hahaa... today has been a very tiring day... so much so i feel so drained... then again i aint tired enough to knock out after a shower alike my canoeng days... todays school started at 8am... then non-stop lessons from 1pm-8pm... didnt even eat dinner per se.. just chocolate latte and some curry puffs... despite all that practise, still aint performing as well as others in my japanese tutorials and even failing my lecture and tutorial quizes... i just feel so tired and drained...
after the my last lesson from 7-8pm, which was actually quite fun lest the fact it was graded, i took a bus to harbourfront and rushed back to SRJC to meet for the alumni... was surprised to see alot of senior people in their 30s plus with some of them having graduated from SRJC in 1989 (i was only 3 years old then!)... unfortunately they were more or less done so i only voiced abit before we called it a day...
after getting back... i sat down after a shower and thought through my tasks:
1. Coordinate Canoeing Training this Saturday 2. Communcate between Singapore Canoe Federation and SRJC on the SRACC boat usage 3. Need to read practical notes for tommorrow 4. Urge to type proposals for how the SRJC Alumni may work better 5. Think if its feasible to meet the principal personally tml before heading to school 6. The NUS Biathlon meeting tml at 4pm (and what to do from 2-4pm) 7. To start gather seniors from the SRACC to help the juniors 8. To work harder for my Japanese to be on par with the rest 9. To train myself up to join TeamNUS Canoeing Team next week 10. Organise class outing
many more thoughts crowding in, but i guess this are my priorities... hahaa some seems similar and so easy... but its actually so ardous and difficult.. I'm starting to really break down abit... i guess with my daily life i can sustain coz i dont have time to stop and think... but when i actually do i feel so bogged down... and just wish someone could take all this weight off me or physically be there for me... then again... valentines day coming up too... though i dont profess so i still fight off the terrible feeling of loneliness in seeing happy couples around sharing their happiness and pain together.... then again with all my committments I don't suppose i had time for anyone do i?
its so scary that if i do not do any of those listed above myself, it will either not happen or be done wrongly.. i always motivated myself to be the agent of change... to be something differnt... someone to make the difference... but its really so so tiring.... the saying of 'you want something done? do it yourself!" has been bugging me all the time from previous experiences.... I can do it myself.. i know i can... but the capacity to do so does not mean i have the energy to do so.... I'm just so so tired.... who can truly help me? who can truly support me? all i can do is pray and hope that no matter what the means that the outcome becomes as desired... but then.... the feeling of its all up to me again... is just so overwhelming..
always aiming for the skies is such a gruelling task... (taken from highest point in NUS *i think*)
dEminG I need some happiness for a change..
My mind's unweaving/ 11:38 PM
Tuesday, January 29, 2008
Who invented the mouse?
dEminG
My mind's unweaving/ 10:39 PM
Sunday, January 27, 2008
phew... today marks the end of 3 days of non-stop canoeing and canoeing admin matters... wow... my weekend just flew me by and i'm still in a state of shock of the amount of work i need to catch up on before tml's lesson... i think my blood pressure just shot up again.. hahaa! phew.. but it felt all worth it at the end of the day... i feel so excited about canoeing again that i think my blood pressure really going to skyrocket! lOLx
on friday i went down for training with the juniors and paddled for the full route twice so completing 14km~! was kinda worried during the 2nd round when i found myself paddling alone for 3/4 the journey.. coz i actually do not wear specs down to water (fearing it turn into kallang property like my cap) so i cant see anything for NUTS... so i thought maybe they packed up without me... but oh wells i just thought of being selfish alittle and just kept going and completed my 2 rounds of 7km each... to my surprise i came in so called second when i completed the 14km while the rest of the team either were behind me, or they went for their 3rd round... its honestly quite disturbing at how slow the juniors are.... but i guess they arent to blame.. in fact im pretty impressed at how they can take such huge shocks of reality yet still show constant signs of improvement.... some alumni say we ought to focus on the J1s... still i see hope in the J2s...
