wah... so long nv blog.. hahaz.. keep having alot to write but just no motivation.. haha... keep playing World of Warcraft instead.. finally got my own account so now can play even when my bro is online.. on sat i went to expo for my first warehouse sale.. addidas~! loLx...
not sure what time should start queuing so went at 9.30am.. was open at 11am... when i reached no queue.. then ard 10.15 the queue started to stretch towards the mrt station le.. lolx.. i was 2nd in line.. shiok~ =D then my pals dong yong shen and alvin came closer to the opening time... and in we went grabbing all the nice looking stuff regardless we wanna buy.. then rendezous at a place with our other frenz and filtered what was good and not as those that came later waited like vultures to shift through our unwanted stuff~ hEhez
bought myself a sling bag at last.. wasnt too bad and was a good deal at $35 for such a big adidas bag.. compared to a t shirt i almost bought for the same price~~ and today was the first day i used it.. too bad its alittle troublesome to open with a zip that goes in a circular manner..
hahaz.. now 2nd day at work... really diff experience.. but definitely it drys me for every cent they pay me.. loLx.. cannot talk too much.. later kana sack.. loLX... oh yah for this week i'm on rest day on sunday... the off day not yet confirmed... i cant pick up phones at the call centre coz it will interrupt the service so if you have anything urgent do sms me so i can call back asap yup~~ pls understand if i dont reply to you as soon as you do k???
till next time~!
Good Morning~ This is Daryl~~ =D
My mind's unweaving/ 8:37 PM
Friday, November 24, 2006
oh manz... its here again!! damn it.. xmas season.. haiz.. its always been a season of happiness and all.. but since last year it has always been a woeful period coz my material gain 'me' comes!! to recap last year i bought the PSP for $600.. bought my oakley specs for $450... and had LOTS of good food... by the end of which i found myself poorer than before i enlisted...
not that i regret buying either.. my PSP is still my best companion even if its alittle big.. and my oakley specs is the only specs i wear nowadays.. my other specs too cui already... i dunnoe why.. maybe its coz of the christmas carols, the sales going on.. friends getting good deals.. but once again i feel myself tempted to buy things.... this time my shopping list is more sports orientated manz.. saw this nice asics singlet at marina sq.. but damn ex! not worth it.. then the 'debt' of getting a bike bugs me more... then theres the need to get a new bag for outings and sch next year... and also formal bold coloured long sleeve shirts..
already i spent $300++ on my xbox 360 earlier this month.. so i've been pretty much conservative of late.. but that didnt stop me from window shopping.. so far narrowed down my choices of bag, bike, shirt, clothes etc... still need to get a blazer for next year's wedding as master of ceremony for my bro's wedding~~ haiz... planning to buy those i NEED once i get my xmas ang baos~~ hEhz.. then those more of LUXURY i'll get once i get my second pay from my job ba..
speaking of which my job starts this monday! hahaz.. hope those guys are a nice bunch to work with.. though i already have a bad feeling already.. hahaz.. hope can work well with this bunch of ppl... might be an all guys team of 9 men.. the guys who actually also ORD-ed like me.. hope we dont bring the ugliness of working in army to starhub too.. heHez..
oh yah eve brought up the idea of shopping in KL in dec.. hahaz.. tempted me just when shopping is my biggest temptation now.. sobz.. i'm really keen though.. wonder if it'll happen though~~ hMmmz.. tml going expo to buy stuff!! SEXPO!! loLx.. 21 and above only.. wonder if i can get in.. =D
dEminG SanTa.. whEn wilL you eveR comE to my Life?
