Daryl L.D.M

Saturday, April 28, 2007

wooh.. shagged.. just woke up with a little dipsy feeling.. haha... fast sia.. my rest day le.. then its work tml.. SIANZ!! haha.. but its been a damn fun 2.. erh.. 1? hmm 1 and a half days? haha cant think straight le.. spent so much these few days lor... not just on fun stuff but also via internet transactions.. sobz.. my bank dropped below the stipulated plan le.. pay day come quicK!!

well to start it off.. think was thursday? yah its thursday after work went to manhatten fish market for dinner to cerebrate clibby's bdae!! my dearest buddy! haha.. weiliang li hua pok ming and daren too! had a huge feast eating butter mussels.. butter LOBSTER.. fries... fried fish... calamari!! omg... ate so much seafood i was high on salt.. loLx.. was a treat from clibby lor.. and we got him a raoul wallet!! happy bdae brudder!!

after that met up with team 100 before taking the long journey west.. loLx.. to boon lay!! haha seeing the night view reminds me of my sad days not too long ago taking this dreaded train on the dreaded track to the dreaded camp called OCS.. haha.. the only thing i like abt that place is the motto.. TO LEAD TO EXCEL TO OVERCOME!! and of coz the ji dan mian! haha so nice!!

went to huimins place to bunk in with team 100 + caelen.. haha.. at first was going thru the yearbooks.. loLx.. they fortified my point that i made in SRJC.. that SRJC was the reason why im single.. haha.. should have video taped their expressions when they saw my batch of gals.. they were commenting abt the baggy skirts.. the hideous faces.. the lousy make up? while patting my back in sympathy at the same time... i've named my yearbook the book of house of horrors!! haha...

later on we played card games.. and learnt that roger was a card maniac.. loLx be it old maid.. daidee etc he was super 'high' lar.. lolx.. bet he's gonna work at the IR casino next time! hahaa.. once all shagged we switched off the lights and started chatting... haha contents are censored in that room.. haha.. but its those kinda fun chat you only talk abt in the dark and while lying down trying to sleep.. poor roger was so fixed on playing cards or going home that he was so restless while we slowly KOed one by one...

haha.. soon was the morning when we had breakfast and chat more before i left for home... concussed for a few hours... and oh yah.. that night.. i mean yesterday was ys' bdae party at the labyrinth so i woke up changed into formal wear and went to ps to meet jk, fabby and kl for dinner before heading to the labyrinth.. passed ys he's present that fabby got.. haha.. i wanted to buy it myself but was so suay lor.. *refer to previous post* oh well...

had 2 bottles of chivas and 1 bottle of johnny walker green label.. realised green label was kinda nice man.. next on my shopping list le.. haha.. had losta fun taking photos and 'tahing'.. kai kian.. gary.. dewei.. alvin.. alvin lim.. wee keat.. nigel... donghai.. amos... fabian... jun kok... kiat loong.. etc etc... was alot of fun since we all knew each other.. haha.. amazingly even though i drank very fast i didnt get wasted.. haha instead i was the one accompanying them to the toilet to make sure they dont walk into the female toilet.. loLx..

thE only sane picture we took! haha.. for crazy ones go to my multiply ya!!

though was all guys it was damn fun lor... i guess coz its the quality of frenzship we shared.. haha... but they got wasted so fast the gf's start coming to collect them one by one.. hahaa.. so jealous.. i want someone to bring me home too! haha.. not really lar.. gary drove us home on his cool van man.. slept abt 1am lidat and woke up at 9am and been blogging and posting pics till now... zzzzZz... after typing a long blog suddenly very shagged.. wanna sleep again...Z zZzz

dEminG
quAlity timE with fRenz!!

My mind's unweaving/ 11:17 AM

Wednesday, April 25, 2007

hahaa... so irritating lor youngsters nowadays... haha.. just now on train.. liew... in school uniform somemore... in layman terms.... girl hug guy.. guy shiok shiok from dhoby ghaut to seng kang.. loLx.. worst still well if you all smoochy and all one corner ok lar.. but liew this 2 king and queen le.. haha right at the sliding door from dhoby ghaut till seng kang.. hugging and whispering sweet nothings.. loLx.. *pengz* get a room lar brother!

haha today after work went to vivocity intending to get ys' bdae present then go le... found it then after checking out the whole adidas shop convinced that the one i saw was what he was talking abt i went to try it out... thumbs up.. haha then see the one quality not so good.. so ask for new one... *piak* no new small size.. call suntec and cathay also no stock... liew.. ask me go try retailers like suntec...

