Sunday, October 31, 2004
today went early in the morning to serangoon gardens... coz it was quite some time since i last went there from home i wasn't sure how to get there.. so i took 80 to school then took 136.. cant really remember how i went there last time.. think is take 156 to yio chu kang then change to some bus i forgot.. anyways i went there settled down.. was pretty cold but the coffee bean there had a distinct smell of coffee beans that really perked me up... settled down for some blueberry tea.. this time i wanna infuse it properly!!
anyways angela came abit late.. went abt teaching her how to tackle application qns... went to go thru the paper extrinsically first.. then applying the skills and teaching her the basics... more or less improved coz of a single yet thing she missed out.. a THESIS.. loLx.. also taught her some extra tips to score for application.. thing abt me.. i can teach ppl well.. but sometimes my grades dont reflect.. haiz.. =\ studied with her all the way till 5pm.. talked abt losta stuff.. loLx.. even tested her on recalling all the names of the 1S10 guys.. =X she also tested me on general knowledge.. like when the atomic bomb was.. when the wars was.. hehez.. actually my memory not bad leiz.. hEHez
continued on with to the coffee bean at hougang point.. was a stark constrast in environment and cleanliness manz... the radio was clearer at gardens and i was greeted by the aroma of coffee.. all that heralds me at hP is the arcade and houseflies.. bLeahz... as usual i went abt writing my comment and complaining about the houseflies there... that makes it the 4th suggestion form i placed with the same complaint in 4 days.. hEHez.. but we evacuated shortly coz ys and dong seemed afraid of the 'dino' fella.... i didn't protest coz i saw that mandy marcus and their frenz were congregated for a large discussion again.. so i figured this place wouldnt be the best place to study anymore...
went over to mac where they told me of dino's failed attempt to woo a gal who wasnt really pretty in the first place.. of how he bought 2 mac meals waiting for her... end up she scared and her frenz went to confront him.. then he disappeared after that.. feel sad for him... but in the first place the way he tried to woo her was weird le.. abit possessive that kinda.. haiz.. *shRugS* later ys dh eve and rs spilled the beans on the guy everyone loves to hate.. hx.. it finally came to my realisation that no matter how i advise and help him to change.. he will nv change.. to the extent of dragging innocent guys into the issue by spreading rumours of 'backstabbing'.. in the first place.. how come he always knows whos the one backstabbing who??? like he's god?? but once and for all im convinced he's the mastermind of it all.. hate to say this... but i hate this kinda ppL.. i just pray that he isnt what we deduced he is.. haiz..
oh yah.. i finally decided what to buy.. the aiwa one... the sony one i couldnt find ard the area... and it was more expensive too... but coz i was looking for sound quality in the first place.. i chose not to deviate and chose it... thing abt the world today.. there's always a better product.. more chio.. more style... but since i already set my mind on what i need to find in the first place... is better to avoid others once you set your mind.. coz you'll get more and more disillusioned... and today thankz to dong.. who offered to use atm card.. i bought it le!! yEah!!! was really happy when we finally bought.. of coz i gotta return dong the money.. but now i'm testing out.. oh manz.. ever since i went to my frenz place b4 when she played her radio.. the bass rocking the room really made me feel like getting one for my own room.. hEHeZ.. now i got one that i can also bring out for parties... might be heavy.. but i dont think it'll be a prob from me eh?? hahaz.. besides it'll deter others from taking it ard too.. so its all minE~~ muhAhAHahaz~~ >.<
p.S: oh yeah... thankz for giving me your views dude... long time no body tag le.. heHEz.. maybe you're a little dissapointed.. but i rather not compare le ba.. i learnt in life that if you compare everything you have or do.. you'll only become more unhappy.. so make the fullest of what you already have!! avouR!!
dEminG
wanteD shaRe wiTh you guYs my dEciSion on liFe ambiTIon.. buT ppL complAin bloG lonG ar.. so neXt timE bA!! hEhEz.. takE carE!
My mind's unweaving/ 10:34 PM
Saturday, October 30, 2004
hey hey.. i buying myself a radio.. after 3 days of looking ard.. i finally decided between 2... think you guys help me decide ba.. hEHez... kkz.. i wanna get a radio for the super bass function.. super zai one.. sound quality is what matters to me... so can bring for chalets and use it in my own room as well.. so here's the final two!!