after that we ended training and weiliang gave me a drive home after eating at old airport road and studying at kallang macdonalds... and i did some stuff before sleeping again only to wake up at 6am the next morning on saturday... sure felt like hitting myself since its been like months since i woke up without the sun in the sky.. hahaa... all for what you say? i went to kallang again! this time the juniors went to paddle one wrong for confidence building but to my dismay only liang kiat came down to help... our mission: Move 4 T2s, 1 T1 and 2 K1s from the water sports centre to the beach holding area 150m away.... i was having a huge headache as i didnt want to rely on the juniors hence affecting their training and between me and liang kiat doing alot of work... end up the alumni pride took over and liang kiat and i paddled boat by boat to the beach and walking back for 3 rounds... was DAMN sian... then again like what i told lk... it feels interesting to be so relaxed and easy going at kallang (considering we used to run up and down all the time)
so what could have been completed in 30min took me and liang kiat 3hrs to account for all the alumni boats, their seats, their paddles and their footrest.... phew... hence we prematurely decided that the 9 of them who didnt come to help ought to treat us to dinner! boats dont grow legs and walk over you know! hahaa... with that done and our muscles aching from carrying 7 boats.. i went to simei to collect my K850i back and the guy just told me its software problem... like in 2 months! omg.. abit pissed.. but to get my dear k850i back felt so good i forgave them... then again... i realised my backup contacts the last time was not saved successfully.. so my contact list is all GONE!! please please... if you all can just send me your number k? dont have the time to go through each contact list and add one by one.. haiss.. so i got home cooked dinner and slept at 9pm...
this morinng i woke up EVEN earlier... at 5.15am... hahaa... omg... SO EARLY CAN!! felt damn sian... but still thought of making breakfast but had no bread.. so no choice go compass point 7-11 buy bun to eat before heading to marcus' house to catch a ride to kallang.. once we reached i got super busy coordinating the boat and paddle and life jacket with some surprises here and there.. but i dare say my command and control is pretty polished so though had problems it all turned out nice... so we headed over prep the boats as i registered.. after the mass briefing the waves started one by one... so exciting!!
we come from SRJC canoeing ALumni!
so many paddlers!
i really think i got good photography skills.. dont you agree?
can you spot me? blue label 013!
Ready.... START!
once the 4th wave started off, we hurriedly launched our boats and was all a mess with so many boats in the lane so couldnt find my other teammates... then i felt thirsty and reached for my water bottle... OMG!! it was stuck at the back... i was mad in shock!! nevermind.. no choice suck on the thirst and keep going... finally the airhorn sounded and total pandemonia happened... imagine 100 boats lining up side to side... all aiming to 1 point about 15boats wide? yeah you pretty much see the picture... it was so many banging, knocking, cursing, scolding till i got pissed and decided to let them chiong forward first to prevent them doing anymore abuse to my boat.. on one occasion some idiot came so fast and hit my side tilting my boat and almost capsized, thank god i counterbalanced and stayed on the race...
for most of the race i was keeping pace with this K1 gal and we sorta took turns to do wave riding... (yeah i know you about to say i'm SLOW) but yeah its a K1.. and these JC gals arent those computer club kind you know? but then after portage i was pretty much alone and trying to keep up with other boats.. by the 2nd round my hands started to cramp probably from the hard paddling at the start point and my strokes begun to get weak but i kept pushing myself to keep going faster... then i saw a junior boat capsized... my initial thought was to go on and leave them to the safety boats... till they called me for help... frustrated but not wanting to leave someone in distress i went to get them into their boats... but that wasted like 8min and i bet at least 3 T1s overtook me...
after that i kept going but the stop made my muscles cold and was cramping up even more... once i tried to reach for my bottle again but to no avail... so i bit through the cramp and thirst and kept going... but to a certain point my muscles stopped listening to my mind and though i kept up the frequency, not enough strength was put in the strokes... during my last 100m i pushed myself to burst but it just wont bulge... i kept pushing and even shouting out my frustration but the speed was unacceptable.. after i passed the line when i reached the beach my mind was all in anger and angst... so much so liang kiat was worried about me...
but thankfully when the alumni team got back and chatted and stretched.. i kinda put my woes aside and enjoyed the company as well as the scenery... once the races were all over we paddled our boats back to the washing area and washed up before going to the prize presentation... to our surprise our T2 boys won bronze and gold! i was so shocked but very very happy for them especially liang kiat and weiliang who won their first medal ever... a GOLD too!! though we are different, i feel that they must have felt the same way like i did to graduate from SRJC canoeing without winning a medal... but then to win a gold as a SRJC Canoeing Alumni... is a great feat too!! though they initially dismissed it was just "novice" it was still a race against competitors on the same conditions.. to arrive first out of 20 over boats is really a great achievement... WELL DONE!!!