My mind's unweaving/ 9:52 PM
Thursday, November 23, 2006
arrrrhh... such is the life of a sinful slacker.. lOLx.. playing games.. once computer tired le go play xbox.. omG.. >.< but well im still doing my gym routines with vince and kj... just havent been canoeing.. i really feel out when i think abt going back to paddle with the juniors.. hahaz.. i almost really give up on everything i start huhz.. well.. its just me... = cant remember which day... wah 'bumped' ;in a sense; into this lady when she struck that million dollar smile as i apologised.. omg.. hahaz... i really very weak manz... legs get wobbly.. keep thinking of that smile.. oh manz.. hahaz.. sound abit perv ba.. but well its really my weakness against woman...
which actually made me think of a few things... how many types of smile are there in the world? you think abt it... well... to name a few.. i think theres the pose for photo kinda smile.. just a smile not much feel... then theres the mian qiang smile.. can see the muscle 'kek' lidat.. hahaz.. then theres the big laughter haha smile.. might look alittle crude but well its the most unedited smile right? then theres that million dollar smile.. lolx.. i dunnoe how to describe it lar.. but it just makes my heart melt.. >.<
been meeting up with fab amos and kl really often this week.. but it just never gets old.. the only thing that does is the train/bus ride to kovan or hougang.. loLx.. esp at adult rate.. tmD.... no $$ le!!! >.< oh yah my mom coming back tml morning~~ hehez.. can go fetch her then eat at airport.. bask in the feeling of travelling.. aRrrrRRr..
left 4 days before my work starts.. still wondering how i should better enjoy myself manz... = dEming =]
My mind's unweaving/ 5:40 PM
Sunday, November 19, 2006
yesterday went gym with kaijie and vince again.. felt alittle more tired than usual coz the night before sent my mom off to denmark for her business stuff.. first time travel overseas without relatives.. hope she does fine~~ hahaz.. just cold only ba... but still got her colleagues so no prob~~ slowly increasing the intensity of my runs and weights... weight as of 18 nov = 59kg.... 4 more kg to go!!
went back rested and out i went again (lolx.. kinda de ja vour) to dhoby ghaut and met marcus, weiliang, darren and zhen hao.. had lunch at carl's jr and a funny talk from jobs to bangkok exotic industries.. lolX.. hot cold reach heaven... haha.. interpret yourself ba...
zhen hao left then we went ard shopping before we watched the movie step up.. thought would be watching casino royale but we agreed from other ppl feedback that it aint that good so we went on to catch step up... overall its a 'feel-good' movie.. dancing was part of it but not entirely.. hahaz.. the female lead was hot.. >.< damn how i wished i knew a gal that loves dancing too.. =\ kinda envious of how slick the male lead's moves were.. its like dont even need to rehearse.. haiz...
actually the movie was about a delinquent finding a purpose in life and all.. from his talent in dancing and taking second chances and all.. and of coz romance with that babe.. =D but one thing kinda strike me was how they mentioned we gotta keep trying to perfect the dance moves.. maybe i should just enrol in a dance school... that love/interest in dance kinda died after army and all... no one i know really into dancing.. and those that i know like too high level le.. haiz... thats why i keep thinking.. maybe its time for me to step up?
this morning went to hougang to swim for the 1st time in a long while.. hahaz.. marcus was LATE as usual.. i even warned him yesterday.. loLX.. coincidentally met dawn who was teaching swimming too.. the thing was some middle aged man asked to borrow my phone to phone his home.. so i agreed.. then he went abt a 7min chat that resembles a housing agent.. when he finally hung up he still asked me to help him dial another number.. tmd... take my kindness as weakness.. can do business but no HP?? f***... use more dial time than i did for this month.. loLX... (no gf mahz)
had a nice slow and steady swim for me.. try to rmb how i used to swim my breast strokes and front crawls.. but still very slow as compared to pok or dawn.. hahaz.. but at least i'll nv swim like f*** those old man that hog up the continuous lap lines.. >.<... wasnt too sunny but guess its good enough ba.. wouldnt want a sunburn the moment i start swimming again...
kkz.. later going to safra mount faber for my friend's wedding.. from aoac one.. hahaz.. first time go for a friend's wedding instead of parent's friend or relative... arrr... coming of age huhz... 20.. still early lar.. maybe 5 years later mine turn? =] actually no hurry~~ more important most find that one that i love~~ if not no point ruining one's life in a rush... kkz.. im outta here~!
step up~!!
dEminG my danCing genEs are tinGling again!!
