Sunday, May 28, 2006
recently think i really lost the flame for ns completely le... haiz... i feel sooooo bored going to camp.. listless and no motivation... maybe coz now all we doing is practice and practice and practice... with no real missions... i couldn't force ppl to do things i myself do not believe in so its been a really dull week... thankfully the thing is gonna end le...
but this week alot of things happened.. first one of my man got hospitalised for chest pains.. and another being charged for rioting 1 and a half years ago... which seems very likely he will be jailed.. haiz... i feel down but at the same time theres nothing we can really do.. lest visit him and write a appeal for the other... which i already did... haiz...
i suddenly feel so sick of ns.. i just wanna ord man... cant take this anymore... its so irritating i just wanna shake it outta my head... urghz....
dEminG
haiz... 5 more months to orD~?
My mind's unweaving/ 1:41 PM
Saturday, May 27, 2006
check out the vid manz.. hahaz.. esp the last few moves.. the slo-mo breaking... chiLL!
dEminG
My mind's unweaving/ 10:56 PM
Sunday, May 21, 2006
hmmm just realised in the exhiliration of yesterday's trip to pongol marina, i didnt really write abt my week in 40SAR after a month in course.. gotta say its not the best kinda feeling i can get.. not becoz of the more busy and demanding schedule in the unit.. but more on how people seem to criticize me or something...
when i first got back i got hit aback by the number of things i have to do... 1:my platoon's overall development... 2:my own fitness in terms of IPPT and SOC... 3:those extra things i hope i want to do for my platoon/coy/bn... but i told myself to take things step by step in my stride.. only to find out 2 days later that my advanced armour officer course is gonna start in june instead of during reservist time as mentioned before...
as much as i was interested in the course after the briefing and eager to put in my best, when i come back to unit to break the news i feel like being shown a cold shoulder, like they're unhappy that im going for course again... particularly some people.. my fellow PCs also were abit stunned and maybe made alittle jokes on how 'lucky' i'll be while they go thru more jialat.. but touching my heart i know they also arent really glad... my PS also stunned abit.. but he's always that supportive of me.. when i talked to my platoon after such a long time.. i had a good conversation with them and even tried to share abit of how i make my army time an enjoyable one...
but i guess what superiors wan to see is effort(wayang) and results.. which i gotta admit lack at me right now... i nv liked to wayang but i do some things without announcing it out to him.. not expecting any reward... i'm probably the last PC in the Bn who have yet to clear my IPPT and SOC... that isnt a welcoming thought as well... and just when they need me ard in preparation for ATEC stage 2, i'm going for course only to return 3 weeks before atec stage 2 proper... he complains that i keep going for courses and courses in my NSF time...
i was happy to be given the chance to go for such a course... but.. why can't they put themselves into my shoes? i had no choice! i wasn't given the perogative to decide whether i should go or when i can go... after all this i really wanna f*** the course and just stay on and show what the f*** i'm made of! aRgh! thats why i nv even thought of signing on.. i cant stand having to live thru this feeling just to up the ranks faster... f***!
dEminG
juSt thinkiNG abt iT gets my bLoOd boilINg..
My mind's unweaving/ 9:14 AM
Saturday, May 20, 2006
wahhhhhhh~~ spent ALOT of money today manz... hahaz... woke up stone abit before heading to pongol mrt to meet up with weiyang and co. end up keng yang came along with cab to pick myself and guan yong to pungol marina... 2nd time i been there.. my 1st being when it just opened.. my impression then was its damn big... but now look at it pretty small actually.. later weiyang came along with tim and kk... and we're ready to start wakEboaRdinG! *pS: saW kiaN Zi with hiS uSuaL grP there toO*
later larry came along and we went off in a little boat *refer to beloW* hahaz.. was fun for me coz i always fancied just sitting on a boat.. enjoying the breeze and waves.. wake boarding actually wasnt my idea of fun.. just being on a boat out in the sea was.. =] weiyang was his 4th so obviously he was a step ahead.. then ky, tim, myself, kk and gy took our turns to savour the taste of pongol seawater.. hahaz.. some of them looked like it really hurts.. *piak*
my first run was a disaster.. i barely survived 4secs before i fly underwater.. (sounds strange) the more i tried the faster i fell.. hahaz.. felt like sh*t coz the only one during first run didnt even manage to stand up riding.. but later the second run after the first one that ended just like the previous ones.. the 2nd one onwards when i just totally relaxed and not think abt what i do i actually did it.. hahaz... though i didnt actually hit the wakes.. i managed to stand up and ride for almost a min.. hahaz.. during my last run larry even gave a swing of the boat around and it was freaking fast.. loLx.. shiok man! though i also went underwater just as fast as it came.. =p