Tired... Can smile!!
Well done Liang Kiat and Wei Liang.. GOLD!!!
The 11 of us and our other fellow SR Alumni representing their schools!
after that the alumni then headed to leisure park again to have a japanese feast before heading back with very very tired bodies and minds... as i sat the long bus ride home i reflected on the whole day and all that training... though i might have won top 10 if i did not stop to rescue the juniors, i still felt i was lacking in my mental endurance and my body conditioning... i then set my frustration towards resolve and decided to train harder and more effective to make myself a better canoeists... all these years of paddling and loving the sport... I MUST AND WILL WIN A MEDAL!!! there will be other way around this!!
meanwhile! its japanese homework and new media lecture notes!! OMG!!
dEMinG A canoe race First... Then a student... Always a canoeist
My mind's unweaving/ 10:12 PM
Wednesday, January 23, 2008
phew... i'm spent... just got back from PA Kallang where i attended the Singapore Canoe Marathorn 08 Team Managers Meeting... started at 7.30pm and ended about 9pm... felt kinda cool being able to mix at this level of the coaches, teacher in charge, captains and all... feels all nice and warm to be in the canoeing feel again... hahaaa was quite a long briefing with weird questions popping out here and there... lucky annabelle came along too otherwise i would be all alone.. hahaa.. but was talking to this teacher from tmss who i mistook for a student at first.. haha so paisey! but she relief teacher ba... so should be quite young... then also get to hear some of the senior SCF volunteers share their experience as they talked to annabelle.. so cool!! think i might wanna volunteer to help out SCF in the future.. hehz... but then i dont wanna committ myself crazy again!! =P not to mention i'm really proud to be the only alumni team competing in this SCM! hahaa... LETS DO THIS!!
with only 4 days left to SCM08, been pretty busy myself trying to coordinate training for the alumni team... initially planned on sunday... but like what i mentioned in the previous post, the plans went to ruin... fortunately though managed to get a handful of us down on tuesday and we paddled abit on our own as the alumni team... initially planned to paddle 4 rounds (14km) but due to *cough* some delays due to the not-so-punctual-tendencies of some people we started 30min late! hahaa... arbish!! next training must set 20push up per minute late... back to my old captain rules.. MUHAHAA... we paddled about 10km and did some sprints back which totally felt SWEEEET!! woohoo!! the feeling of being at kallang again... PRICELESS
warm up!
whats canoeing without push ups?
we still love kallang!!
SRACC!! PADDLES UP!! GO!!!
after training saw a fellow NUS dragon boater i see all the time in my lectures... i didn't like the way he talked though... like he had something against me... he was like "what are you doing here?! training with NUS team?!? *disbelief tone*"... "nope.. training with SRJC alumni... training starting today ar?"... "huh..." turns and walk away... hahaa... to tell the truth i dont even know his name... but that was really damn b*stard... its like a dog-dog rivalry kind.. for no apparent reason... or is it something wrong with SOME tanned guys? high testorone? high adrenaline? i wonder is it the same reason why i see tanned hunky guys in nus wearing singlets to freezing cold lecture halls, strutting up staircase like a walkway or even jumping over LT desks DURING a lecture... wow... the things E-DIOTS can do... and yah.. its EEEE-DIOTS.... PERIOD!