time now: 8.22pm damn.. vivo no more sports shop.. next closest = plaza sing world of sports? haha then take train go there.. 8.45pm World of Sports (CLOSED FOR STOCK TAKING SORRY FOR ANY INCOVENIENCE CAUSED) f***! not thinking i ran from PS to cathay under the rain... 8.52pm Adidas shop => no stock for small... only medium... *faints* time 9.10pm: eat dinner at cathay basement 9.20pm teenage ger astonished with my psp surfing wirelessly ask me teach her how to access.... 9.30pm mission fail go home...

wooh.. got home quickly sms-ed those peepz that havent respond yet... was to book tickets for spiderman 3 for my colleagues.. while waiting the 8+1 seats at PS got taken up.. leaving the pathetic ones.. so i end up calling them 1 by 1 to tell them change to vivocity grand 3+6 instead.. haha... hopefully on that day we 'squeeze' out the couple in the centre with our antics.. loLx...

Picture this:
(S=US.. C=Couple) => SSSSSSCCSSS

haha.. shall pressurize them to move to the side.. muahaha...first time do internet booking so abit unsure.. but managed to book them at $8 each thanks to safra promo... but + $1 internet booking + 20cents sms confirmation.. sobz.. incur the $1.20... sobz... so broke.. had to use my back up cash as my spending bank acc got no money le.. loLx.. pathetic!!

ooh tml going to sleepover at huimin's place with team 100!! haha.. coz everyone going seperate ways le... quite sad really for me... haha if my future workplace this fun too... huimin going to become a communist.. wilson and roger going to get buang with manager callbacks.. david and weiling having hot dates.. haha.. + me moving on with life.. so i guess tml might the last few precious moments we share as a team... the team 100 i christened! hahaa... kkZ going to sleep le... shagged from all that running.. heres some pics~!! enjoy!!

baBBy FrEezE!!

byE byE eMiLy! tEAm 100 doEs it aGain!!

faReweLl to aLyciA~

dEminG
Love noT.. cRy noT..

My mind's unweaving/ 11:04 PM

Sunday, April 22, 2007

kind of de ja vour.. with reality shows like survivor... or that paris hilton stupid show... the meaning of a simple life seems to be different in many people's thoughts.... personally i realised i havent been watching much dramas till recently when my mom ask me to watch... i realise that dramas always has interesting life stories.. far from simple... no wonder its called drama i wonder...

while watching i thought to myself.. how i wished my life was that interesting too... haha... haha of coz not all the bad things lar... like those romantic moments.. heartbreaking moments... heroic moments.... happy moments... no wonder people love to watch dramas.. it seems those missing parts in our lives..

but its an irony when you watch some dramas as they emphasize on the importance of a simple life... lessons in life.... that we rush so much to have a 'good life' we only end up running up our own dead ends in life... honestly speaking i dreamt of a simple life in the hills.. out in the sea... with those i love... not working my life off to enjoy material comforts.. living in peace... frolicking on the fields under the sun... taking photos of the beauty of life and nature..

its difficult now that only rich people enjoy such luxuries as they spend a large sum of money just for such 'getaways' so i find myself creating my own small heavens... my own quiet areas... by the sea... on open patches looking at the sky.... haha.. some of my secret places i used to go to alone just to feel the time pass by me... slowly become more and more crowded with couples and groups as well.. haha... my only regret is i cant seem to find someone to share these moments with up till today...

but oh well... no point brooding over my shortcomings and ill luck.. another week comes up... 5 more weeks.. and i will finally have some time for myself again... to enjoy those small pleasures and simplicities of life... the satisfactions of achievements... somehow i understand now.. that its always the small things that matters most...

dEminG
don'T waLk aWay fRom mE...

My mind's unweaving/ 11:20 PM

Saturday, April 21, 2007

wahhh.... just came back from my gramps house and realised how a sinful april it has been man... i already spent so much money when i finally thought i had waited long enough to get something i gotta hesitate again.. the rate by which i'm punching my atm is astounding manz... gawd...

next week must maintain strict magi mee diet le.. haha... prob is lunch is inescapable during working days... but meals at pepper lunch, marche, dim sum restaurant, bbq seafood, mos burger, fast food etc is starting to punch a huge dent in my wallet.. loLx... indeed they are hao chi de di fang.. but sometimes i wonder if i pamper myself too much....

