helloz ppl!! woohoo 1 week to ORD.. fast sia... 7 days will come and go and i'll be 1 pink ic richer.. =] loLx.. but well it sure feels sad in a sense that i wont have the fun of going to camp and having a hella time with my comrades esp ky tom and jerry from 'c' coy... somehow the reason for us to meet again will become scarce.. but i sincerely hope the friendship we nurtured through 1 year of camaradiership and hard work will stay true yup.. to all the officers and men of 40SAR.. all the best and keep in touch!!
yesterday was actually the nus early matriculation talk.. was less detailed than i expected.. in fact i almost forgot abt it completely until fabby told me abt it.. loLx.. was thinking of catching a movie with my classmates when fabby told me sia.. hengz.. it felt kinda good to be in a lecture.. listening to professors instead of the usual myself giving a lecture/talk/conducting brief up front..
after the talk in short there were 2 options
1: take up the special term (may/june) (a) apply for all 2 special terms and clear 4 modules at $611 each and grad a sem earlier
(b) apply for either 1 of the special terms and do the number of modules you prefer to adjust to the uni life
2: dont do special term and join the main body in august
of coz with these 2 options option 1(b) seems the best to me.. but the fact of having to pay that additional $611 as an extra cost in the entire uni expenditure sounds alot to me.. 1(a) seems untenable as 1 module takes 13 weeks but we're doing it in 6 weeks.. 1(a) would fit the smart guys most.. but well.. i aint 1!! loLx
met familar faces from my bn.. commanders and men alike.. haha was insisting that they called me by name... was embarrased when naren called me 'sir'.. im trying to adapt.. so i hope others can too! =] after the talk we went off to suntec while fabby went off to join benji and all
wanted to catch a movie as well as the career fair.. caught DOA.. there was pratically 0 story value.. hahaz.. but for the hot woman and fight scenes.. guess its a 2/5 ba? hahaz.. the career fair was more of business and finiancial careers as well as uniformed ones.. there wasnt any really on life sciences so it was a kinda waste of time for me... lolx.. actually met sathya with his wife at the chan brother's fair.. still as tense and unexcited sia.. haha.. kinda miss those AOAC days too..
hoLly valAnce is hoT!!
went by carrefour later and checked out the bicycles.. unfortunately they seemed to have stopped sales of the VTT bikes.. was really hoping to buy back my old bike.. but seems that it aint ard anymore.. the next closest was this $320 aleoca bike.. formula GT if i remember.. aluminium frame too... so guess its down to either this one or the nakamura bike at $240 i saw at lorong ah soo... hopefully i'll buy next week~! =]
thE alEoca bikE i saW at CarrefouR
alright.. almost completing company of heroes.. then i'll start playing with ys le.. loL.. think i getting the hang of it.. woohoo~~ but still very slow sia... must practise my company tactics sia.. >.< chilL!!
dEminG i'lL rather bE ORD-ed.. =D
My mind's unweaving/ 12:29 PM
Tuesday, October 24, 2006
yeAH~~ recently bought 1GB of RAM from sim lim when i accompanied kk, kl, ys, fabby, john and amos to buy kk's new com... almost bought a $186 one at a shop on the 5th floor when i found one at $177 on the 6th floor.. loLx.. cooL manz.. though now my com is 1.5GB and experiences no lag.. still cant play games at high detail.. lOLx.. esp coz i got company of heroes installed from yong shen.. shiok sia.. freaking chaotic and realistic.. flank here flank there.. first time play rts till i really headache thinking of tactics.. >.<
and so its like 12 days to ord i finally sought out my thoughts.. for nov and dec.. im gonna be in holiday mood!! hahaz.. vacation... play games etc etc.. just like those good old days in school.. no worries.. just slack away~~ then late dec com early jan i'll start looking for a job~~ how abt that... arrhh.. 1 and a half months of no worries and pure indulgence in slacking~~ shiok manz..
kkz later going to vivocity with parents then going back camp tonight.. stupid watermanship.. get it over and done with man~~~
dEminG lAg? whaTs that?