ok.. enough with b*tching.. hahaa... note to gals: tanned hunky guys normally are horrible men... hahaa... but of course there are exception... for explanation consult your sports science book available in the NLB close to you~ well now back in aunts house stressing over the 2/3 of hiragana left to memorise before tml's lecture cum quiz.. then theres the lab report i still owe my partner... haiz... i starting to feel stress... on week 2 of school! omg!! with "bad" modules like lsm1102 and vague modules like LSM1101 and NM1101E.... i think i really gotta work doubly hard to get my target CAP for this sem!! must get 4.3!! to fulfil my dreams of SEP and to go europe!! woohoo!!! kkz... post finish then burn midnight oil le!! がんばて！
dEminG learning the way of the samurai~~ *YEAH RIGHT!*
My mind's unweaving/ 11:24 PM
Sunday, January 20, 2008
theres alot i would have wanted to talk about my first week in school, but i guess the most bloggable note was when i did a medical check up by ATA measuring my BMI, blood sugar and blood pressure... to my worst fears... the woman measured my bp 3 times as she was in disbelief earlier... it was then conclusive.. i had borderline high blood pressure... i already half worried about that during my gen physio practical last sem... but i thought it was just cause we were all noobs.. but a medical person couldnt get it wrong 3 times consecutively.. the woman asked me if i had a history and i grimly nodded and she asked me to take care of my diet and exercise more... and to check again soon if it increases to see a specilist... im barel 22... and im already having symptoms of high blood pressure... i'm not afraid of fights... challenges and all... cause i believe i can overcome... but if its hereditary... and it concerns my health.. it really scares me.... it really does..
today marks the first ever 'bad' days of 2008 for me... haha guess i cant survive a month without one of these... its those days that anything that can go wrong.... GOES WRONG!! oh mans... to kick off the morning, after i turn off my handphone alarm, i found it weird that my handphone kept vibrating in 6sec intervals beside the unconcious me... when i woke up, the handphone kept rebooting and switching off and on... i then tried troubleshooting by removing the sim card.. then the m2 card... cleaning the battery... but it just kept repeating.... GAWD!! it finally came.. barely 2 months and my K850i has gone bonkers.. f***!!! thanks to that i spent another 30min finding the parts of my old phone and transferred to sim card to my LG phone... by then i was already 40min behind time from my scheduled time of departure to east coast park....
when i finally finished that, my hp received the first sms from the day... and the one that really gave me the biggest headache... annabelle just found out that the kallang water sports centre was not open today!! then she said will try contacting the polo team captain if he was going down... so i already half expected i would have to contact the 11 of us who comprise the team for SCM08... to top it all off, i was late... my handphone did not have any numbers... and the details were still unconfirmed... with much dread i went to the bus stop as i contemplated to skip today's publicity campaign for the nus biathlon but i fought off the thoughts with how i felt about people who just fly kite and dont show support for the very activity he/she is involved in... before i had the time to decide, the bus arrived and i just boarded it...
and so i arrived at east coast park 30min late... but thankfully this time everyone else was punctual (while the rest didnt give a damn) so after i had my breakfast we headed out and started the publicity... was chatting with them and momentarily tried to get the stress and frustration out of me... at the same time, after weiliang found out that his fren was at kallang, i still hoped for that little chance that we might still be able to go down and paddle... then another side of me wanted to skip training and bring my beloved phone for repair... though i did my part in publicity my thoughts and minds were elsewhere... by lunch time, it was finally decided that nothing could be done about the training, so i got my mom to log onto my computer and send me all the phone numbers i needed to contact my team with... so i sms-ed all of them... or so i thought....
after 1pm i left east coast park and was on my way home with mixed thoughts of frustration and pressure that a severe headache struck me... i kept thinking about how to plan tuesdays training to ensure my team at least has 1 water training prior to scm itself.. then this whole gang of CHILDREN boarded the bus and made a freaking ruckus... first they talk loudly like their fren was 10m away when they were barely half a metre away... then they started to sing like they had wonderful voices... but i beg to differ... my blood begun to boil and was about to start an confrontation (btw they looked lke 16 year olds or so) when one of my teammates called me and started questioning me why i didnt contact her about the cancellation... apparently the number i sent to was either her old number or my mom sent me the wrong number.. so i tried explaining to her with all that background noise that i even said something i wouldnt usually say... haiz.. after that i wanted to apologise but my phone didnt have the number reflected... f*** it... then when i was about decided to really let those children have a piece of my mind, they alighted... lucky b*****s...