Aiwa CSD-XD55
Specifications:
140W P.M.P.O with Surround Sound
Features
* 140W P.M.P.O
* CD-R/RW Playback
* CD Synchronized Dubbing
* Bass Reflex Speaker System
* Super Bass
* FM/AM Digital Synthesizer Tuner
* Preset (FM20/AM10)
* Full Auto Shut-Off Cassette
* Backlit LCD Display
* 10 key Remote Commander
* 552 × 271 × 318mm (w × h × d)
* 5.4kg (with batteries)
Sony ZS-X1
S2 Sporty Design CD Corder
Specifications
• Radical S2 Sports™ Design includes innovative features such as easy-to-carry handle spanning the stereo speakers, and has function controls clustered for ready access while listening
• CD Player play your favorite CD, CD-R or CD/RW discs on this compact disc player
• Digital AM/FM Stereo Tuner provides the most accurate, drift-free tuning of AM and FM radio stations and lets you choose from the wide variety of radio talk shows and music programs, with the added enjoyment of stereo sound
• CD-R/RW Playback Capability plays all compact discs including CD-R recordable and CD/RW rewritable, plays all compact discs including your own compilations from CD recorder deck or your own PC
• ESP™ Shock Protection uses advanced technology to provide skip-free playback in more active uses
• Water Resistant with high-impact plastic housing is designed for outdoor fun, with rubber gaskets, bushings and waterproof seals that help keep out water, moisture and dirt
• Mega Bass® (On/Off) Sound System produces rich, deep, bass tones for more powerful overall sound
• 30 Station Memory Presets uses electronic settings for easy one-button tuning of your choice of 10AM and 20 FM radio stations
• Digital Filter: 8X Oversampling
• Digital to Analog Conversion: 1 Bit
• CD Frequency Response: 20-20000Hz, +1,-2dB
• Power output: 2.3W + 2.3W
• Tuner Frequency Range: AM: 530-1710kHz, FM: 87.6-108MHz
• Preset: (20FM/10AM)
• Antenna System: AM: Built-in Ferrite Bar Antenna, FM: Telescopic Antenna
• Display: LCD
• Display Menu: Volume, Function, Mega Bass, Total Play Time, Radio Band, Track Number, Playing Time
• Mega Bass: 2 Position
• Speakers: 4" (10cm) x 2
• Inputs: DC In
• Outputs: Headphone (stereo mini jack)
• Power Requirements: "D" x 6 Batteries (optional) , AC 120V 60Hz
• Color: White
• Dimensions(WxHxD): 16-7/8" x 6-3/4" x 11-1/4" (430 x 172 x 288mm)
• Weight: 8 lbs 8-2/3 oz (3.5kg) w/batteries
• Supplied Accessories: AC Power Adaptor
kkz.. the prob is the aiwa one meets my basic req... surround sound and super bass.. but then the sony one has anti-skip... which i almost forgot is actually quite important for music... esp on the move! somemore it is shock protection and all.. so make me dumbfounded... kz.. in case you also as stuck as me.. the sony one is at $190.. the aiwa is at $160... but i saw another aiwa that looked almost exactly the same but diff model no. at $218... but i cant find at the websites yet.. so ppL.. pls vote!! every vote matterS!! *voting is at the tagboard~~*
dEminG
fiRst i gotTa DeciDe.. then i goTta stINGe... >.<
My mind's unweaving/ 11:08 PM
no.1: ALL.. yes i mean ALL the singers in the finals.. dont know how to fix their faces... sounds doesn't it? but trust me.. compare any mtv's with their live 'singing'.. i dont really get the technical terms.. but surely there's always a climatic peak in the song.. i.e chorus... where emphasis is put on meaningful parts of the song... songs like "sugar ray - someday/puddle of mudd - blurry/ trademark - only love" i'm not saying they are perfect but when i tell you these songs the lyrics that strike you are like "somEday~~ in the EYes oF the paSser-by/caN you taKe iT alL awaY??" all those feelings transcribed in those few words that keeps playing in your heart.. THAT is what they lack... sure.. they are good at copying the songs of previous singers.. many fail becoz they missed the essence of the song (thank god some judges still can feel that way too!) the emotions channeled must be strong at parts.. not just evenly placed throughout...
and next.. is something familar to naive/love-less/ugly/desperate ppL... they look.. at LOOKS! arha... just now my cousin was like "oOoO~! so cuTeeE~!~!" erh... to be honest i dont fancy the thought of un-cute ppl saying that with a screech.. it sends all my hair up against gravity... yes.. ppl like christopher have the looks... but the looks we should be looking for is not when they're trying to "stun" some audience with a wink or something.. but rather the expression written over the face when one sings! ok.. sly and oli is okay with those.. but some of the others have a serious prob.. probably coz they only get to sing in front of karoakes.. they cant sing with the correct expression.. e.g the song "jon jovi - always" you cant go "always~~" like you say "i always eat shit...".. you gotta "kek" your face or even eat the microphone like dear jon does... now THAT is LOOKS.. not "eEe!! so cuTe!!!" GIMME A BREAK!
