sotongs! haha.. though nowadays i'm the only one who still bears Sotong as my MSN nick~ we still keep in contact and share funny moments though we meet up less often! congrats to xy for becoming 21! may all your wishes come true k!! =]
Left to Right: Beng Heng, Me!, May, Xue Ying!
random numbered cam whoring! happy birthday!! =D
dEminG
now i have a target.. i have one enemy i want to surpass and win... I shall paddle faster and better than him and prove him wrong!
My mind's unweaving/ 10:40 AM
Wednesday, March 05, 2008
arrh the sweet smell of $200 in my pocket.. hahaa! yesterday at a moments whim, i booked my IPPT together with brandon on 29th March at Maju Camp in the morning~~ coz i felt like my bdae was coming soon le.. so had better clear it soon ya... targetting IPPT silver, and with the booking done i finally got the motivation to start running and training for IPPT le... as per my army days... i wont be training pull up, shuttle run or sit ups... Sure get A one for these.. just 2.4km and standing broad jump..
so after the everboring LSM1102 lecture, i went for dinner with mr and mrs ong at YIH subway before dropping by sports club room to grab 2 MOS tickets for my skit tml~ haha was kinda funny meeting up with my TB classmate and practising at science canteen spinellis with so many people giving us weird faces as i directed the skit and did all sorts of embarassing actions... haha dont care!! just hope can get a good score tml for originality and humour.. hehz.. then went back to my relatives house changed into my safti singlet and off i went for my running exercise!!
first ran around the A1 route, from the biz library up to KE7 and out to science park.. as usual the slopes killed me there.. and though i kept tellign myself to conserve energy for later when i see slope i just pia.. hahaa.. then ran down to NUH and finally the SRC track... after resting for about a min, i started on my 4x 400m interval training.. target: 1.30min per round... surprisingly, on my first round i hit 1.17min for 400m.. haha i thought after not running on track for so long i will be around 1.45min.. but then the revelation came during the 2nd run when i got stitches and clogged 1.43min.. followed by 1.47min and 1.33min for the last 2 rounds.. each round was about 1.30min / 1.35min / 1.45min / 2.00min rest.. phew... almost died there... if i was training back like my JC or army days during the last 100m sprint i will shout out and go beserk to finish.. but running in campus with the touch rugby gals training at the field.. i too paisey to pia alone.. hahaa..
after i caught my breath i impromptu added 3x 100m sprints just for fun as i felt like i still had energy.. to my horror during the first 100m sprint i felt my ligament having symptoms of ligament pull! arhh.. the feeling of your muscle tissues all dislocated lidat.. so the last 2 100m sprint i did not go all out not wanting to tear my leg muscles.. after doing static stations i then went back to where i stopped jogging to go to the field and intended to complete the full A1 route jogging.. but as i jogged past the university hall the pulling feeling hit an all time high and i stopped before i got a cramp or pull.. abit sia suay with passer bys around.. but i stopepd aside to stretch and decided to walk abit...
walked all the way to central lib and was tempted to take the shuttle bus back... but the idea of stinking the bus and giving up didn't go quite well with me... jia you together! haha brandon said... hahaa no lar.. i didn't think of that just now... but i guess its just my stubborn canoeist pride.. even if i had to walk back (aint that far really) i aint gonna take a bus back... so i walked down to FASS when i thought i could jog le so i resumed jogging at gals pace.. somewhere temasek hall my leg cramped so i was limping.. haha even a car drove past me slowly thought i got injured or something.. but with about 400m to my destination i just bite the pain and kept jogging lor.. down alumni house, kent ridge hall... and wella! pasir panjang road!! woohoo i survived! hahaa my blood pressure didnt skyrocket nor did i cramp out to hit the ground so i'm pretty satisfied.. look forward to more interval trainings and 2.4km runs to build up to IPPT!!
crudely drawn run route~ haha copyrights to NUS!!
IPPT Silver $200 here i come!!
dEminG
doing sports helps me get my woes out of my head~~ =D
My mind's unweaving/ 9:38 PM
Tuesday, March 04, 2008
man... my whole body is aching now man.. haha cant even reach for my left back using my right hand... arghh... just i overestimated my fitness conditioning.. yesterday joined the nus team for gym training.. first time worked out at the conditioning lab near the swimming pool... had alot less equipment than i thought.. but it was big and airy so ok lar.. at least the equipment is all brand new and nice unlike the rusty SRJC gym equipment.. haa.. did 3 sets with brandon using alittle heavy weights... the bar itself had weights so i aint too sure how heavy i actually did..