so i went home... checked the time and tried contacting sony ericsson for technical support... to my f***ing dismay, they were f***ing closed on sundays! ugh! then i called the customer service centres twice.. but no one bothered to pick up the phone... then i checked online finally and found that the one at east point would close at 5pm.... by then i was already very fed up with everything and the thought of taking public transport again dissed me off... so i hurriedly took the first cab that came by and spent a whooping $10 just to get from sengkang to simei.... f***ing c**** b** 20cents increment for crying out loud!! even asked for a receipt so i can vent my anger on someone if the opportunity presents itself.. so i went to the custmer service at 3.14pm, took my queue number... 116.... now serving... 86... omg... i was like wtf?? a part of me hoped that the numbers would jump so i hanged around,,, but it didn't and occasionally some of the counter staff would go for breaks or some old f*** would barge in demanding immediate service... then my headache really reached the climax and was tempted to tell off one old guy who was scolding the customr service gal.. but i decided to let out some air so i went out and buy milk tea and chilled around before coming back again...
after 1hr 40min of wait, it was finally my turn... the customr service person was very soft, which proved she had a rough day herself... so i instinctively tried to calm my inner anger as much as possible and explained my situation.. thankfully she was really patient and even talked crap with me... even took time to explain what was the possible problems.. satisfied, i sent it in for servicing with SLA of 5days... haiz. guess im stuck with my LG phone for the rest of this week... the worst thing is all my memory and contacts will be lost! argh! damnit....
somehow, despite that long wait, to finally solve one problem lightened my stress alot and i decided to go tampines to eat dinner... when i got there i realised there was GV so i collected my GV movie club card which was 2 weeks overdue and paid my singtel bills which was 1 week overdue... and even packeted tori q back for dinner.. even when i got to the bus stop, the bus which usually take half an hour to arrive came within seconds... it suddenly looked like my day was finally turning for the better.. and the time was 7pm....
so i got home... printed out all my stuff for this week, packed my bag... realised that i did not manage to do my jap and lsm revisions, havent started on my lab report... was more than enough reason to be stressed again but i thought i would sort them out later at my aunts place and end all this crap of a bad day once and for all... starting past midnight tonight, after 0000hrs, this f***ing bad day ends!!
dEminG every day is a struggle... every breath is a fight...
My mind's unweaving/ 11:03 PM
Tuesday, January 15, 2008
woohoo!! school has started!! to keep myself high and enthu i changed the song to Blur - Song 2! hahaa... gotta keep the fire going man!! before the start of school the green team met up again this time at kushinbo suntec!! always wanted to try it... but some group of friends say too ex.. others say dont like jap food... thankfully had the green team and our january babies da ge caelan, dixie and natasha to thank for!! =P
i started off with potato salad and sushi~~ had sashimi! nice thick slices of salmon, tuna and magura... yums! then got a chawanmushi that was damn nice! shared a kaminabe (paper hotpot) with weiling wilson and bin~~ then came the seafood! snow crab and live prawns! wohoo!! was damn nice... but i always kana those with alot of seawater.. LOLX.. so salty!! >.< then came the fried food... teppanyaki... teriyaki... omg!! then they had those domdomdom special which was cheese lobster... had only like 40 per special but was dissapointing as it didnt taste fresh at all!! but i had it twice... =P LOBSTER mah!! then came the deserts.. mini donuts... DANGO!! mochi... lime sorbet... banana eclairs.. etc etc... then had lipton tea at the end... good food and great company~~ i say its $47 well spent man!! =D
Team 100+++
attached or not~ the guys of green team are the bestest always! =D
yesterday was the first day of school with 1 lecture in the morning at arts for my new media lecture... hahaa... compared to my previous arts module (EC1301) this arts module really felt like arts... all the readings... weird lecturers... and not forgetting the completely different playing field... even fabby couldnt resist nodding his head in agreement with me for once.. haha... after that met up with huiling and benedict... pam later on joined her one and only friend sheena and we had lunch at the deck... arh.. back to school food.. figured should go for something nice then.. so i went for the yong tau foo.. after that went back to science to help out with the biathlon booth alittle before heading back home...