other than that are the more common mistakes... that SOME ppl might notice but close one eye... being a reader of my blog i figured you're wise enough to understand my position... but well.. some BLUR ppl do exists.. so here goes.. 1: they tend to sing too far or too short of the tempo... sometimes you do find them dragging too long that they gotta rush thru the next syllabus.. no kidding! 2: they try to act zai at times.. quote:dick lee to chris => you make me feel like vomitting... aRr~~ dont try to do something to impress.. do something GOOD that you naturally are at k? 3:do relax and pick better songs kaz.. no point doing something to impress ppL.. choose wisely.. songs that KILL.. not songs that make you sound constipated...
ok... as of every argument there has to be a counter-argument.. though i dont fully agree with the 5 that still survive now.. p.S:i thought jeassea rox! she fulfilled all that i see in a singer... i've gotta say they're improving.. and very brave to face the crowds and sing.. that i applaud them.. for one.. i dont sing.. coz i know i cant sing... becoz always i wish not to destroy the beauty of music.. but i listen.. and i can discern a good song from a bad.. no matter the genre.. but on the feelings it transmitts to me.. i just wish whoever wins this com will live up to her expectations and does music justice by letting the feelings show~~ oh.. did i say her? hahaz.. and it aint leandra.. she got nice voice.. like christina aguilera.. but she is sooooo boring when she sings.. NO FEELINGS!! hahaz.. daren's gonna kiLL mE.. hEhez... guess next leandra's going down!! muHhaHAhaaz
dEminG
oh yEah... i decided on aiwa cd radio player.. 210 dollars.. hEhz.. my own gift... i receive very few gifts.. so i buy myself some.. got prob with that? =]
My mind's unweaving/ 10:24 PM
Thursday, October 28, 2004
damnit.. chem pract is pretty much a breeze except the last whole qns.. didn't really know what to do.. coz i couldnt detect the gas evoloved on heating.. fiak... did all the gas tests available and no results~~ frustrated i skipped and went along... felt really tempted to write under observations: "the gas evolved may be BULLCRAP.. it produced no positive test with all gases and is highly possible to be a gas from mars" overall ok lar... double titration really came out and the chem kinetics was a push over... =/
went swimming with ys and donghai after lunch again.. met wailing at hougang bus interchange.. then saw evelyn and fumei coming.. loLx.. its called karma ya.. she attitude us.. we attitude her.. hahAz.. board same bus but didnt even say a word of bye when we alighted.. didnt even turn to look! hmph! >.< anyways we swam at middle pool.. like alot of sec sch gals.. like how ys puts them.. got those lower caste and higher caste ones.. hahaz.. more importantly.. ys improved his free style and i'm beginning to get the hang of my butterfly~! yeAH!! i can finally start fine tuning all my 3 strokes.. then one day i'll beat pok to a race~~ hEheZ.. not in my current state yea.. just rubbing my tummy i felt tempted to sing "cai shen dao~~ lalalalala~~" if you dont know what that means.. think of chinese new year.. =]
and oh yah... dont wear dri fit to study next time.. lOLx.. true to my prediction its monsoon period.. rain rain rain... i wore coz i tend to perspire after my swims.. but when i got to tea leaf to study i was like "chilling".. haiz.. anyways... i'm gonna buy myself a portable radio~~ hEhez.. always wanted one all moi life.. now going ard looking for a good one with X-Bass and reasonable price.. any lobangs tell me wor~!~ thankiew!!
dEminG
bTw: my bloG isn'T lonG.. its coZ the fonT is biG~~ sEriouzly!!