so much so i have to punish myself again next week.. loLx.. gotta resume my long d runs working up to 21km then 42km... haha excused myself from running this week due to the lousy shift timing... simply no energy to even play my games or even run... grr... gotta lose all the 'gains' i got from my feasts man.... =~~

yesterday after work we went to marina sq to eat desert with my sub team + caelen + lewis + alycia.. haha... team 100 always got exclusive partners one during our outings lor.. so nice right? >.< after that we went for bowling till 1am.. haha realised how much i sucked at it... only first few bowls were ok.. but didnt get a single strike in the 2 games lor.. by the 2nd game the sudden rush of fatigue kinda dampened my enthusiasm... so after we finished hung ard alittle then took cab home where i koed... ZzZZ

was totally wasted but amazingly i woke up early this morning probably due to a unsettling dream... its those relapse of the kinda dreams i have once in a while.. that i dont remember exactly what happened but i felt like i was alone.. the only person.. wandering in my dreams by myself... its those kinda 'feel-lousy' dreams i have once in a while when i get really tired with stuff...

but nonetheless i met up with fabby dong and hao yi at vivo today... initially planned for ys to catch shooter but think was my fault ba... told him i'll plan and let him know but forgotten to inform him so he had other plans end up i went out with them to vivocity for marche lunch followed by shopping and all... bought some donuts from the never ending queue for my gramps but found it wasnt that fantastic too lorz... went river island only to find that the sale was for last season clothes lor.. remisicent of the first batch of clothes that i didnt see any merit when it first opened.. sob.. the shirt i wanted to get still $123.. tmd... must wait 1 more season then.. hahaa

dEminG
i'm such a sucker for beautiful smiles... sobz...

My mind's unweaving/ 10:25 PM

Thursday, April 19, 2007

haha... finally tml is my last working day and its the weekend.. weeh!!! grr... cant take it anymore man.. haha.. today first call kana f*** already.. manager call.. what a wonderful start... today must world grumpy day or something... but thinking of it.. everyday's like that.. hahaa...

got quite sian when got displaced from my usual table.. must set up the stuff and all... lucky wasnt those fat ugly perm stuff that always come to occupy our area... otherwise sure apply 'xa qi' until they scared.. haha.. end up is pei ni... 2pid! grrr... must be coz of the displacement so luck no good.. haha..

actually said wanna hit 80 only.. haha but knowing my sub team confirm end state hit 100 so pia abit.. then tmd evening time kana this irritating unsatisfiable customer made me so angry i was just speechless and putting myself to mute to prevent my wrath from reaching his ears.. irritated i just pass on the sh*t.. loLx.. poor guy... oh well.. better him than me! >.<

today was supposedly alycia's last day but tml she work ot with lewis.. opps did i say with? haha.. no lar it just so happens they two bid for same OT slot tml... talking abt OT.. my OT slot for sunday was cancelled lar!! wah lao... NO AMENDMENTS TO BE MADE ONCE APPROVED still recall was in red.. aerial font.. now they lidat cancel.. tmd.. hate my so-called boss whom i still dont recognise up till date.. haha just know she's fat and keeps walking ard.. loLx.. i only know who signs my pay check! hehz..

but nonetheless my sub team 100 hits 100 again except huimin again.. haha.. ok lar.. on emcee so on goodwill shall pardon her.. loLx.. tml they dunnoe why so gian to go out again.. at first had some plans but i guess since my colleagues are so on i cant be the wet blanket mah~~ haha.. agreed to go tcc to chill then go bowling.. but wonder how to go home after that.. maybe i'll sleep at the bowling alley if its 24hrs.. haha...

its cool to move along in life as usual again... life's so carefree when you dont have to worry about bgr or any thing affiliated to it... back to slacking sinfully.. eating sinfully... having fun with frenz... no expectations.. no dissapointment... so much more energy le... haha oh btw i saw this cool vid that kinda motivated me to try to learn the flare/windmill i always wanted to learn.. haha... break dance baby!!

talk about starting early

dEminG
team 100.. a sub teaM likE no oTher~~

My mind's unweaving/ 10:28 PM

Monday, April 16, 2007

arrrh.... as another weeks begin its comforting to have not so many stupid customers calling in... meeting quota and all... good start to the week! woo hoo!! soon gonna do my countdown like back in the army lidat.. cant wait to regain my freedom!! hahaa.. 5 more weeks!

liew got march's pay lor.. kinda sad.. think my expenditure in feb/mar was high(?).. haha.. compared to IX days i think i spend more in green team.. must be the hao chi de di fang and sub team outings.. loLx.. after i place 1k in my bank and $200 to my parents i realised i only have $50 to spend for april... loLx.. omG!!! think no choice must tap onto my standby cash le... grr...

finally shaken free from my shock last week... im starting to look forward to my days after starhub.. my ippt training regime... canoeing trainings... meet ups with frenz again.. as april comes to an end must start planning my invites and all for my bdae.. havent done the catering arrangements yet too! =P hope this 5 weeks pass quickly man... move along move along!!

dEming
timE foR GoOd kaRma!! haha..