packed and changed and after i went to cp to bank in a cheque came a heavy downpour.. as i board the bus i kept praying hard that the rain will stop at 6pm when the juniors training start lest i waste my time going down... and it really did stop at 5.55pm... thank you!! so we had a short land training with me being a kind of devil and hitting them hard on the track... but due to time constrains and having to train about 120 people at one time (we occupied like 1/3 the 400m track) the training wasnt as tough and long as i hoped as the sun begun to set.. had a little to say to the J1s with my sudden inspiration for speeches my juniors loved to hear so much~ after dinner with miss ng and some of the J2s i took a long train ride back to harbourfront again and went to my aunts place and K.O for the night (all that travel time really killed me)
today was supposed to be my free day.. but i thought of doing my part for the biathlon and went down to school to man the booth since 10am... didnt have much people signing up with the website not really up yet... about 1month left to biathlon and some of us still seemed so dead and unenthu... so abit discouraging.. but then also have the enthu guys as we chatted and all while waiting for people to approach us and time to pass... after like 4hrs... when the others came by i thought i hung around long enough so i headed over to KE7 met up with fabby and chat and studied alittle before having a mi goreng dinner and head back to my aunts place with fabby's bamboo stick cum my canoeing paddle practise...
kinda discouraged again with some paperwork and admin matters from the school which relates to the SRJC Canoeing Alumni team... nonetheless i'll still have to work it out somehow or im afraid we will end up at stalemate again.. then again its encouraging to see more guys/gals volunteering their time to help out the junior team so that i can slowly focus more on the compeitive side again... with only 12 days left to the Singapore Canoe Marathorn, i cannot hope to win... but i want to "TRAIN WITHOUT REGRETS"... cant always teach the juniors things that i do not manifest myself.... gambatte deming!!!
dEminG "why do we train ourselves so hard.. to sweat and tears.... with no end in sight?? how come???" I thought for a moment... and told him... "Because we are a family... the SRJC Canoeing Family"
My mind's unweaving/ 8:06 PM
Saturday, January 12, 2008
phew... after a 4 day stint at home... i think i'm finally recovered.... the casualties? 2x Juniors Water Training... 1x Biathlon Meeting.... 1x Night Cycling Expedition PICE (III).... its regrettable... especially the last one... but since i finally got better i don't think its a loss to me... besides i always like to "live to fight another day" =]
I finally got all my 5 modules at last... other than my 2 core modules LSM1101 and LSM1102, i got SP1202 next as alternative to SP1201... SP1201 was dead popular going at like 700-1000 points... i got SP1202 that satisfies the same requirement for 1point.. then again.. its not a free S/U.... i didnt get LSM1202 (Human anatomy) as i hoped but in the last window when there was only 1 slot left i go and whack 900 points which sparked off a arms race cum nuclear arms race with one guy getting it for 1150... haha god bless him man... =P
i initially bidded for PL1101E Introduction to psychology.. it had 2x more slots than last year so i was kinda hopeful can get it... within 2hrs the number sky rocketed to more demand than supply! omg... 50 more bidders than vacancies.. like not sad... so together with fabby we jumped ship to NM1101E New Media and Society~ got it for 1point! songs.. then with no other modules left i bid for japanese with hl and jackie... and was glad got it rather cheaply at 150points.. wheeee~~
alright... been sorting out my notes alittle and preparing my stationary for start of school on monday~~ with my planned time table i have tuesdays free every week and fridays free on alternate weeks! woohoo!!! still alittle busy with alumni matters but hopefully can settle it by the first week of school... its quite a chore considering how a school takes 1 week to draft a letter that i already typed the format for... and to get money out of the main school alumni~ haiz... efficiency is rare nowadys~~
dEminG standby for NUS!
My mind's unweaving/ 5:58 PM
Wednesday, January 09, 2008
ARGH!!! I ****ING HATE GETTING SICK!! damn it.. woke up this morning to a mild fever and the cough got worst with chesty coughs that everytime i cough i feel that my lungs almost hopped out... so i put an ice pack and slept more... at noon i felt over to SRJC to help out with the cca recruitment... wanted to take the sidelines and talk to ppl to join... but with all the nostalgia of being back in school.. seeing the college dance (last emotion).... seeing teachers... setting up our canoeing booth.. i starting yelling and shouting instinctively to get the mood up for the juniors to recruit...
the recruitment was astoundingly good with quite a number of people volunteeringly coming to the booth to sign up... others were intrigued with our ergo machine... which i crazily whacked for 2-3 times to impress onto people the toughness of canoeing.. lead the team in our signature cheer last time and lost my voice in the process... dunnoe good or bad but alot of those recruited were gals.... darn.... all in all we got 100+ people who signed their name... but as per usual years... 50 will turn up for the 1st training then only 20 or so will remain... which is quite a concern to me too.. since already the J2s themselves are facing a boat shortage... a huge team does not really favour us really well...