My mind's unweaving/ 9:24 PM
Wednesday, October 27, 2004
actually intended to chiong at tea leaf today.. but haiz.. dunno why had a bad headache so i went home.. my hand was trembling real quick and i was in cold sweat.. thought i came down with a fever... ate quite abit coz the guys said its probably coz i didn't eat a filling lunch... it got alittle better afterwards.. but i end up watching tv all the way to now..
hahaz.. long time nv really become potato couch... watched crime watch today... on channel 5... reminded me of hua xiang... loLx.. cant imagine him in the police force.. one of the crime they highlighted was burglaries of houses at common corridors... i always knew they weren't safe.. there's a total of 513 cases from jan-jun 2004 you know... singapore isn't exactly low crime huh?? one of their tricks hit me though.. coz the burglars did this trick of covering the eyepieces of doors b4 performing the burglary... coz when i lost my first bike... they did this to the houses along my corridor as well... haiz... i really HATE criminals.. the 2nd part of a guy chasing a snatch thief made me envy him.. i really pray to god that they gave me a chance to catch a criminal and beat the living hell out of him... hmm... maybe being a policeman isn't that dull after all...
anyways now watching champion again.. lOLx... gotta reinforce my point that this show is full of b*tching and backstabbing.. hahaz... maybe its in all love dramas lar.. but haiz.. was expecting more swimming... first time heard of a CNB volunteer somemore.. so cooL... oh yeah.. that polar bear coach has nice bod sia... =X but why the only singaporean male actors all so low-profile one.. haiz.. pity that jinxiang lorz.. why that kaixin so slut lorz.. only like jiajun coz of his good looks.. think his personality is close to jinxiang mah!! hmpH~! hate these kinda geRs... but i still love felicia chiN!! hAHahhaAzz
dEminG
oFf to watch tV again!! oh yah.. good luck for your practicals tml!!
My mind's unweaving/ 9:27 PM
Tuesday, October 26, 2004
today went to hP again with yS anD dH.. my new study grp... at first both of them were late so i went mac to have breakfast first.. saw evelyn.. said hi and the only thing she could say was "wah lao! you all coming here???" i hate to say this lar.. but what the fuck! that attitude is beginning to piss me off... ya lar maybe we do talk alot and disturb studies lar... but that kinda attitude really made me angry.. one of those few times i really feel like scolding the living shit out of a gaL... just coz im gentlemanly doesnt mean i will take this kinda crap lying down...
anyways later when they came by i used the excuse that the sec sch kids were really noisy to move to bean... saw peiyun only probably coz its still early in the morning... settled down to study my chem.. did P1 and P2 till 3++ untiL dong's incessant poking finally made me change my mind and go swim.. well it WAS planned we go swimming or run if there's no sun.. but it rained twice today.. in the morning and in the afternoon.. so i pretty much resign to the fate of not swimming... but dong's enthusiasm changed my mind yepz.. sometimes i wonder why they had to wait for my agreement b4 we could move.. loLx.. the moment i said "let's go!" we packed and left in a sec.. loLx.. leadership is my middlename i guess.. hEhz..
although its kinda sad coz there was no sun at all.. it was fun swimming with ys and dong.. hahaz.. ys was learning front crawl from me yupz... teaching him kinda reminds me of my canoeing days.. teaching my juniors the strokes and all.. air time.. elbows up.. hahaz.. i think my swimming might be wrong coz no one taught me how to swim freestyle.. i learn them from looking at ppL swim~~ =] of coz ena, marcosovick and dawn gave me tips too.. hEhez~~ my stamina improved ALITTLE.. then coz dong keep stressing me.. we timed our 50m freestyle.. lOlx.. i clogged a pathetic 38 seconds.. =/ but well its an improvement from the last time i timed myself at 48 seconds.. 10 sec lei.. dont pray play.. hEHez
went back to bean and chiong alittle bit more.. drank some promangranade tea that pok bought.. kinda nice i must say.. hahaz i mentioned this to mandy once b4.. why do we call it "coffee bean" and not "tea leaf" in case you dont know the company is called "coffee bean and tea leaf" loLx.. everyone calls it coffee bean tat if i asked someone to "tea leaf" for a date she probably wont know what im talking abt.. hEHez.. maybe i'll start trying all their teas soon...