My mind's unweaving/ 10:19 PM

Sunday, April 15, 2007

haha kinda a pity.. after work went shopping with my sub team and caelen minus weiling and roger a little after.. didnt manage to get any clothing that i want to get.. what rotten luck huhz... had a nasty experience with the fucking chocolate bar at the esplanade.. the bald fucker just came to 'attend' to us saying: "theres no table for 6" and walks off... like what the fuck.. seriously spoiled my mood... so wanted to point my middle finger at the faggot and walk off.. talk abt customer service huhz..

later on had dim sum ala carte before doing alittle stroll ard.. wasn't as fun as i hoped as it seemed that the others weren't exactly looking for clothes too... so it ended as quickly as it begun and we settled for dinner at the makansutra place at esplanade.. tired from work and walking we settled down on the esplanade rooftop as we started to talk more and got to know more about each other... haha.. contents so strong that it did not leave the rooftops of the esplanade...

i dont know what comes over me nowadays.. so easily affected.. so weak minded.. i should just stand by my old policy... no one can support oneself except yourself... how i wish by tml i'll just go back to my closed self.. just living off my days for myself.. my own dreams... my own ambitions... the more you sacrifice for others.. the less you leave for yourself...

i'm just... so tired...

dEminG
juSt moneY... fReNz.. FamiLy... foRget abT the ResT...

My mind's unweaving/ 11:32 PM

Saturday, April 14, 2007

yet another uneventful day at work.. think abt me recently my productivity is very low and unmotivated to hit my quota nowadays... only sometimes when i feel i wanna chiong then i will rush just nice to hit the quota.. but nowadays i feel no remorse having bad stats too.. even without bad customers i was unusually slow today.. i wonder why...

thinking back i wonder what got me so insensed to do it but since it never happened i kinda resided back into my normal cocoon of comfort... guess its not really worth the effort thinking that its like a one-sided thing.. guess i'll just see how things go along..

remembered just before i knocked off when fabby asked me abt attending shaun's party.. honestly speaking i cleanly forgotten abt it... was thinking abt stuff on the way there but it sure was fun to meet up with my old scout mates.. benji.. fabby.. muru... beng... gary... amos... haha... never fail to crack me up... sometimes i feel like im the only one drifting away.. but was kinda moved when they asked me to go back if im free too... i guess i might just take another shot at scouting again.. after all its what brought my frenz together...

just received the letter from NSPC on my official posting.. suddenly felt abit of burden as i thought of what it means to me... it mentioned of additional voluntary courses.. guess i should keep myself up to date.. to be worthy... to lead a company of heroes each in their own way... thats my meaning in leadership... been a while since i felt responsible for something...

thinking of those speeches i made back when i was captain.. my motivating speeches.. my undying effort to unite my class.. i guess those were my prime and i have to admit my leadership was dampened in the army due to lack of motivation.. but given a chance again i want to change things... i want people to look up to me as who i am.. and not the rank i hold on my shoulders...

dreamy young man i might think... but without dreams... what would be the difference between a man and a vegetable? in one of my fav quotes to date... from martin luther king jr... i had a dream..... and to me the next matching statement would be... 'and i shall make it my own with my own hands'

haha.. cheesy? oh well im not a hero... but i never stopped dreaming from being one for people in my life....

dEminG
but heroes die young and lonely dont they? =X

My mind's unweaving/ 11:39 PM

Friday, April 13, 2007

hahaa... think this isnt the first time my subject heading is this le... but well maybe it heralds the end of a chaotic week at work so some good things just never get boring no matter how many times it repeats yeah?? =D woke up damn early today at 6.45am.. not used to it sia.. haha.. had trouble getting off the bed... washed up and off i went for my long journey to NUS

took about an hour plus to get there.. somemore got alittle loss.. i thought the wellness centre was at the university hall.. haha but everyone was wearing formal wear like for some event... so obviously.. i was LOST.. haha.. they should attach a map to the medical form next time lor.. but lucky i found the YIH further down one bus stop away and went for the check up...

felt it was terribly understaffed if they were expecting the whole cohort of guys with surnames from L-Z with just 1 reception and 1 nurse per station... lucky i was one of the first to reach so it finished all in about an hour plus... haha.. during the urinalysis the nurse gave us a small plastic cup each and said just alittle.. then when i was waiting i saw one idiot fill up the whole cup to the brim.. lolx.. pity the nurse man... yuckz...

during my pulse and blood pressure check the nurse had to repeat and even asked me if i had borderlinely high blood pressure.. was really nervous and scared then... i knew my family had the history but i sure didnt have it all this while.. but upon the 2nd check she assured me i was ok.. phew... the doctor consulation was weird.. thought the doctor would be a guy but end up was a lady.. haha.. took my heartbeat from the chest and did a massage(?) on the stomach.. wonder what was that for.. think army check up also did... but nv realised what was it for...