My mind's unweaving/ 3:45 PM
Thursday, November 16, 2006
yesterday was one hella fateful day manz.. loLx.. in the morning i went to gym with kai jie and vincent after 1 and a half years of not training together.. it feels good to train again with frenz.. went hougang gym at 9am and boy were we suprised by the huge turnout of 'aunties'.. loLx.. new generation manz.. no more marketing aunties.. or maybe they went there after gymming? =]
hahaz.. after training vincent influenced us to weigh ourselves.. loLx.. like any other ger's nightmare.. I GAINED WEIGHT!! loLx.. but then its a slight dip from the last time i measured at the FFI.. loLx.. now i stand at 60kg! loLx.. fat manz.. was 53 when i grad from SRJC.. crap... swore to myself and in front of kaijie and vince that i'll hit 55kg by the end of 2006!! I SWEAR!!!!!!!!
and yup after that i went home took a quick shower and stuff.. then i head out to macritchie!! loLx.. not run long distance.. but CANOEING!! woOhoo~! loLX.. finally got the motivation thanks to pi kuang's invitation to join the canoeists for training.. was pouring hippos and pigs on my way there and thankfully it stopped by the time i reached.. lOlx... felt funny wearing the SRJC canoeist singlet from my batch... really pride manz.. but taking 156 in a tight fitting singlet (coz i got fat remember?) is er... paisey? hahaz... but dont pray play.. i nv wear my singlet unless i feel i am fit enough to wear it.. or when im down for canoe training!!
boy did i s*ck and canoeing now manz.. being thrashed by the J1s.. but well in a good light its good no one is lagging as bad as one who never canoed seriously for 2 years.. unlike the last time i canoed like a year ago when i just paddled for fun.. i joined the juniors for all 6 laps of 1km back and forth.. my muscles gave up on me and almost felt a swell at my biceps like a dislocation but i just bit my teeth and went on no matter how slow i was... and yup!! i NEVER capsized in Lancer! lolX.. damn proud of myself.. =]
thankfully before the break i found back my strokes i sharpened back in my JC days.. but i couldnt endure as much as before to maintain my form even with fatigue kicking in.. but one thing i found in those waters and pain i felt was the determination i had before.. i just kept pushing myself hard and hard... when i was about to give up.. i gave a shout and off i went... it felt soo good after training i couldnt help but smile as i felt my limit finally being pushed again after a year of deprovement..
i want that moment relived again... SR CANOEISTS WHOOSH!!
after the training i had a chat with mr tan and heard some bad news.. haiz.. too bad cannot tell anyone abt it... but well its only right for him to move on i guess... and as i gave my 10cents worth of experience to the canoeists as i talked to my juniors i saw a familar face... AARON!! loLx.. monica's ex-***** loLX.. boy was funny to see him... now long hair like before.. so beng sia.. hahaz.. too bad didnt talk as he was just going into the water..
after that at the bus stop i saw a st gab's scout junior who called me at first.. hahaz.. honestly i cant recall his name.. but we had a good chat and all.. wah.. now i really feel old manz.. i already ended NS he still poly only.. >.< the canoe juniors even teased me asking if i knew anyone else at the bus stop.. hahaz... later went bishan to eat my fav!! tori-q.. and guess who i met? lOLx.. hong an!! omG.. this is amazing manz.. one of those few days i spent more time outside than home for a long time and i met 3 old frenz... feels great!! then i bought a bottle of american ginseng tea for my mom who was sick before i head home~~
oh yah.. i mentioned to you guys abt how stressed i was about my other frenz getting a job as i wasted my life away? i submitted my resume from a matched job by jobstreet yesterday and they called me up today in the morning... was at 1 and i went down at 3pm in hastily dressed formal attire and found out it was actually a middleman kinda agency.. so they asked me a few qn and didnt tell me what the job was until that interview on my way back when he called me to give me details of the company interview tml~~ hahaz.. stunned.. in the end its the same company as my godsis.. hahahaz.. funny sia... theres 4 other ppl fighting for the same job.. hope i can win yup!! wish me luck!!