dong reminded me to leave early today.. coz it was the "champions" again.. loLx.. i wont deny i watch it coz of the babes in them.. lOlx.. esp felIciA chin!! omG!!! shE is soooooo hot... fiona isn't bad too.. just that her voice and acting sux alittle.. hEhez.. if only felicia smiled more.. manz.. i would haf recorded the show on platinum.. hahaz.. their swimming isn't as much as i hoped.. more of love story.. the swimming aint too fantastic.. hahaz.. but moses lim can swim!! omG.. i thought they'll put a double but he did it!! hAhaz.. coOL manz!! well as with any other singapore love story.. there's the "babes" that everyone loves.. then theres the main characters.. toro and fiona liking each other.. then the jixiang fella who likes fiona too.. but always get pushed aside... based on the show.. she got to like her only after she fell for his looks.. i think it works with the world anyways... gers look for looks first... then they'll try to know the guy better then comes love... well to be honest.. it isnt wrong.. i dont say they're bad or evil or anything.. but its the cold facts.. everyone wants a partner who looks good.. thats why i dont really feel inclined to chase gaLs.. coz i dont look good... i'll rather find a partner who spent much time with me as a fren not becoz of my looks or money... and then love comes one day... =] well i dream.. but it aint wrong to dream either yea? ^__^
just now talking to white chicken abt the canoeing camp for the J1s.. hahaz.. made me rethink of memories of being the camp chief for my scouts ATC back in sec sch.. lOLx.. gotta say though it was tough and a long endeavour.. looking back it was really fun... making them run ard.. taking them for morning pt.. punishing them.. canoeing with them... then there were unforgettable moments with my batch ventures.. benji, beng heng, fabian, amos, zhen hao, muru, sun tian, jeffrey.. hahaz.. the banglas who finally got their moment of glory as camp instructors... really miss the days and all... kinda feel like taking the canoeists for the camp as well.. but i nv been to a sports camp.. so i think i'll rather observe ba.. but if they need a pTi or someone to discipline them to set things straight.. hehz.. maybe its time ppL saw how i train ppL from boys to MEN.. but gaLs ar.. hahaz.. that i dont know.. i tend to be abit soft.. >.< hahahz.. thinking of camps makes me soo excited.. to be honest i wanted to go for my scouts atc again.. but we were taking the camp.. and they needed us to cook again.. cooking for camps are a huge chore and stressful too.. so it kinda turned me off... haiz.. our juniors are getting more soft today.. ys and dong also share common sentiments.. i wonder why they ever want to join uniform grps then.. haiz...
dEming
somEtimes i dO miSs the timEs whEn the DEVIL awaKens... in mE oF coZ.. *evIL lauGh*
My mind's unweaving/ 10:49 PM
Monday, October 25, 2004
phew.. today's physics practical i was really calm as usuaL.. was really excited to get into the lab.. but then when reporting time was over.. rs and shuhui asked me to call evelyn as she wasn't here yet... as i called her hP with no response and called her house and no one seems to pick up.. i unknowingly became more kan jiong myself... loLx.. almost like i was the one who wasnt there yet.. but anyways she just came late lar... kaoz.. wasted my talktime talking to her father... blEAhz..
anyways this time the teacher read out the instructions b4 commencing so i wasn't as kan jiong as compared to bio pract when that teacher talked so softly i barely heard him say "you may begin".. i did the electric circuit first.. saw one dua leng gong battery and i was "whoa~~~" biG biG sIa~~ loLx.. at first i got abit panicky as what pictured in the qns was diff from what was given.. it took me some time to realise the link that i've gotta find the variable V then connect it to find my I.. at first i anyhow connect my 2 DMMs.. then i smelt something burning.. loLX!! i got shocked when i saw smoke coming out.. i quickly disconnect to see the teacher walk past me and look at what im doing.. =p hope i didnt destroy the circuit.. hEhez.. phoebe using it later leiz.. =}
anyways overall the practical was quite a breeze for me.. thankfully yesterday we were discussing logarithms.. coz i dropped a maths my logarithms foundation is kinda weak.. thankz to kL's qns that took me so long to answer and rs' physics notes on logarithms.. the additional qns was a pushover for me.. i finished the paper with about 10min to spare... so i checked thru again b4 going to sleep... "pls put your pen down!" yeAH! its over~!~ 2 down.. 15 more to go!!
the quarantine was excruciatingly tormenting.. once again i realised the absolute stupidity and retardness that grants uniqueness to a SRJC student... not that im biased but the bigger their class no. like 20++ they just cant shut their bloody gapS!! mr bernard tan had to "shh" them like once every 10min for 3 whole hours... they have no shame.. and are either plain retarded.. dumb or just fucked up... i was soooo tempted to shout and them coz i was trying to study.. but others also were trying to study.. just that this group of idiots dont know how to whisper.. much less talk.. they were almost shouting!!! are they that idiotic? haiz.. get a life!! if only you can control your mouth half the way you control your big fat arse.. otherwise you'll be crapping all over the world for all you know... blEahz.. low-class shitters...