later after showers and paying about $50 bucks for the day we went for dinner at pongol seafood.. we didnt realize that they served lobster instead of crayfish and ate happily till i foot the bill and saw $104 for the "LOBSTER" loLx.. i was alittle stunned but paid anyways.. then after some deliberation i realized we ordered crayfish but they served us wrongly and we ate it happily without noticing.. hahaz.. so i brought this up to the aunty so she offered 10% off so i agreed lor.. though weiyang said i was too nice as we should only pay as much as what we order.. but well i did enjoy the lobster.. hEhz.. so we split the cost to $30 a person.. hahaz.. stunned man.. spent $80 today.. was supposed to now keep to $70 per week.. but that leaves me with no entertainment or canteen breaks for the week.. =X
talking abt enjoyment i did really enjoy today.. the sun, the great company, the waves (minus the .5l of seawater i consumed), the wakeboarding.. but i dont see myself going weekly.. coz its really ex.. i used to go clubbing often too then i realised the money can be spent doing other more meaningful stuff.. not that i quit clubbing but i guess i'll restrict it to once a month.. i go there more for dancing and frenz.. not so much on the sleaze (which sometimes come a pleasant surprise? => hey im a guy too!!).. same thing for wakeboarding.. its cool and fun.. but well.. the hefty price deters me otherwise.. maybe if i strike it rich? hahaz
but im really thankful for the experience though my body's aching like crazy and hurting from the lifejacket abrasions.. i always want to at least try 1 of each of these things... next up airborne? hEHEz... tml still got swim then go to sim lim then go for juniors bbq.. hahaz.. but tml is book in day!! hahaz.. i cant care less nowadays.. just worry abt it when the time comes lar.. for now.. just HAVE FUN!!
i can finally stand anD sUrvive 1min pluS! hahaz
thE gReat guyS from aRmouR cadet dayS~! we RocK!
dEming
fuN wiTh dEminG.. lOLx.. sTupiD! =P
My mind's unweaving/ 9:30 PM
Sunday, May 14, 2006
loLx.. just plain bored... =p suddenly thought of it.. coz starting from last week i set myself a trg regime le... every sat will be run and home gym.. then sunday will be swim... hahaz... then coz i always lack motivation ar.. need ppl to presure me then will train one.. so far swimming got weiliang pok and lihua to go on sundays too.. so not so bored.. but today all cannot make it for natural or unnatural reasons.. >.<
though i cant swim well.. like a log in the water but i really enjoy swimming.. the only prob is waking up on sunady mornings... swimming to me is the most kill alot of bird with one stone thing.. swimmming is an exercise(1), a form of relaxation(2), tanning session(3), muscle tonning(4)... so now must chiong swim again.. first time i swam last week i like wanna drown le.. today at least not so bad..
then coz good things must share ma... so wanna jio any bummers out there who think their sunday's arent use to the fullest join DSFC loLx... every sunday abt 10am at hougang swim complex ba... now i still very lousy.. but one day i wanna swim fast too... make my own family swim every sunday too.... arhh *dreAms* then after swim go eat then go shop.. thats the life..
dEminG
GREAT SINGAPORE SALE!! cominG soon!! stARt saVing!!
My mind's unweaving/ 1:44 PM
Saturday, May 13, 2006
phew.. today gave my mom the present of a swarovski handphone strap.. its really nice and shiny.. like diamond lidat.. hahaz.. beri nice... lucky i not gal or i'll keep it for myself.. hehz... dont tell you how much it costs manz... go check it out yourself at a swarovski shop if they still sell ba.. =]
later went to city hall to meet up with hao, lk, lh and lina.. actually hao msg me this morning at 1am.. then i read this morning.. it reads 'tml go for lunch at 3pm' so i agreed thinking its on sunday.. lucky i talk to lihua and found out tml.. actually refers to 13th itself.. loLx.. lucky sia... later i end up going to city hall tml at 3pm and find no one... =p hung ard alittle before going to meet my cousins and mom for shopping...
omg manz.. i ended up being a babysister.. loLx.. or babybrother ba.. aiyoz.. the two young cousins 1 sec 1 one pri 6 like always like to ji siao me one.. maybe i look like a tickle-me-deming? >.< can take it when i go to gramps on weekends.. but.. wah sey bring them go shopping.. plus my mom.. 2 more female cousins and my aunt.. i had to sneak away to go and shop manz... >.< checked out a white suit at zara at $299... think it'll be good for my bro's wedding.. and guess what? i'm his 'arrowed' emcee! hahaz.. need to look good huhZ.. *fRumblEs*
later went to suntec shop alittle more before going sanur for dinner.. wah.. my mom and godmum went crazy with the order list.. order 4 of every dish.. amounted to $600+ for 18 people.. the food was pretty good.. the only prob was that they didnt had appeitities like mine.. on the onset my da sao, er jie and aunt gave me their fill of rice.. oh manz.. to think i ran this morning.. *sobZ* later went on shopping at carrefour spotting some good deals so grabbed them... arhhh
my maTernAl faMIly in fuLl foRce!
dEminG
back homE.. time to slacK!!