as i was abt to go home my mom sms-ed me that my grandma was hospitalised so i immediately headed to SGH from city hall and visited her.. thankfully wasnt serious.. heard she was at A&E so i was actually really worried.. its just she had this ailment for some time and decided to get a hospital diagnosis instead of the clinic.. after talking to her and my aunt for about an hour i went home... changed and went for another running regime~~ woot.. damn tired...
gotta say thanks to yesterday's gym and canoe session i found my determination seeping back into me as well as my self esteem.. like back in the old days when i felt stressed or emotionally affected i would just push myself like crazy be it in land training or sea training.. i ran the same distance as i ran 2 days ago and i was happy to find myself mentally stronger and faster than 2 days back... i found myself motivating myself.. shouting out when my body was giving up and pushing myself hard.. its just so much more satisfying than a training with no pain.. but i kinda worried how other ppl who saw me feel.. loLx.. a madman talking to himself as he runs? hehZ..
vincent did tell me a fact that hit me hard yesterday.. that i 'lost everything'.. my tan my body shape and all.. its true and i finally stopped running away and started picking up the pieces of me... i've taken alot of big steps these 2 days... i just hope i will continue to take such steps ahead!! for now... short term goal = get the job!! first job interview~~ wooOh.. mentally prepared in case i fail the first time.. but i will try hard to get it!!
dEminG DRP!!! gamBAtte!!
My mind's unweaving/ 7:09 PM
Monday, November 13, 2006
so its been a 1 week aniversary!! lolX.. from ORD that is.. the week sure passed fast... some breakthroughs some letdowns.. as i reflect back on these 7 days i really wonder if its ok to continue with my plan... true i intended to slack off nov and dec.. go out for vacations, stay home, play games etc etc... enjoy a last FULL holiday in my life.. but somehow it is distressing to see my friends who ORD-ed slowly absorbing themselves into the workplace as i find my position less taken by the day...
though my family's alright with it.. sometimes i feel whether relying on my savings and abit of allowance from my parents is the right way to go.. seeing my parents come home see me glued on the computer or xbox.. maybe they are worried abt my lifestyle... could i turn into a couch potato? i really wonder if they think like that...
but well.. today i finally convinced myself to move my a** and clean up my ns stuff.. threw away 4 big plastic bags full of thrash, excess or unnecessary stuff i have the habit of keeping.. felt hesitant to throw it when i was about to dump into the dumpster.. but when i did it felt good~ hahaz.. packed my army stuff into my duffel bag and a clear containter containing surplus stuff and my company commander necessities... sweeeEeET~~
concurrently d/ling tonnes of game demos on my xbox 360 to make full use of the 1 month free xbox live trial and my hard disk which i spent $145 just to get it! >.< sort out some of my old stuff.. discarding old and unusable electronics.. uncovering old secrets like my journal back from OCS.. hahaz.. nice read really.. and then theres my notes... time to hit it again!!
up next is to nail up my whiteboard i used to use in my office to monitor my daily targets.. my training regime and all.. just ran ard buangkok mrt twice... noticed how bad my stamina is.. hard to breathe at the first round and all.. did pull up regime and all.. funny thing abt sengkang blocks.. alot of benches and tables at the void deck if you notice.. the same place i saw two school students getting abit hanky panky.. today i saw 2 sec sch gals gossiping about "cum"... =\ hey i was just walking back to my lift leiz.. not i wanna hear too!! kids nowadays.. haiz...