right after that i went straight home.. another 1hr + train ride home... changed to my swimming attire jubilant from the bright sun.. haha.. swam 30 laps with pok but only had 30min of sun... right after we came out to take a shower it started raining.. heng sia.. haha thankfully pok gave me a ride to the bus stop.. then went to compass point to have a haircut and was hoping to transfer my savings as the pay came in le.. but the cheque wasnt clear yet... so just went home after that lor...

when i got home my evening plans was cancelled... though alittle lost at first i took the opportunity to rest at home too... games and all.. just chilling... haha.. though abit disappointed to spend friday night slacking at home... i guess all things takes time ba~~ haha used the starhub automated machine to terminate my cnd instead of calling my colleagues as i wasnt in much a mood to chat... so next time dont just leave missed calls k? can leave a voice message if you want so i can call back.. $5 a month can save $60 a year wor.. haha...

oh well... just now wilson and my hip sub team asked me out for dinner at 8.30pm lidat.. haha if i wasnt working tml i would have went.. but also feel abit sian today so wouldnt wanna spoil their session for 'hao chi de di fang'... fish and co sia.. haha.. abit envious but i guess fried rice will suffice for me... hope the weekend goes smoothly for me man..

dEminG
mOving aLong wiTh liFe

My mind's unweaving/ 8:30 PM

Thursday, April 12, 2007

lolx came across this funny thing.. it all started with roger spamming us with the engrish pictures and all... haha then as browsing saw dawn reading this one.. even i also buay tong.. haha...

hOt.. paINfUL cuRry? =D

talk abt painful diets.. loLx... wah today was a s***y day at work lar.. kana one damn irritating b*tch spoil my entire day mood.. that kinda b*tchy behaviour that just asking me to scold the f*** out of her till she p*** in her pants lor... grr... true i was alittle unsure but she was so irritatable and impatient and rude i returned her in kind... so wanted to pass to someone else but couldnt so i just dissed her off and she threatened to complain me.. go ahead lar b*atch!

haiz.. in the end never hit stats and was feeling very tired after lunch... must have been last night.. though cant exactly remember the contents i remembered that the nightmare was somehow attached to work... slight remembrance of the workplace.. the telephone... stupid customers... haha... couldnt sleep well lorz... thankfully tml is my rest day lor! so wanna die...

i think i got very poor confidence in myself when it comes to some matter but i guess its a start.. cant help but think of what a bore i am... but well... trying too hard to be someone else also isnt what i wanna do yup... thanks to some advice i guess i'll just do things my way.. a step at a time... just like how i used to advise my elder bro.. hahaa..

after dinner with my parents at amk went i got home looking at the wet ground... was tempted to skip my run... but i was like 'oh well... LETS DO THIS!!' and off i went for my 2nd 8km run... was colder and much wetter today due to the downpour... was feeling cold when the perspiration all became cold from the long run... but boy was i surprised.. with thoughts in my mind i actually beat my previous timing to complete at 47min 38sec... 1 min reduction! wooh!!! well think sometimes stressing to hit targets dont always hold out yup!!

yeap tml gonna go to NUS for my check up.. thinking of hitting it real early and go home so i can hopefully squeeze in time for a swim before going out in the evening... haha... gonna make full use of my rest day tml man!!!

dEminG
unsure of myself.... but i am sure of my feelings...

My mind's unweaving/ 10:22 PM

Wednesday, April 11, 2007

hahaaa... caught on the michie way of calling his brothers nowadays... its like 'DUDE!'.... but the way i say it.. its like 'DwwwwwwwwuuuuuUuuUUuuuudE!" hahaa.. im spastic... today swapped with lawrence and also worked ot for an hour.. but 1x nia.. so not too worth it.. haha.. but it passed amazingly faster than i thought.. maybe coz no stress.. haha coz my sub team 100 not ard!! hahaa... *grinz*

but of coz i hit my stats! haha... beat dawnn and natasha~~ wooh~~~ today see lewis like very depressed lidat... like thinking man put hand in front of face look down as he hear the encyclopedia of bullsh*t going thru his ears... hahaa... heard got fresh blood coming soon! hahaa.. hope got more gals!! >.< blehz.... what can i say? i'm 100% male! hahaa

but new blood or not i really cant take it much longer... lolx.. must really quit end may le... haha not working doesnt mean still cant woo ba? i hope... really inexperienced in that field... hahaa... oh crap what am i thinking... oh well... finally took a quite full green team picture! haha... but roger that guy take leave!! aiyoh... wasted.... at this rate my tables really gonna be a 'man who is dying' table with all the pictures pinned up.. *quote na1 ta2 sha1*

wIll we eVer takE a fuLl photo? loLx... oh.. btw i look tall?? =D

deminG
1 more day to NUS check up!!