anyways later i stayed in school to study.. had a conversation with mrs lim abt the bio pract which i didnt do as well as i hoped... realised i could likely fail the qns on the oxygen production rate.. it was new to her as well coz planning qns were like only 4 marks.. but was a whooping 9 this time.. crapz.. anyways i studied chem while helping kianze study maths... was like the first time he studied rates of change and maclaurin's series.. hahaz... i went for a jog later at 4pm.. and i died after 5 rounds.. i was really worn out.. the last time i jogged was almost half a month ago.. i realised i got really out of breath coz i lost track of my breathing rhythm i used whenever i jog... so my lungs felt tight and all so i had to stop.. haiz.. studying really sux! you dont get to exercise much...
later on i wanted to go back.. but kian wanted to meet pok at bean.. so i accompanied him there coz 112 came first.. went there to see the usuaL gangs of ppl there.. ys and dong were there too.. the hill swordswoman was there too.. but ys wasn't really in the mood to enjoy the presence i guess.. well.. maybe coz i was tired from jogging.. but i felt really shagged and grumpy.. loLx.. yeah.. you know when you're grumpy you'll whine anything and everything?? loLx.. i was kinda bored and sianz coz i didnt go there with the intention to study... felt like talking to my teammates but also nothing to say... fatigue creeping in.. i left soon and waited so bloody long for the 159 that the sun was beginning to set by the time i got to sK...
maybe coz its a continuition of my grumpiness.. but sometimes i feel that ppl do take me for granted... many times in my life i always thought what i meant to others.. a fren? is a common answer.. but what kinda fren?? sometimes i feel that they dont really care for me... *coz im independent?* sometimes i feel that they think im already loved *coz i'm cheerful?* all those thoughts summounted to a frustrating outburst as portrayed in my msn... "IF YOU CANNOT LOVE ME.. THEN HATE ME!!!! DON'T TAKE ME AS JUST ANOTHER MAN IN THIS UGLY WORLD!!" well... i wouldnt really call it PMS... its just my feelings sometimes... but so many ppl regard me as "that fren".. then they dont love me as a fren.. or a companion... yet no one has really hated me b4.. so i feel that my life is pretty much a dull.. but another living thing in this monotonous world.. drifting along the tides of time... what meaning would there be in existance then? would only death bring such feelings across to me?
dEminG
i nEed to reSt in aRms...
My mind's unweaving/ 10:25 PM
Sunday, October 24, 2004
aAarh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! no!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i lefT my hP in thE caB juST now!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! aRRR~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
but yepz.. thankz to joint effort from operatives fabBY, donG haiZ anD honeSt caB dRiver... a resCue opERation waS seCured anD dEminG's HP is reTrieveD!!! joY to thE woRld!!!!
okay.. now back to topic.. loLx.. wah sey leiz.. today is the 8th day i've been to bean consecutively.. thrash my visits of once every two months last time... brr.... kinda broke.. but also becoming quite generous with my spending.. this is bad!! anyways.. today studied at mac first with alvin, dong, kL, yong shEn, rS and my swimminG mentoR~ enA!! hEHez.. *actually i cant remember when i last mentioned her as my mentor.. hEhz ^_^* dunnoe lar.. coz i was sitting with Rs anD enA.. when enA lefT and rs' fren comE.. i think i mistook what yS and rS did and diD somethinG stupID.. loLx.. maybE i think too much... anywayS i donT likE smokERs or ppl who hang out with them..... =
hahaz.. ys missed his "hiLl heroine" shan xia~~ coz he was at mac.. when i first arrived i went bean to check out got seats not.. then saw her with a guy.. loLx.. then went over to ji siao yS... by the time we got there she already left though~~ hEhez.. pooR ys.. but think maybe i think too much again.. but a time-lost fren messaged me today.. abit happy to see her message again.. reminds me of the old days... but haiz.. we're still frenz!!! =]
oh yeah... think i should elaborate what happened 20min ago.. loLx.. i took a cab with dong back coz i got abit irritated waiting for the 159 bus... then was messaging as usuaL.. when i alighted at the bus stop near my house.. i first cleared my fogg-ed specs *coz colD maH* then reached into my pocket... scratch scratch.. why so light and empty ar... MY HP!! gaWd... saw the cab already drove away with dh in it.. so i faster sprint to my block.. took out a coin wanted to call dong to help me take.. but it was a CARD PHONE!! noOO~!! i almost tore my hair out but quickly ran to take the lift up... sprint across my corridor... threw everything down.. then realised one thing.. I DON'T HAF DONG'S NUMBER!!! nooO~!!!!