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dEmiNg so... whaT hP shoulD i geT? =]
My mind's unweaving/ 5:43 PM
Sunday, November 12, 2006
wheee... another weekend has gone and passed! hahaz.. notihng much really.. was at my bro's pungol house yesterday for his house warming... the usual relatives playing ard.. spoiled cousins and old friends of his... well.. everytime they have this kinda thing i always feel outta place.. so no choice.. stick myself to the computer.. = then went to autosport yet again for AOAC drinking session.. hahaz.. its so regular its like a part of life for those kinda old folks type.. telling my parents "hey i'm off for drinking session tonight".. hahahaz... guess 20 years old isnt that young also right? =] too bad not many turned up.. the NSF turned NSmen came in full strength though.. hahaz.. foX, thomas, ian, boon hui and me... + pui pin, a thinner fredrick, dean, jason and our wedding boy wee wah~~ hahaz.. getting married next sunday.. so we intended to tekan him.. loLx but he went down so fast we were all left blurred.. >.<
iT waS a woNderful timE~~ lEts keep thE spIrit buRning!!
today i woke up and it was 1pm!! loLX.. stunned.. felt like 8am like any other day.. guess coz i slept at 3am thats why ba.. >.< anyways as usual went gaming and all... then went to hougang mall finally buying the hard disk + wireless controller + gears of war~ hahaz.. spent $290... manz... so gonna scringe for this month.. dont think i'll be buying my bicycle at this rate.. sobZ.. funny even my classmates are working le.. is it wrong to slack off dec and nov lidat? loLx.. =p
dEminG lAzing my dayS ouT~~ wooT!!
My mind's unweaving/ 11:25 PM
Friday, November 10, 2006
hahaz.. only $283 only.. ok lar.. considered is 5 days allowance... not a big sum but it looks nice lar.. otherwise my bank account will be 2 digits nia.. =p haha.. yesterday went to bukit batok civil service club for our 40SAR ORD function... loLx.. was a laughter filled night man.. the MC was really good.. perfect for an all male function... very vulgar too.. loLx.. but highly entertaining... when they had this aussie multi talented performer come up everyone started sleeping.. hahaz.. he just couldnt connect lar.. poor thing...
too bad my camera batt low.. forgot to buy batteries.. sobz... wanted to take a pic with my platoon after the function but it dragged till 11.30pm.. so once it ended and we didnt win the lucky draw everyone dispersed really fast... so i only managed to take a pic with moi fellow PCs.. hahaz.. gonna miss these great bunch of colleagues..
nEver foRget nEver apArt!!
today the company from my bro's lobang called.. but i was 'concussed' so didnt pick up the call.. loLx.. later on my mom called me to tell me off and asked me to call back.. loLx.. little did i know the person will actually ask me to introduce myself over the phone.. hahaz.. being a person who almost nv calls someone i do not know i stumbled and just said i dont know how to intro myself.. loLx..
*ouch* you say? yar.. i kinda realised that.. loLx.. then she left with the usual 'nice try' msg.. "ok thank you.. we'll call you up if you are suitable for the job" lOLx.. heard from my frenz b4 it means you wont be getting a call.. aiya.. to me it doesnt really matter.. just a 1-2 week job nia.. somemore i only want to try working in diff kinda workplace.. an admin one in this case.. if i really cant get it i can try others!! =]
but well i believe its a learning point ppl!! hahaz.. for ppl like me who nv had a gf or nosy fren that always calls you to talk nonsense.. do practise self introductions more!! hahaz.. now i also starting to prep le.. for my next job application!! gambatte!!
dEminG finIanciaL indEpendenCe = poVerty? =p
My mind's unweaving/ 8:15 PM
Wednesday, November 08, 2006
hahaz.. so many things have been keeping me so into life that i havent had time to blog since i was officially received my realease notice on 061106.. come to think of it.. writing 11 reminds me its nov already.. and its really a beautiful time filled with fun these past 3 days...
monday i went back at eight am... smiling inadvertably as i walk ard the compound.. thinking of all the memories and all i had in the camp... went to clear my signatures for the release form.. went to our CO who 'niao' us for not looking for him last.. seriously he's the kind of person you dont know if he is joking or really scolding us... but well.. in the end we only got our certs and the release form at 1pm.. last blast of lousy army administration before we ended our service~~ hahaz oh well... said farewell to those ard.. but mostly is 'see ya this thursday!!'.. i'm really not good at saying goodbye i guess =]
that morning i mass send msg to most on my contacts to let them know of my release.. loLx.. was quite fun reading their msgs.. from those still in army and all.. or those buddies or frenz that we havent got in contact for a long time... really heartwarming too as some frenz i thought who forgotten abt me also agreed that we shall meet in time...