My mind's unweaving/ 9:17 PM

Tuesday, April 10, 2007

hmm been hearing this new song on radio... sounds like a national day song lidat.. haha.. 'i'm going home~~~'.. catchy but not that moving a song to me =] phew... today suddenly fred opened up OT slots for the taking.. whoa.. i hope i was the first to reply.. haha.. but abit bo hua coz instead of 1.5x back in IX team.. now for OT hours its the normal pay... haiz... kinda regret replying so soon.. haha...

but i guess i need the cash ba.. to compensate the loss i'm gonna suffer when i leave the company.. its so de ja vour to me... losing or making a mistake to incur a fine/penalty... its so 'arrh! you screwed up again deming!' haiz... and AS USUAL i'll be 'punishing' myself by working OT to make up for it... suckz....

today was lalaine's last day so bought a bouquet for her... had a mini gathering to take pictures but i realised i didnt have much to say as we didnt really get to know her well as she always went for meals with her frenz instead of us.. oh well.. just wish her all the best! hahaa.. think next is alycia... then me? haha... gotta make sure they give me chrystannum.. loLx!!

well if all goes well i'll only be free this friday... working on the rest of the days.. really hope fred gives me the slot on sunday... man... i so need the cash... but he said it will be based on performance.. i guess that puts me at the back of the priority... haiz... it'll be a lie to say i aint a moneyface man.. haha but if i repent will he give it to me?? =~~ hahaa..

phew just rushed home to run my sprint jog circuit i was thinking of all day.. finally set down the sequence of stations and all to coincide with how i used to do it back in JC... but it was kinda ... different... had parts where there were humps and when i sprinted there wasnt anyone in front of me to overtake.. so it felt less satisfying though.. but i guess its a start... had a good sweatout but well.. a big sumptous packet dinner by my parents kinda ruined my plan.. lOlx.. what can i say? my parents love the fat me! hehez

deminG
1... 2... 3... GO!! erh.. go where?

My mind's unweaving/ 9:01 PM

Monday, April 09, 2007

wooh... just finshed a 8km run... coupled with my frustration over 4-5 f***ing retarded customers bombarding today and not hitting my stats.. the 'xa qi' kinda helped me find something i thought i lost forever... after my 3rd round i was already very very tired but i kept thinking there is 2 more laps to go... then i challenged myself to hit the 12min per 2km again... so i picked up even speed and i was really satisfied to complete 8km at 48min 26secs...

compared to 6km i was literally steaming hot and perspiring like mad... like i just came out from the shower... as usual i did my 3 sets of static stations... as i was holding myself in pull up position.. something made me hold there for damn long.. then suddenly staring at the sweat drop on the concrete ground.. my shaking arms buckling under my weight and the numb body.. i suddenly realised i found myself...

just like during the run... compared to me running this same distance a week ago.. i kept telling myself.. 'ok tired enough le.. thats exercising...' but maybe its the anger in me... but when i ran the more tired i was the more energetic i feel... sounds contradicting doesn't it? but its the deming i was looking all this while... tired and numb... i felt 'high' so i just keep running.. i kept pumping.. i kept doing sit ups...

this uplifting mood really changed my mood 360 degrees.. think really exercise has more benefits than any other drugs in the world man.. was cursing and swearing abt my darn luck before the run.. now im planning out my training schedule this week... cant wait to push myself again tml... though it is missing the teammates.. i finally found the captain in me that i respected....

dEminG
noThinG can bRing mE down noW!

My mind's unweaving/ 9:45 PM

Saturday, April 07, 2007

wah this morning went to run 2.4km... SOOOOOO disapointed lar.. wah kao... 12min leiz... sH*t... i dunnoe was coz of too long nv run track or coz of the scorching sun but it was pathetic... grr... gotta start running track more often in lieu of IPPT coming up man... gonna hit 9.40min and below again man.... sheesh... one funny thing too... had so many schoolgals running the track.. makes you wonder what the guys do nowadays.. loLx..

after that went straight to hougang pool for a swim.. still trying to incorporate the 's' stroke for my front crawl to increase the pulling strength... but the sun went down shortly.. dammn.. haha... no chance to get tan... so swam a few more laps and packed and leave.. yet again as i took up my bag i saw a hot gal go in... DAMN... i'm cursed i say.. lolx..