i couldnt find the class contact list.. so the first no that came across my mind is my bestest buddy fabbY's homE no!! *p.S: faBBy waS my chaiRman oF scouTs in sEc sCh.. so i always caLled hiS houSE regaRding minTUes and aLL* i panickly asked fabby to help me call dh to help me take... i quickly hung up and during that period my mind was racing with what could happen... that dh already alighted from the caB?? did he notice my hP?~?! i called my hP 3 times but no onE repLied.. on the 4th timE.. i callEd and i heard the anGelIC voiCe of donGhai... OMG!!! i COULD KISS HIM!! *ahEm im not homo thouGh*
loLx.. then later dong told me the story... actually by the time fabby called donghai.. he already alighted from the cab.. GAWD!!! but actually dong already noticed my HP pouCh~ so he took it... BUT!! the HP was on the seat!! waH pianGz... so he quickly called my hP.. and then the cab driver picked up!!! oh mAnZ... uncLE you goT dauGther not.. i'Ll bE a gooD huSbanD anD a loVing son-in-Law to you mAnz!! hahaz.. he even drove back and passed the HP back to dong... wah.. i really must extend my heartfelt thanks to this 3 guys... fabby.. dong and the driver... haiz.. its good to know there're honest cab drivers ard like him... i wished i knew his cab no. so i could repay his kindness or at least say thankz... but for now.. i dont have my hp with me.. sobZ.. was happily messaging moi fren... sobZ.. wont be talking to her till tml~~ oh yah hor.. tml physic pract leiz.. jia you wor ge wei!!! see yA tml!!
dEminG
2nd papEr to go... afterwhich.. 15 moRE papeRs to go!!
My mind's unweaving/ 10:49 PM
Saturday, October 23, 2004
grR.. dont know what happen to me today.. so bloody tired.. was having trouble focussing at bean just now... its not that dong or ys was noisy.. it was acceptable levels.. but somehow i getting easily irritated and didnt absorb really well.. tried taking breaks but didn't work out well either... so i decided to leave earlier than usuaL.. even though i tried to help peiyun with her physics i felt i was really brain dead by then.. things i knew i know seemed so alien to me.. haiz.. now its raining the moment i settled back home... wonder if the rest are working hard too...
dEminG
my luO han yu is DeaD... why don'T fisHes haVe ExpresSions likE doGs oR catS? but they also haF feElings.. that i onlY felT when i really looked deeP into thEir eYes... but yEt coz we dont interact much... the fishes and i dont share an cloSE relationShip.... haiz... if only fish could talk...
My mind's unweaving/ 9:49 PM
Friday, October 22, 2004
wah lao eh!! today overslept again... blardie hell.. miss the maths mock paper.. grrr.. then was supposed to meet luke in the morning... really sorry manz... haiz... i also dont know how to contact him other than online.. wanted to pass me some publication.. loLx.. he got me hooked onto philosophy.. so cooL manz...
anyways i stoned ard b4 going to bean to study at 1pm.. was surprisingly crowded.. two whole long tables taken by some kids.. then the other tables taken by 1 person to 4 seats those kinda stuff.. kanz.. then left one long table at the entrance there.. not wanting to wait i settled down to a 6 seater and started doing maths.. loLx.. later some ppl came by and didnt ask... then got some sec sch gals asked if they could share the table so i agreed.. later then gary came over and i offered the table to the gals and went to the outdoor area to study with gary...
thing i dont like abt studying outside.. it isnt the temperature.. its the SMOKERS.. gawd.. in my opinion they're better off smoking shit wrapped in those cigarettes of theirs.. loLx.. at least they'll live longer!! anyways gary and i were irritated by those smokers out there.. had this "four musketeers" of not really unfamilar guys.. hahaz.. one of them was like hitting his packet of cigarettes in this rhythmic pattern.. its almost like he's being musical!! whoa.. gary and i were like easily joining in his musical escaplade~~ with our calculators of coz *click click click* anyways a table right next to us had single guys coming in the to smoke.. till we got pissed and hid the ashtray on the table.. and it worked!! loLx.. no one smoked after that there.. loLx.. nice one brother!!