My mind's unweaving/ 12:48 PM
Monday, October 16, 2006
and so another weekend ends.. really fast sia... probably coz the company 'o' grp all went drinking at a pub just 2 pubs away from the pub my AOAC mates frequent at boat quay.. loLx.. they whack like 5+/- bottles of chivas sia.. at first pretty boring.. after a while start to play all the drinking games.. hahaz.. i also first time almost didnt make it home alone...
was playing games with tom and kept losing.. loLx... drank like siao sia... until the pub closed i was really giddy and all already... tom puked first at the back alley and as i waited for him to get in the pub already vacanted and the guys all left le.. hahaz.. no one was sober except oc, csm and keng yang(ciaoz early lorz)
on my way back on NR6 i was about to puke so i got off near peace centre there and puked like crazy... well.. better on vegetation than on the bus lorz.. >.< was feeling terrible and thought i had to sleep out on the street.. but luckily before i lost unconciousness i saw the next NR6 come by so i struggled to get myself on... then i knocked out all the way again...
then just before my stop.. at the EXACT same place... a bump woke me up 1 bus stop before i had to alight.. the amazing thing is that no matter how gone i was (esp so this time) i always wake up that spot b4 i alight... by the time i got back was already 0530.. loLX.. barely slept well with a plastic bag on the standby.. but luckily didnt puke siaz~~
and so my sat was spent at home and repeated trips to pungol helping my elder bro move into his new home.. was thinking of going out... but coz no one was keen on meeting up so i decided to go hougang mall at night.. was very hazy this weekend too manz... lousy indons... = yesterday i finally fully recovered from my hangover and occasional dizzy spells and went on my usual routine of anime and games.. alot of new anime up and running... some were especially promising.. titles like code geass, tokimeki etc etc... hope they dont kill the potential with rushed productions though... code geass was esp cool coz it was like a combination of xenosaga and gundam seed destiny..
went out for dinner with my mom, bro and sis-in-law... went sim lim and was 'forced' to pick a monitor.. coz my bro move out he left his old cpu for my dad to use but the monitor was spoilt.. so the decision to get one to replace my and shift my old montior over was made.. with no choice i settled for the cheapest and average monitor.. bought a LG flatron 17" LCD monitor for $290 in the end.. loLx.. my mom even conveniently added the monitor to the tab for my xmas and next year bdae present? hahaz.. its not like i even wanted to buy a monitor! duhZ..
why ppl always want it to be bigger and bigger.. now my eyes need to work harder!!
went on to bugis for shopping and eating.. ate out at kyoto sabo.. this jap restaurant i passed by with the sotongs b4.. the deserts looked really nice so we gave it a shot.. prices were pretty ok with nice deco inside.. the food was pretty unique as compared to usual jap bento we eat all the time.. the deserts was pretty ok.. had a taste of dango, macha ice cream, red bean paste and all.. haha.. everytime watch on anime first time try siaz...
hahAz... anD its not wasAbi woR!! muSt try!!
and so today was purely dedicated to gaming.. coz.. the haze right outside my window is terrible!! so dont wanna go out manz.. irritating to my throat and all... was all over the unhealthy range the whole of today.. so played WoW... reinstalled WC3 and playing... COS actually gave me a call abt the MSD check today.. but since im on leave i couldnt care less... just gave him some instructions like 'ok dont be too worried.. just check etc etc...'
soon.. 3 more weeks... 20 more days and im out of this... its really this sickening esp during this period when you get all the work and others keep enjoying themselves.. hearing ppl from my batch having off/leave all the way since last week.. and myself still slogging in camp or just wasting time away... just cant wait for this to end... really want to take pictures as memoirs for my time in the army.. but cant even bring a camera in.. so what for sia... L.I.V.E... when we ORD it also ends... so much for positive army experience....
dEminG 19 dayS to oRD!!
My mind's unweaving/ 6:28 PM
Saturday, October 07, 2006
as i woke up to a hazy morning and WoW.. i was thinking abt the movie which i would catch later.. hoping it'll be a good movie.. but after watching it i guess its too centralised on the 2 men in the show that it didnt deliver what viewers wish to see.. there some moments that hit me with the kinda intensity and all...
1. the sounds of explosions, cracking noises as they were evacuating the personnel was already foretelling of the collapse.. yet they still went in and prepare all the stuff to rescue people.. moreover the main characters were policeman.. not firemen.. which came as a surprise to me...
2. the actual collapse when stuff came falling... the ashes and all.. thats the best cinematic moment in the cinema that struck me... the sheer shock and fear if i was one inside that building...
3. the posters of missing people that they pasted on the walls of the hospital... and the mention of the number of people who died that day during the credits rolling... sometimes i feel people see numbers as just numbers... but that few thousands of people.. if even one of them was your loved one... how would you feel?
well generally the movie wasnt too fantastic.. it just served more like a spark to reinstate the feelings of what happened that day 5 years ago... it struck me coz i recalled a few things abt what i thought happened that day... and its more close to heart.. as we werent ard during vietnam war... WW2.. so those movies didnt matter that much as this that we lived to see...
alrighty.. going to be DO tml so going off to sleep le... too bad didnt have the time to buy my bicycle this week.. guess it'll have to wait till next week... maybe i'll drop by vivocity as well!!
dEminG remember those who died... and live on... not translate tragedies.. for tragedies...