went home and did the usual 'stare at wall stoning session' played WoW alittle... napped alittle... haiz... after the thursday drinking session i kinda let go of quite of a few things.. so i guess its time to move along.. haha... dunnoe if i got the courage to move on actually.. maybe i'll just fail again... but well nothing succeeds without trying ya!

went to my aunts house for my family dinner... then was in my cousins room msn-ing and watching "a walk to remember" at first i dismissed it as some teenage chick flick.. then the story developed and i was really into the show... was a sweet and romantic show man... haiz... the kinda that makes lonesome men like me lovesick.. haha.. so jealous! the guy and gal both so fated and lucky... guess i may just pass along without having such romantic moments... the ending was meaningful and sad at the same time... been a while since i saw a movie that i felt tears welling in my eyes.. well done mr director! haha..

alrighty back to work tml... SianZ... no plans thereafter.. wanna ask ppl out for dinner but dunnoe who.... sian tml must park outside office wait for ppl to tap the card before i can go in... damnit.. $50... *depressed*

dEmiNG
iF i waS a pEnguin.. i coulD gliDe on my Tummy!! wEeeh!

My mind's unweaving/ 10:15 PM

Friday, April 06, 2007

phew.. haha yesterday was fun man... went to boat quay for bbq seafood dinner then followed by drinking at brewerkz at clarke quay after.. was a while since i drank.. so i was already all hyped up and all... somehow after drinking those emotions i always bury on a daily basis... failure... fear... worries... anger... all becomes gone the next day...

thE bEfore pIc.. haha..

haha... we just had 2 towers of beer only but i was 'gone' in no time.. guess i just needed the reprieve from being mr nice guy over the phone all the time... maybe coz of the blow i suffered too losing my staff pass which will cost me $50... maybe coz of the blow of rejection... maybe coz of the frustration of mid life crisis... i just cant put it in words.. maybe its just everything culminating and all...

haha blabbered alot of nonsense... drank cups quickly trying to 'drown' out my negative thoughts... must have been silly man... but some part of me enjoys just being 'myself' with no restrains and just unconcerned... haha even saw alot of armour ppl.. louis.. bryan... staff rajoo... at clarke quay too.. after going back i was fully recovered already.. haha kinda didnt hit target of getting totally wasted again... so actually this morning i woke up at 9am and felt lost...

had no plans so i just kinda grumbled my day away.. played WoW alittle then hoping to see someone online to ask out... but luck wasnt on my side so i went to nap and when i woke my parents said they wanted to go bowling.. with no plans i agreed.. but due to some dispute with my relatives we cancelled the bowling trip and decided impromptu on dinner and shopping at vivocity..

had a dinner at shin kiseya jap restaurant.. wasn't as fantastic i hoped.. pity.. then went shopping.. saw alot of nice and cool stuff from shops like shibuya and all.. haha... too bad i aint a woman.. otherwise i would have got alot of those cute stuff for myself.. loLx.. but also no one to buy for... *shrugs* but when looking for a bag for my dad i saw this damn nice adidas bag.. grr.. $69... hope got another adidas fair coming can buy cheaper...

also saw mars walking out of river island with her fren but too engrossed to call.. loLx.. then i went in and wow... saw alot of clothes i had the urge of buying... but all were $105... omg... will river island ever go on offer/sale? pls tell me they do... wanted to take a look at espirit and zara as well but was closing already... haiz... though i am slowly upgrading my wardrobe.. it still hurts to buy from these shops... how i hope the days when i can spend on clothes and stuff without so much worries... haiz... i wanna go shopping!! but my other guy frenz like not gian to shop leiz... SianZ...

dEminG
inTroducinG new sonG of THe weeK: Rivermaya - You'll Safe here

My mind's unweaving/ 11:35 PM

Wednesday, April 04, 2007

phew.. just ran the same route again.. 6km... but i achieved improvement! was damn shagged out but the sense of satisfaction was unbeatable.. on monday my timing for the 6km was about 47min... but my 6km today took 36min 41sec... phew was really glad... maybe coz the legs were already numb that the pain did not trouble me as much.. guess running the same route sees better expedition of strength and stamina..

actually during the start of the 3rd round i saw that it was 25min already.. my initial target was to complete below 40min... then i thought to myself.. it would be good if i can hit 36min (last time for ahm training i estimated 12min per 1kilometre) so i bit the pain and kept telling myself.. *raise your feet! higher higher!* and when did my last 100min sprint i was exhilirated and just shouted the pain out... and yes! i did it... felt so canoeing all over again.... damn it feels good..