My mind's unweaving/ 11:25 PM
been really lazy to blog recently.. quite alot of things happened actually.. i've cerebrated birthdays with friends.. watched movies with friends.. had bbq with friends.. but first time i ever attended a funeral for a friend.. its really sad to see a fellow officer depart due to a accident.. first time i saw a military funeral in singapore.. there was military band, the drill squad firing blanks in salute and casket bearers with the state flag draped on it... even high ranking officers like Chief commando was there.. kowi was a really hyper and happy guy.. just hope he rests in peace and stay happy always...
on thursday the graduation from ctc finally came.. it was alittle sad for me as it meant parting with my whacky syndicate 4 guys.. i dare say our syndicate is the most bonded and enthusiastic grp.. going for dinners, suppers when all the other syndicates disband the moment the lessons end... we really shared the closest bonds that can be formed in 1 month with ranks of all types... i can say they're the most fun bunch of guys i've befriended in the army.. hahaz.. syndicate 4 rocks!!
yesterday went to guang ming shan for vesak day.. queueing up for the pouring of water on the buddha.. had a little conversation with my mom on our religion... i gotta say many times i was asked to convert to christianity.. not that i dont like it.. but i believe buddhism more.. just looking at buddha's serene and peaceful look gives me a sort of peace in myself.. everything is voluntary.. donations are of our own choice.. they even served free food at no charge at all in the name of religion.. the temples were well built and all... i liked buddhism becoz it also doesnt impose any restrictions on our life.. all i know is living life to my best by my own is the best testimony to buddha's teachings yup... =]
oh.. last night went tampines mall with my family + da sao.. think next time call family = 5 le.. hahaz.. myself, my dad, mom, bro and da sao le.. hehz.. went for a mini mother's day dinner at bali thai.. later on as we were walking ard i went to courts to look at the laptops.. then i noticed some gal seemed to have recognised me or something from behind the counter.. i thought she was looking at someone else so i went on.. till she came over and talked to me.. boy was i surprised.. was hl.. hahaz.. amazing how time flies huhz.. going uni in august le... changed her style too.. but still the same old hyper personality huhz.. =X had a short conversation before joining my parents to go back...
haiz.. i realized i've really SHRUNK alot recently.. in terms of muscles.. and GAINED alot of weight.. loLX.. i tell myself to chiong trg but i lack motivation manz.. need people to stress me then can.. haiz... will i ever be able to revert to the old fit me? time will tell....
dEminG
go Go Go gO Go!!
My mind's unweaving/ 10:20 AM
Sunday, May 07, 2006
arrhh.. thats the words i wish i could say every weekend.. and i've been doing so for the past few weekends.. haha.. its really 'happy' thing.. although im not laughing out loud.. the soul feels relieved and light feeling.. after last night's bbq and the election results i only slept at 2.30am lidat... then i totally concussed.. probably after the fatigue from 1 whole day of work just for the bbq.. and i woke up at 12 lidat..
felt really really bad coz i arranged with pok and lh to go swim at nine.. but i really couldnt wake up at all.. my whole body was still aching then.. then think marcus was really pissed off with me... sent an apology.. but just hope he wont take it to heart.. haiz... really sorry!!!
hung ard at home cleaning up the stuff here and there from last night's bbq.. then after lunch left for PS to meet up with hy, ange, vincent and kj... laibun came later.. we went to tcc after my suggestion as i just got my membership card.. its 15% off.. the only thing is unlike coffee bean.. theres 5% GST + 10% SVC.. that makes 15%.. hahaz.. the drink i bought wasn't too fantastic.. maybe coz i got the alternative drink... think should get their signature coffee next time.. prices range from $6 to $15 dollars for the drinks... its classy and really 'chill' out place.. but until i find a drink worth the $$, i dont think i'm gonna be a reg in tcc..
after that went to kfc before going to play pool at paradigm.. thought the ladies were bringing us somewhere to be sold.. hahaz.. scary.. played pool for 2 hrs before splitting coz ange had tuition while vin and hy had dinner with family.. so myself laibun and kj went to hougang plaza there for dinner.. hung ard and here i am at home...
this week gonna be an long planning exercise.. so dont think i'm gonna be home till wednesday night or thursday night after course graduation.. hehz.. course graduation on 11 may!! finally ending.. can go back 40SAR and suffer again.. sobZ.. kkZ.. gTg.. sEeya all!! and thanks for such a great weekenD!!