after that we kept up and they started training... as i still wasnt feeling well i watched as they did their warm up run.. but when they did their sprint jog circuit i decided to go down and support them.. miss ng split the gals and guys team and she followed the gals.. so i instinctively followed the guys team... felt bad not doing the circuit with them... but i shouted at them... encouraged them.. taunted them.. trying to get their fighting spirit up... i was kinda shocked though that the guys team seemed really lacking in terms of land training for a J2... but i guess its coz of the 1 land training per week as compared to 2 land trainngs per week when i was in school...
i jogged alongside with them and tried to encourage them and i felt my coughs getting harder and harder... but giving up wasnt something i as a canoeist will do so i tried ot keep up and jogged in jeans.... its a wonder why no one scolded me... but i guess the students all could tell i was an alumni... haaa... bad exapmle... after that they did weights as i supervised and taught them proper gym techniques at the end... i realised its really very very important for us alumni to be around... if not they would have taught the juniors the wrong things too... i thought coach would have taught them properly but i guess some things are better shared by seniors...
after training i had a drink with miss ng and jingxiu as they talked about their national team experience which got me really psyched up... now im super inclined to join NUS canoeing team as soon as i recover.. though i fear being ostracized i figured i needed another direction and challenge in life.. before i was satisfied telling myself... i did canoeing in JC.. it changed my life... but then i dont want it to be of the past like im getting used to it now... i wanna keep going.. keep achieving.. and achieve what i couldnt back in JC.... i wanna be stronger!
then again even after showering and all... i still feel my body hot and my coughing feels like i'll cough blood anytime soon... haiz.... it sucks for someone like me ot get sick you know... coz my frenz are so used to me being so enthu and always there when i said i will be there... whenever i fall very sick like now... they just think of me like any other guy who just gives outings, gatherings a miss for a small cold... but even like just now i was very concerned that i may spread my germs to others and even if i recover in a few days, subjecting myself to strenuous activties will probably cause my system to collapse again... haiz.... what will it take for them to understand? maybe i should really cough blood and show them before they are satisfied... just hope i fully recover soon!!
dEMing i wanna get well soon!
My mind's unweaving/ 11:51 PM
oh mans.... im feelin soooooo sick now.... damnss... i knew i was geting too active and all but last night topped it all with a heavy downpour as i cycled back from ecp... by the time i got home i was dripping wet and a fever was coming.... thankfully after taking medicine and sleeping with ice bags i'm feeling alittle better.. but i guess strenous activities have to wait again~~
hmm what did i do then? sunday i went to pulau ubin! hahaa changed quite abit... then again some parts never do change... went to visit the chek jawa (finally) and also tried out this new bicycle park on the western side... then again the slopes in ubin never fail to awe us... as we struggled and pushed ourselves up steep slopes... and then enjoying the sheer exhiliration of wind blowing past your face as you race down the slopes again~~ shioks!
I love boat rides!
welcome to pulau ubin!
i saw superman!
on chek jawa tower!
on the eagles nest~
natural beauty of Ubin Quarry!
we conquered ubin!
after sleeping alittle longer on monday moring i headed down to school to join in the juniors land training... did a fartlek circuit with them and was dying through the 2nd round but as a senior had to push myself and keep encouraging them... also after that did weights which i gave a miss as timed circuits require my body to be conditioned.. but after seeing them chiong made me feel super nostalgic and i tried one circuit myself.. shiok! after that sat down at the grandstand that i always used to gave my speeches and chatted with a few of them... had a little talk with the team though i realised my debriefing prowess wasnt as good as before when i was captain... i did share some things with them hoping that they would improve and do their best for their races this year! SRJC Canoeists whoosh!!