yesterday took leave to send off monica with the team... deep down was really sad.. kinda regretted not meeting up more often with her... looking back at the photos we took... the times when i was stressed and down as a captain.. she was the bestest vice captain i can hope for.. motivating me just when i was putting up a strong front.. also a whacky friend and great pal.. it pained to send a close friend off for 3 years overseas.. but the mood was funny and all lively.. so we bade our farewells and still had some fun disturbing her at the departure gates.. hahaa... all the best monica!! we'll be here for you anytime!!

phew had a tiring day at work.. not really tough customers but it just felt tiring to hit the mark after a days rest.. really wanting to leave ASAP man.. but not until i hit my savings target.. one thing i realise today i always can take jokes and insults from good friends.. but there are times i want to hit those people who hurt my ego or anything.. sounds fun to make fun of others... but all my life i have been doing things i wouldnt normally do coz i hated to be looked down upon... hated to lose..

i didnt want to be judged by my height.. i did my best in what i could... pushed to prove it wrong then short people cant lead... fought to prove that height means nothing... bit the pain to be an officer... did what i can to prove that what people deem impossible that can be done... i really liked and remember wat one of my frenz said.. about good things come in small packages.. i could have just condemned myself for being short.. for being plump... come to think of it.. my life was all about fighting against the natural state of what i would have become after these 21 years...

soon i will hit 21... for me its another lifetime of achievements waiting to be achieved.. no matter how small.. no matter how meaningless.. its all there for the taking.... though my biggest obstacle now is to train hard to see my fats laughing back at me.. it will be another upward slope i will overcome!

dEminG
anYwhere can be a heaVen as Long as i bElieve!

My mind's unweaving/ 9:17 PM

Monday, April 02, 2007

phew.. just finished running 6km around buangkok mrt... was planning to run 2 rounds only.. but after running halfway feel quite shiok so decided to push it alittle more... was a slow and easy jog but it made me think of somethings... like back in SOA.. those morning runs at 5.30am everyday... thinking of what boon used to tell me that running is all in the mind when i asked him how he can run so well... so i just kept going.. and it felt good... i pictured myself in ahm... running amongst the thousands of people there.. overtaking them all the way...

i gotta admit that im a very weak minded person... i hate to lose.. when someone overtakes me i want to overtake him.. but when i feel tired.. i give up and just say he's too good.. i quietly hope someone weak would run next to me so i would feel better and push the person... its a wonder what i can think of when im running that 45min run earlier.. such a b*stard aint i... i guess everyone has their dark secrets...

my personal running route~~

but also when i think another way.. i liked running as a team.. back in SOA or back in SRJC canoeing... no doubt there were slower ones.. then theres also the faster ones that motivate me too as well... it just feels so much different... everytime i run alone i just try to think of other things..happy moments... fast moments... funny moments... just wanna lose theses stupid fats.... grrr!

haha talking abt fats warm down then comes my dinner (packet by parents).. chicken chop... colesaw... baked beans... fried rice... mushroom soup... french fries... haha i always thought its just my metabolism was slower than others.. but i think my parents overfeed me abit.. haha maybe i should be vegetarian one day.. lolx!! think i'll die trying.. haha..

dEminG
weeeh!

My mind's unweaving/ 9:52 PM

Sunday, April 01, 2007

phew.. today went to my godma's house to move house.... thankfully not as much stuff.. and already had 2 guys helping out.. so i basically did the tech fix ups.. the computer, the hi-fi, the lights.. haha.. not bad sia... upgrade household man skills... too bad no chance to practice my drilling.. hehz.... feels good when you sweat it out... then it all works.. weeeh!

later on went amk hub to do shopping with my family.. bought a shirt... haiz.. still having trouble finding a nice long sleeve shirt that suits me.. the kinda smart casual you can wear for dates? hahaa... sux to be short.... grrrr.... N95 is finally out man.. $1288 lorz! wtf! read the specs and dont think its THAT fantastic.. but whew... just hope someone leave it in the cinema seat next to me one day.. hahahaa.... but i aint rich.. so not really my target phone.... still looking for one...

intending to buy a 4GB sony memory stick pro duo from wilson for my psp so can put full scale movies i just completed d/l.. letters of iwo jima and march of the penguins... then the problem is what im gonna do with my 1GB card... hopefully got some nice sony ericson phone coming out that uses that card.. or maybe i'll just give my buddy.. haha... dunnoe he need not also....

oh man... quick quick april pay pls come!! oh man... i so in need of cash... i really think i cant hit my $10k target lor... must continue working as tuition or something... sobz.... wanna hit my first 5 digit from hard earned cash... so must stinge! haha but also need to spend... grrr... what a irony... kkz gotta work tml.... lets hope i have the strength to resume my morning runs.... medical check up coming!!! *anguish*

dEminG
the yearning gets stronger...

My mind's unweaving/ 9:53 PM