Daryl L.D.M

Sunday, February 13, 2005

thEse few dayS have been really diff days for me in every single way... so much so that i cant even recognise these days as times well spent or wasted... visiting.. praying... playing... outings... dinners... gambling... first time i actually gambled seriously... sua ku ba... but 2005 i already gambled quite a few times... personally i dont like to gamble... when i lose.. i feel bitter.. like who doesn't.. but when i win abit.. i sympathise those that lose alot... this small pleasure at the expense of someone else... esp when gambling with relatives or close frenz.. it just doesnt feel right to me lar huh?

well i bought myself a Xbox game and completed it today... taking buses and all.. it feels so normal yet so abnormal.. its good that i am able to adapt well to both a military and civilian life.. but sometimes it scares me when i really look at it.. its 2 completely diff lives that interchange so intimately i cant really draw a line... but army life sure changed perspective alot.. other than vulgarities and all.. army makes me appreciate life in a more intricate manner... though i dislike being boring and dull... even without talking much i feel satisfied spending time with my frenz and acquaintances.. and then there are the people i think of but dont have an excuse to actually meet... why excuses? becoz reason has been lost to the hectic lives of other people now?

well i dont really make a point here.. just passing thoughts from me... might not mean much but really gotta thank the people that i have the chance to see or talk to.. my relatives... classmates... juniors... schoolmates... its a feeling not of dejection or isolation.. but something i cant put into words... eitherways... its past bed time.. hahaz.. gotta sleep.. was hoping to get good sleep.. but tml have to go for prayers... and still have to fix up my SBO... why does all book in days end up lidat.. haiz...

dEminG
is there A rhyThm to iT??

My mind's unweaving/ 12:56 AM

Wednesday, February 09, 2005

oh manz... feels great to blog regularly.. loLx.. today woke up to a lazy morning.. slept more and more... manz i love my bed.. later went to my bro's babysister's place... she very nice to us... but then she speak teochew i think.. (my dialects are terribly bad..)now the kids i used to know now are adults le... university and all... feels so adult eh? >.<

went to the temple at toa payoh... brings back memories... scouting... my frenz staying in toa payoh and all... made prayers for my family and frenz to stay happy.. only remembered to pray for my success in army at the last moment.. =p went on to gramps place in the early evening.. my dad got a little lost at orchard there.. and end up going a round ard RELC and Shangri La... memories again... the same route i took for prom... hahaz... sure is nice to think back~~ how i cherish those times together...

gramps place didnt collect ang bao.. coz 1 year since my grand pa passed away.. but had good food and played black jack.. i overall lost 2 dollars.. sobZ... first time i play blackjack and nv get blackjack at all... damnz... then recall last time at chalet play with kz, jon and pok.. was damn fun... doubling.. tripling.. loLx.. my family didnt play with 1 card up so wasnt that intense... come to think of it.. do i owe anyone money from that game back at the chalet?? hMMz...

now back home chatting.. hahaz.. feels great to hear from my frenz... both the guys also in the army... the SRJCians... the canoeists.. i dont get the fortune to communicate with them when im in camp.. coz they are tied up with life themselves.. so i really appreciate having so many chat boxes and just learning how they are and sharing my experiences with them... but nothing beats meeting up yepz.. kinda last min but i tried to get some guys over tml to my place coz my house opening up... dunnoe how many coming up to now either... but well... 4 more days to book in day~~ really wanna make the best of it!!

dEminG
youR woRds and chEerfulNess brings joY back to my haRdened heaRt~~

My mind's unweaving/ 11:53 PM

Tuesday, February 08, 2005

hey hey!! how you guys been?? hahaz.. dont know if anyone still comes here.. but anyways... i'm back.. this is my 3rd book out.. last 2 book outs were pretty packed so couldnt find time to blog... actually intended to write out my diary every night.. but NS isnt as carefree as rumoured.. time is always running out.. or better known as ns always "rush to wait... wait to rush..." so time management... isnt really well done i gotta say.. =p

oh... i'm in J company.. J for Jaguar.. sometimes called "Shag-Guar" by my section mates.. loLx.. at first we had this Platoon sergeant that was kinda erh.. i dunnoe how to say lar.. not that i hate him.. but i dislike his style.. lucky he ORD soon.. loLx.. my platoon has 3 sergeants at the moment... 2 of them are really funny and mix well with us... the 3rd one is a regular.. kinda strict and weird at times.. but his experience can be seen at times too... our 2LT always has this handsome cute smile gals might like huhz.. but when he gets angry.. hahaz..still die.. =p

my section i gotta say is one of the best section in my platoon.. loLx.. but i guess everyone else thinks the same too.. my section mates are really whacky and fun... we kicked off pretty well from the start.. laming.. singing songs.. chionging... marching and much much more... my buddy's a nice guy.. got gF ar.. loLx.. so every night i give him time to talk to gf lar.. while i lie at my bed looking at my HP with 0 messages received.. loLx... yong shen is also in my section... eat.. play.. sing song... talk cock.. section 4 rulEs!!

nS as a whole hasnt really been what i anticipated.. honestly its more welfare than i thought.. maybe coz of the rumour of 1 white horse in my company and the neighbouring company of 5 white horses (white horses = sons of VIPs) but well... as far as i know only platoon 1 in my company falls in under the shade while 2-4 melt in the sun.. hmmZ... >.< so far i really love my new wife!! 195!! loLx.. my M16.. during field camp i hug it to sleep and tie losta knots ard myself with it.. loLx.. whenever i book out i feel weird without her.. loLx.. i'm made the pULl up I.C coz i did 25 pull ups.. im in charge of cleaning stairs too... the only ones that do perfect area cleanings.. so i dont get pumped.. hEhz.. (coz easier too)

talking abt field camp... it was much less scary than ppl always say... our batch was the first to get a technical break to bathe during the 1 week camp!! we didnt suffer any rain so few mosquitos.. punishments were few... combat rations were not that bad... but still i learnt losta cooL stuff abt movements and how to engage the enemy.. swEeEt~~~ built bashaas and slept with my buddy... got to know him better... both of us are pretty ok guys.. so didnt had conflicts or tantrums.. not sure abt the rest.. hEhz.. his family all doctors one leiz.. still say not rich.. soBz.. hahaz...

but at this point i come to realise taht NS wouldnt be what i want as a career.. fitness is what i like to pursue.. but NS is more than what i used to think naively.. its not just physical fitness.. but combat fitness too... i guess i dont really perform in that area... shootings.. grenades.. guess i'll just have to think of something else... but that doesnt mean i give up yeah? hahaz... im alraedy half way thru BMT... beginning 5 out of 9 weeks le.. soon its passing out parade already... and then whether i make it to SISPEC or OCS.. just hope my last year and 11 months will be just as enjoyable as BMT... i think i'm gonna miss my BMT frenz alot after this.. hope to keep in contact with them on and on~~!!

dEminG
no piCs yEpz.. military cannot anyhow take piCS.. lOlx.. after BMT then show you all my field camp piCs.. till thEn... do keep in contact yePz.. feel very left out abt what happens in the world out there.. =] byEz!

My mind's unweaving/ 11:09 PM