My mind's unweaving/ 11:34 PM
Friday, October 06, 2006
phew... yet another week has passed!! hahaz.. 1 more month exactly to ORD.. 5 nov... just a day i end my service and get my pink ic mahz.. nothing much really... =\ after writing my last post i sort out my thoughts and decided to take them steps by steps... for now i'll ram up my knowledge so that prep for uni and maybe prep as a tutor at the same time.. guess i'll quit WoW once my bro moves to his new house as i wont have the game at home anyways le.. so i wont fall for temptation to play..
in terms of enjoyment.. first i'll get my bicycle first.. in fact just went with alvin and xiong last night to look for good bikes in the neighbourhood... as for my driving license i'll get it only when someone pressures me to get it.. be it my parents or frenz... that can wait~~ then theres the dance class.. that one also guess its on my priority list.. number 2 after my bicycle.. then all other leisure items will just have to wait till i strike it rich ba.. =D
funny.. its ironic that last time i study till stress.. now i study to relive stress.. loLx.. interesting... then the only issue that's a prob to me.. is to look for khakis... 1.jogging khaki 2.swimming khakis 3.canoeing khakis... lolx.. if not i alone sure will end up staying home to get fat.. >.<
well with decisions made all that burden is gone le.. cooL siaz... but also must thank my friends who i talked to abt my worries... love you all millions!! now enlisting fitness khakis!! hahaz... must meet up to set down our trg program!! or else i sure tcmi one~~ >.< anyways im going off to meet my parents at amk for dinner then going to bishan park.. its mooncake festival afterall~~ though not as eager when i was young to light up lanterns and eat mooncakes, still pretty interesting~~ maybe i'll ask my frenz out for supper too ba~~ =D
dEminG hapPy lunaR feStival!!
My mind's unweaving/ 5:40 PM
Sunday, October 01, 2006
thinking back.. it all started with the early matriculation letter from nus... its nothing malicious at all.. but it started a chain reaction in me that is on the verge of driving me crazy... when i received the letter.. it struck me that its the time to start making major decisions in my life... with time.. i could either plan it to value add to my life.. or end up throwing away the opportunity of life...
1. money... i hate to admit it.. but without money.. i cannot sustain my life.. my lifestyle.. my happiness to a certain extent.. at first i thought of working at starhub (if possible) under may's suggestion... then as i talked to teachers and frenz.. many told me abt tuition being the best choice... then came my worries.. was i good enough to tutor? can i really make a difference in my students if i did? would i really have time to spare between tuitions? would i have to look for tuition centre and pay them commission for my students? should i tutor my relatives?
2. knowledge.. hahaz.. sounds abit like those RPG where gotta up my knowledge.. but well i really feel the need to pump up my intellect being that i havent use my brain much this 2 years... also i wanna be more prepared for uni... i am sick of knowing frenz who get straight A's and all... but why not me??? i really wanna put in effort to do well for my degree.. it really is my ultimate aim after all...
3. fitness... i always knew this deep down.. that i was a team leader/player.. but without a team or peers.. i am nothing... i cant discipline myself to run... cant discipline myself to train... thats why i keep bringing up trainings to my frenz.. hoping someone can motivate me to find that fire in me again to maintain a healthy lifestyle and self esteem...
4. enjoyment... with already so many things on my mind.. there are also moments i wish to relive again.. the achievement... one of it is to race my canoe against the wind.. that one race i still remember till today with my buddy cliburn.. can i reach that standard again? to dance.. to feel the beat.. to be one with music.. to dance a dance worthy of praise... to go out with frenz.. to see their smiles...
5. expectations.. then thats expectations... should i still pursue a driving license? will it cost me alot? can i still sustain on my own with my own job so my parents can enjoy life?
6. material gains... a bicycle.. my heart still longs for one... to ride against the wind again... to have a computer good enough to play games... will i ever be able to afford? or is the benefits shadowed by the costs?
so much to think.. so much worries.. i really have been avoiding this topics these 4 days.. i actually intended to plan and think about them... but i was afraid.. i was worried and fearful of making decisions.. i keep telling myself that maybe after ORD then its a better decision.. but i just keep running away.. how i prayed and hope someone will pat me on the back and say "don't force yourself.. just be yourself..." but the stubborn side of me just refuses to see the light and continue to delve in worry and despair....
ugh!! i just cant seem to see an end to this... theres no one i can confide in... even i feel its a crazy phenomenon to think like that... almost like a freak.. but its uncontrollable and driving me crazy.. the very thought of wasting this time till i enter the uni in may/june scares me so much i just dont know what to do.....
i just dont know what i should do now....
dEminG LifE... whaT can i makE out of iT?
My mind's unweaving/ 6:19 PM
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