and meet we did.. hahaz.. went with benjamin amos and fabian to hougang mall for ichiban sushi.. had a fun time chatting and having a good meal.. went out with the guys in my class.. donghai kl jun kok fabian and me~~ went tampines mall for dinner and alittle of shopping~ hahaz.. fabby bought FF12!! haha feel so excited for him.. hope it rocks!!
oh.. some ppl been asking me what DRP stands for.. it means "Deming Restoration Project".. loLx.. cheesy huhz.. but i thought it was necessary to find the me again.. coupled with the army experience.. sour and good moments..with my times in sch with frenz.. working with ppl.. i think i have to name it so that i might actually work on it~~
personally i feel that i definitely degraded in somethings.. my mental determination.. enthusiasm and all kinda died out in the army.. sometimes i really felt so alone during my times as an officer.. somehow the fun we had weren't that fun as my old frenz.. prob coz to work stresses and all.. as i was clearing leave i just spent my days playing games.. just wanting to ORD till i do anything.. tried to convince myself to do stuff.. but i just didnt have the determination
i always thought it was peer pressure that got me going when i think back.. but as i renewed the friendship and relived the fun i had with frenz ive been meeting up.. i cant help but really feel happy to have great frenz like these.. some guys told me abt being bored of meeting and making male frenz all the time.. but really these buddies are always there for me... thru tough or happy moments.. their presence really motivates me... and thats where i found my answer.. it was the motivation from my friends that kept me going...
and so DRP begins.. to restore the mentally strong and independent me... to renew my friendships i thought i forgot how to cherish... to stand on my own 2 feet once again to be a better person... to achieve what i set out to do.. to earn my place in the world.. to raise my self esteem and fitness... all in all.. DRP begins.... as inspired by the anime titled 'welcome to the NHK'~~
WELCOME TO THE DRP!!
dEminG i will achieve!!
My mind's unweaving/ 10:27 PM
Friday, November 03, 2006
haiz.. today i went to sim lim, bugis junction, serangoon central, bishan and amk.. all looking for the xbox 360 hard disk... coz the one i found for $145 was out of stock.. the ones at sim lim at $149 and $155 were both out of stock... every other stall i checked out set their prices at a nett of $159.. in the end i just fell really dumb.. all the travel fees just spent looking for that $15 dollar discount could have well wasted off that cash..
so in the end i just bought a game, ghost recon advanced warfighter from amk and decided to wait till next week before i buy the hard disk from the shop offering at $145.. haiz... just hope their stock comes in as promised... just as i was getting alittle pissed off with the travelling, i was chatting with ky when he told me abt the bad news..
from what he says abt the s4 meeting, vehicle doing tests, equipment prep and all today.. he told me to be prepared for a possible 4ntm turnout tml.. i really wanted to believe it was just another rumour.. just like that msd scare they gave us everyday.. prep and prep but still wont happen... but it seems so real that my fren also told me abt certain important ppl booking in today and staying over the night in camp just in case...
it TOTALLY ruined my day.. its my worst case scenario come true... it truth i'm going to transit to operational ready on the 5th of nov, sunday... along with a few commanders who will be ORD-ing within that 3 days onwards.. all these past weekends i've been bringing my kit home bit by bit.. unpacked my stuff for preservation until my ICT.. and now its rumoured we have to ready ourselves for a turnout..
ok to be fair lets explain why A turnout is necessary..
1: to ensure the personnel are operationally ready and respond rapidly should any need to deploy arise 2:ensures the equipment readiness for operations
its the same in all armies to have a standby force for emergencies.. but logically speaking having a turnout practise a day before a swap of key appointment holders seem F***ing STUPID
why? read on~ 1: should the turnout occur, the force will be certified ready and proven.. then 2 days later... 20-30% of that force will change hands as a batch ORD and replacements are made to ensure the force is up to the required number... so are the replacements proven to be ready? so the force that actually did the turnout had only a like 1-day proven performance?