when i got back i was so tired i could barely remember what was on tuesday... then luckily the survivors opened a mass conversation and reminded me of the ECP excursion tml! hahaa.. heng sia.. met at mac at 3pm.. was pouring at 1pm but stopped by 2pm so i quickly cycled down from sengkang to ecp... we then cycled down the coastal park all the way to changi beach park before heading back~ later on had dinner at pasta mania parkway parade before i cycled back... along still road it started raining hippos and elephants so i tired to pia faster.. then got one young punk keep trying to race me so i also whack lor.. hahaa... until my pockets also getting wet so i went to shelter and water proofed my wallet and all before continuing.. was especially dangerous last night... every car was going damn fast.. the bus drivers didnt want to give way and one almost knocked me down at the bus stop... thankfully the last 2km or so the rain stopped and i got home.. took a hot shower then as i was keeping my bike, the heavy rain caught up to sengkang.. heng ar!
all ready to set off!
at photophilic bedok jetty!
all the way to changi beach park!
getting our lost fats back!
the feeling sucks though.. the impending illness... my body still feeling very feverish as my body aches all over.. later on still going to school to help out the juniors with cca recruitment.. then theres the biathlon publicity campaign coming up along with PICE (III)... hopefully i will get well soon or else i'll have to give them up le.... argh.... feel like shit...
dEminG Everyone gets tired... What defines a canoeists is how he / she handles it...
My mind's unweaving/ 10:50 AM
Sunday, January 06, 2008
woww.... its been like 6 days but it still felt like it was damn short... hahaa... in fact i have trouble recalling what i did up from the 1st till today... hmm... lets start from the 1st ya!! was having a countdown party at caelans place! guest starring huimin! the ben dan from china!! hahaa... we had alot of fun playing nintendo wii courtesy of chih seng so we play boxing... our usual drinking and all... woots! almost got wasted by wilson's tequila too! hahaa... =P when dawn broke, we went to clementi for breakfast before heading home to zzzzz....
the subsequent days i really cant recall.. save for watching house at home and playing games.. oh! almost forgot... we went to NSRCC for angela's 21st birthday~~ haha angela actually made her own agar agar cake for her birthday~ so zai right! hahaa cant imagine me trying to bake my own cake for MY birthday.. =P bought her a set of winter clothes for her work attachment over in shanghai starting late jan~~ bon voyage and have fun there ange!! dont forget the souvenirs!! hahaa...
hey we were among the first to take pic with her k!! hahaa... 1s10'03!! woots
even in birthdays~ the NUS presence is strong! =P
life went on... then there are biathlon meetings in school... CORS bidding started on thursday though i wouldnt want to talk about that *** of a ***** stupid system... i didnt get the modules i want... abit sour still.. but well... life sucks at times... get used to it!! then again.. life rocks at times too! Gotta love it!!! =D now i starting to wonder if it was wrong to think i was blessed to be studying with the dragon year babies... hahaa... damn it! with all that spare time i also went about washing my baby as i couldnt stand using specks of dust on her!! damn... i love my bike!!
then the fun started on saturday~~ went to sentosa with the greenies... abit sad though that in the end only 4 of us went sentosa.. namely me, wilson bin and gary... it will be really demoralising for some to have such a small group but we still had alot of fun in the sun... playing frisby.... perspired.. tanned... got wet... chit chatted... im just thankful we went to sentosa after all... hahaa... then we were saying the couples are starting to break free from the singles le... so mean!! =P after a long day of sun we went to bukit timah food court for dinner! it was damn damn freaking far! but thankfully the food justified the distance.. had ngo xiang... wanton noodles.. carrot cakes... BBQ seafood! and lots of sugar cane juice! LOVELY!! after that went king albert park to chill before i took a long bus ride home to zzz~~
who said fat ppl like me cant go to the beach? LOlx.. just use frisby to hide! >.<
woke up real early today and went to singapore post centre at paya lebar to meet up with lina's batch to fill them in on what they missed on the 28th dec meeting... after that i rushed down to changi to join lai bun vince and kj to go ubin~~ was cheated by hui ying last min~ abit pissed but i dont fancy blogging pissed stuff on my blog... so we still went ahead... had alot of fun chionging up the slopes screaming in agony as the bike refused to bulge... got so muddy that the mud flew right smack into my face when we rushed down slopes.. we dropped by chek jawa and also the new bike park~ woots... was a great escape as always! but tired of coz!! so zzzzz... probably will upload photos later or tml!! time to nap before dinner~~ zzz
dEminG tired tired! but happy!!
My mind's unweaving/ 6:47 PM
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