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2S04 rumBle foRever!!
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myself, vin, kj, ange, hy at tCC!!
dEminG
wiLl next wEek be the samE?
My mind's unweaving/ 10:58 PM
the weather was really a blessing too.. since 5pm it looked like it was gonna rain till nightfall.. then about 9pm lightning started roaring ahead.. they were even telling me to get ready to move the stuff in.. for once heavens was with me... as i refused to accept that it was gonna rain.. hahaz.. thanks man! ;)
cleaning up's gonna be the prob.. money also need to return to the people i owe ASAP.. i always pride myself to be swift when coming to return the money stuff.. but well.. think i deserve a good's night rest..
so its done... its alot of effort coordinating and all.. but well seeing almost everyone ard really warms me up.. but as i promised myself i really gonna take a break le.. its too much effort and stress management if ya ask me.. hahaz.. just hope that this reunion of sorts got you guys to rethink of how strong our bonds ar? kkz.. gonna go sleep le.. really tired... thanks for coming everyone!!
dEminG
finally gonna retire le... arhzz..
My mind's unweaving/ 1:00 AM
Saturday, May 06, 2006
its common for guys my age.. 18-20 who cant really afford cars to look towards bikes.. for 1: the cost.. 2: the exhiliration.. no doubt it is cooL coz i sat it but only twice but sure left a lasting impression on me... its already disturbing enough to hear your parents nag abt how dangerous a bike is... or hearsay of how people easily die or become crippled after bike accidents... but nothing would strike one as hard as that your friend - who was just so happy and jovial less than 24hrs ago... has passed away due to a bike accident...
its was so shocking that i couldnt believe it.. i really wished that it was a prank.. but from a well trusted frenz word, it is true... after 4 weeks in this CTC course... next week is graduation.. and yesterday we had a long but kinda funny lecture in NE... and he was laughing loudly on several occasions.. now he's just gone...
though i didnt know him that well.. it really struck me on how fragile life is... what if i knew him alot better.. like a close brother.. and just in a split second he fell victim to the list of fathal road accidents.. it isnt worth it.. it really isn't worth it... his wake is tonight but i cant go due to the bbq... maybe i'll go tml..
dEming
1 lEss gooD man... why is the world so unfair~?
My mind's unweaving/ 3:28 PM
Monday, May 01, 2006
wah!! its already end of 1 may... 5 more months to ORD.. muhAHahahz... i cant believe it man.. next thing i know my bdae is here le.. time really flies manz.. this weekend has been one hella weekend as i said.. saturday went to watch dance comp + outing with my sotong family... sunday went watch sentinel with mon, pok, weiliang and lk.. today went sentosa siloso beach with the canoes.. oh manz.. this weekend ROCKS!!
though im totally drained.. i think must blog.. hahaz.. coz really enjoyable manz.. today was alittle dissappointing i gotta admit.. coz 1: its sad that every year lesser and lesser people from our batch meeting up.. to me since i join canoeing.. 1 may theres no exception.. always leave it vacant to go sentosa to meet up with the canoes of old and new.. 2: there was no program planned at all.. no games.. no compeitions no nothing planned.. we were like just there to own time own target.. doesnt feel like a team outing like before..
it rained alittle then the mood down.. but luckily it got bright and SUPER hot again later.. so managed to get abit of a sunburn.. hEhz.. but coz i had to meet my parents for dinner i left earlier at 3pm.. after bathing and waiting and eating at ben n jerry's we went to harbourfront for dinner before i went to pasir ris downtown east to meet my parents for dinner... tml my dad's bdae lorz.. then bought an emicake for my dad.. hahaz.. that cashier ger very shy sia.. nv see chao tah guy before aR? aiyoZ
so here i am back at home.. and tml got major TEST for my course.. omg.. havent read anything or memorise anything.. hahaz... i hope i do pass this course though.. later my CO will f*** me... oh... few more things.. hahaz.. lh asked me go for this hip hop class at sk cc.. coz i recently got the dancing hype again.. it was just what i needed.. hahaz.. anyone else in sk area wanna go?? go lei go leiz!!! dancing is really gonna be fun!! with me ard too.. >.< maybe after hip hop i'll go learn tango? hehEz.. it'll be cool to dance tat with my gf or wife in the future.. ;)
soTong famiLY!!! inSeperabLE soTOng bLooD!!
sEnTosa may day 2006!!
dEminG
they say i bEcomE faT lE!! actually no denying it.. but i'm gonna start my 6-pack program tml onwards!! muhAhahaz.. lets see can get 2 packs by my bdae not.. hEhez... chiLL!!
My mind's unweaving/ 10:38 PM
Boat Shoe from Timberland
Green Scarf from Hermes