2: they know 20-30% are gonna ord.. but they still put our unit on standby... even after that percentage ORD they still gotta come out with a composite force to move out... those replacements are going to be commanders.. have they even fought or even talked to the soldiers that they are going to fight alongside?
3: we were to return our issued items before we leave... so now that we have to be turn out.. they have to prepare all that issued items just so that we can show off to the inspectors for a few hours then return them just before we end our service??
i nv really hated turnouts as much as this one.. i knew the importance of turnouts.. but realistically speaking.. if singapore ever needed me to fight for her.. i wont mind knocking out doors, cutting traffic lights to get to my camp and draw my weapons... but i guess those top brass want proof that we can respond quickly... the only way to prove? to show them~~ lay out nice nice... like going for a picnic... yeah....
so many other facts keep bombarding my head.. but i guess everything has its pros and cons.. but it is so irritating of how useless this exercise may be that all my bad feelings culminated to a wonderful EXPERIENCE... (L.I.V.E) gonna thank the army for showing me how bad things can go.. how bad decisions can affect so many ppl.. how lousy planning course unneccessary effort to go to waste... how screw up a system can be if not properly managed... indeed.. i had hella experience.. if it really does turn out it just adds the cream to the desert...
mentioned this to my parents over dinner and they shared a good point.. 'thats the last chance they get to do anything to you mah'... i always detested how ppl who ORD disregard all discipline and respect they had before when they actually ORD.. running ard holding their IC.. flaunting and shouting their freedom as well as the slogan "ORD LO!!" but now i can really feel such sentiments arising in me... now i understand why they do such things.. but its just to the wrong ppl.. its all up there.. or the system... with no where to vent their frustration they turn to others who just enlisted etc... haiz.. how sad and confused this place is huhz...
in simple words..
WELL DONE LAR!
dEminG anD so the waiT foR the paGer to rinG bEginS...
My mind's unweaving/ 9:16 PM
whew with 2 days left to my official ORD date i'm about set on my path to post ORD plans... lets hope i dont fall to the vicious cycle of gaming though.. lOLx.. then everything i planned for will go down the drain... i still gotta go to camp on sunday and monday to get my pink ic along with my rest of my equipment back home... went back the day before for some ord brief at the reservist centre..
did a few more interviews before i left and 1 thing that i found abt myself once again... was that i really cant say farewells properly.. had this feeling in my other times in life too.. in sec sch.. in jc... but somehow the farewells in the army are more.... difficult to say.. maybe coz they're all GUYS so well.. they probably dont give a f*** to what i say anyways... one part of me knew that they would not keep in touch unless they really have to... on the other hand i was hoping they'll be like my other friends i made.. that still keep in contact and meet up once in a while...
i'm not too worried abt the officer frenz i made.. but my platoon commanders and men just seem to be so distant... maybe i failed on that part.. but that didnt stop me from trying.. sometimes i feel myself trying to rub off abit of what i feel is good to influence them in certain ways... some of them did listen.. some disagreed... maybe what i feel is good for them in life isnt the same for me?
eitherways im now clearing my off and leave and just slacking off at home... today just went to my bro's place to get the free xbox 360... as he mentioned it couldnt work without the hard disk or any memory unit.. in the end i still have to buy the hard disk that costs $159.. but scouting ard i found 1 that sold for $145 but was out of stock... what bad luck huhZ... maybe tml i'll check out simlim if they offer the same price..
nEw aDdition to the homE!
currently im watching an anime i watched like 4 years ago.. its called kimi ga nozomu eien.. which means the "eternity i wish for" i think.. as some may think already its a love drama.. but its really a sad and tragic story where friendship and love, new feelings and rekindled feelings all come into play.. have some mature scenes but no RA stuff in it.. its all in life i guess? (the sleaze?) check out the vid i add on the right.. it has the part where the turning point of the series comes.. then i'll leave it to your imagination how it turned out or just go watch it too~~ loLx!
dEminG gEAred up foR my nExt Step in lIfe!!
My mind's unweaving/ 12:02 AM
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