then today woke up at 530am and took the very first bus 151 from kent ridge terminal and reached macrithchie reservoir at 6.45am in darkness... was drizzling and veryvery cold!! i ended up huddling by the side trying to get as much warmth as i can under my bag as the occasional raindrops send cold shivers down my body... felt alittle deja vour to my army theres when i was out in the field and spending hours in this kinda of cold and wet weather... once they arrived we went on to paddle 8km for warm up followed by some 500m sprints.. haha not used to gym the day before water training my muscles were all tensed up in a state of tetanus (gen physio) so couldnt pull with consistently hard strokes.. sobz... but as the rest said.. give my body time to be conditioned again... cant be an ex-canoeist lose to brandon! haha.. gotta admire his determination yah.. within 6 weeks he can improve very very fast for someone who never paddled competitively before~ =]
after lunch at clementi with the team, i got back and K.Oed from the lack of sleep and the strong persuasive power of the bed and the chilly weather... all snuggled and warm, my nap that initially was set to end by 1pm dragged on till 2.45pm.. hahaa.. after that went school to submit lab report before coming back to resume sleep... then in the evening lobang weiliang's car to clementi to try botak jones.. aint too bad.. abit of a restaurant standard for $7.50.. though maybe the fries can be made better... was plannig to go Jurong Point to get my comic but luckily the one at the mrt finally stocked so saved me a long trip... the west is really ulu lar! so hard to buy comics.. hahaa.. =P
actually when i was having dinner i recalled a conversation over lunch with huiling and diana on monday~ about me being "ひとりで”all the time (alone)... i recall i was trying desperately to find companions back in semester one who stayed in the east i.e sengkang or hougang from science.. thats why i tried to open up my social circle and tlaking to more people trying to find "go-home / dinner khakis" unfortunately many of them all stay in the west or had different time tables from mine.. even on sunday when my parents went for a cruise, i tried to find people to have dinner with me either at sengkang or near to school (as i was heading to my aunts house) but to no avail.. i guess being unable to find companionship for such a long time made me pretty much accustomed to being alone all the time.. so i don't feel any particular sense of depression or anything... hahaa.. maybe thats why i recently don't have quite the motivation to woo anyone too... and yah in case huiling is reading this... i just recalled the most important attribute i would look for would be: "Mature yet Fun-Loving at the same time"... =] i don't think its something very hard to find aye? =]
my relatives house along pasir panjang road! 2min walk from Business School! =D
decided to buy myself a pair of oakley shades this year to reward myself should i improve my fitness and canoeing too... but i'm kinda mixed between this two types.. lense colour aside.. which one do you all think i should get?
Flak Jacket
OR
Half Jacket
haha make use of my underutilized tagboard k! =P thanks for your views in advance!
dEminG
i need tiger balm... arhhh.. someone massage me!! >.<
My mind's unweaving/ 9:17 PM
Sunday, March 02, 2008
haha pardon my last post... was kinda in a dissed off mood then coz of my canoeing coach... hahaa.. somehow he got the miscommunication that i was b*stard enough to just show my face all of a sudden and plan all the training for the juniors team... he briefed the juniors in such a way that he was going one big circle to shoot me... saying things like '... you don't just listen to any person who comes out of nowhere and follow their training~ when i take training you follow my training! not any tom dick or harry..' obviously i was soooo pissed i was tempted to punch him in the face then... seriously back from my jc days when i was captain till now, i never liked or respected him as a coach...
back then he would always say i was wasting my teams time after training during my debriefs and prep talks... but then for the 06-07 canoeing team i see him talkng to the team after training till they started to doze off... back then after his coaching for 1 year plus.. i realised he was a coach that can teach us how to canoe yes... tells us what to do for training i.e. 4 laps etc etc... but he does not train us to win... most of the time back then he'll just chit chat with the team gals and make unconstructive comments on our strokes.. even when i ask him about some ways i thought i could go faster, all i received were answers that left more questions in my mind.. until when nationals drew closer and i saw no effort in moulding us to win, my pair and other motivated pairs did secret trainings and took each other as rivals to motivate ourselves to paddle better..
the training on friday was the program that annabelle the canoeing teacher who planned it... and i was merely asked to help supervise its execution... apparently coach was not considered within the school budget and annabelle was somewhat hinted to be the coach of the team... of coz i share his sentiments of his pride being shattered... (though i do not say i sympatize for him) but after he said he does not want to coach the team anymore, after being persuaded to help annabelle as 2 coaches, now he throws his weight around when she isn't around... i have NEVER forced my training ideals onto my juniors.. but somehow whenever he sees he, he gets the impression that i am here for ulterior motives or to be the 'all-mighty' senior kinda thing... indeed.. bad blood run deep..
not only did he make me look bad in front of the team... when i asked him a question for the sake of a junior who was unsure of his strokes... he just totally ignored me... holding back my urge to throw the paddle in my hand into his face, i just asked him to talk to coach himself and coach actually replied... what a s*n of a b*tch really.. I fully support annabelle taking over the team but of coz she feels she needs coach's experience and support as she is inexperienced.. so for the sake of the team as a whole and annabelle, i'll just hold back all my inner thoughts.. honestly he has become so soft that i am not surprised the team has not made any achievements since my juniors batch.. it is not rare that a coach that does not produce result become ditched aside... i say its time to move along...
ok.. with that said and done... got one part of my frustration out already.. so lets move on to the happy things! haha ok lar not that happy actually.. but strangely when i get all the reservist call up letters, i suddenly got the 'gian' to don on my uniform again.. just last sat morning i went to yio chu kang stadium to join my brigade commaders for the armoured road relay training.. though i am not able to compete on the actual day, i actually enjoyed the training and chatting with other older men from other reservist units.. did 6x 200m and 3x 50m sprints.. haha it was raining as we ran so my muscles were all cold and hibernating so didn't really max out.. bleahss... next tuesday i'll be having a meeting! woohoo... gotta prepare my uniform!! kinda regret not taking a full length pic of me in uniform before... nows the chance!! *camwhore in action*
ok.. tml i got new media CA... have to submit my 3000 word essay that i feel that i didn't really do to my usual standard... and to submit my practical report that only my bench is due for tml (everyone else is on friday!!) then as usual have japanese quizes AGAIN.. but those arent really the highlights for the day... its GYM day!! woohoo.. look forward to gymming with the NUS canoeing team... havent really done hard gym training since my JC days so though i expect myself to ache like crazy after tml's training i look forward to the endorphine rush!!
dEminG
Holidays End.. Exams Beckon.. Friends Await!!
My mind's unweaving/ 9:08 PM
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