anyways later someone evacuated so we quickly moved back into the comfort of air conditioned air.. phew.. then we just so happened to be seated next to the AJ gaL that was the highlight ard there recently.. maybe i'm really getting bored.. but i dont see how attractive she is like how guys like pok and ys talk abt her.. loLx.. well its not like i dont appreciate beauty.. but i dont go "heads and shoulders" like they do.. loLx.. but she's really distracted sia.. keep walking in and out of bean.. then cannot focus on her work.. keep looking here and there.. wonder whats in the minds of gaLs like her... flirty mode? play tough to get?? haha.. i dont care.. its just studies now~~ =]
oh yah.. i coincidentally met rs on my way to the toilet.. loLx.. at first we went bean.. but she couldn't stand the heat *she wear black mah* so went mac.. when she left i saw jameson take up his bag from bean and left.. loLx.. like.. where could he go huh?? hahaz.. xin ku rs le.. loLx.. popularity brings problems on its own.. but i think its quite fun too eh?? hEhez.. dont wanna disturb the 2 yeaH?? hEhez.. im neutral peacekEEper~~
later pok mandy and monica came.. daren came later too~~ i went to haf laksa dinner.. chilli padi yepz.. not bad yepz.. eat until shiok.. but cannot drink the gravy.. loLx.. still got a bet to win yeah? dont wanna make wL too complacent.. besides im gonna win~~ hEhez.. hahaz.. just now i went over to moni's table to help her with physics.. saw mandy's tea infuser.. hand itchy so go squeeze quite a few times.. loLX!! later she came back and asked the staff to change hot water.. loLx.. then she told me "don't worry~~ i just now squeeze abit only.. still got taste yepz" loLx.. i was erh... better not tell her.. later she kiLl me.. loLx.. but wait.. what if she reads moi bloG?? hahaz.. but well she still said the tea was nice.. hEhez.. see? its all in the mind.. hEhez.. if i told her i squeezed alot of times she'll think its bland.. hEhez.. soRry mandy~~ maybe tell you next tiMe~~ =p
hahaz.. bean was really fun with the canoeists and ys ard yepz~~ hahaz.. was browsing thru pok's hP.. then mandy suggested having a compeition with all the nicknames pok gives us.. loLx.. from aunty for moniKa.. to minimeanie for me.. loLx.. when was i mean?? *wonDerz* then mandy was asking me losta maths qns that i think she slept thru.. =p no larz.. but it was fun guessing the pronounciation of some stuff.. come test you guys.. try reading this "DULCE DE LECHE" hahaz... try it!! hEhez.. later we went to the arcade to play bishi bashi too.. loLx.. monika super taiko lorz.. then i completed Time Crisis 2 on 1 credit again.. almost died thankz to amanda's "CHEERING" loLx.. then i had a close match with pok on daytona.. loLx.. but in the end he win.. i bashed up my car too much at the begining.. lolx.. hate turbo!!
hahaz.. my dad taped the champions for me.. just now watched it b4 coming to blog.. hEhez.. ys started his own blog coz of "MOTIVATION" huhz.. loLx.. i wonder... hahaz.. guess his hormones are raging again.. cant blame ar? its a sign of a healthy manz... loLx.. and yes amanda.. i like to call it "HELLFFF-FTHY" loLx.. its my way~~ lalala... anyways now talking to kL and co... just now sent rs a bdae message too.. brr she like kL also dont wanna cerebrate.. so boring.. bRr.. anyways back to chatting~~ sEe yAz~~
dEminG
oh mAn.. tRiplE dEcker~~ yuP yuP
My mind's unweaving/ 11:59 PM
Thursday, October 21, 2004
yepz... as you guys know.. i've already taken my first A level paper.. bio practical... kinda touched that so many ppl ask me how it went.. but to be honest, i'll rather tell them if it went well... but it didnt... i dont really understand myself either.. when i first browse thru the paper i was happy.. coz kidney really came out and i just revised my chi square very well... how would i haf known i didn't bring my ruler... got brain dead.... and forgot to write somethings as i brisked thru.... many ppl say its easy.. i dont beg to differ... but i haf to acknowledge this is another practical mistake in my career.. who knows?? it might be the last time i'll ever see a slide again... not just in jc... but not in the likely future...
but the guys in class somehow helped me to forget abt the tragedy.. i was trying to organize the class to discuss abt our class chalet.. now that i think back i wonder why am i so stupid and retarded... is it becoz they dont take me seriously? its so hard to talk to them as a whole.. a far cry from the disciplined teammates in my canoeing team... so is that how life is gonna be outside as well?? people who disregard my pleas to hear me out to get things done? i've been searching the web for the jurong east chalet jj suggested.. but to no avail.... i really wonder if i should be doing that now....
irregardless i spent my day sleeping at home... fatigued from bio pract.. felt really downcast when i was alone... coz i think i already set my path to retake my A lvls next year... i hate life as in how singapore has conformed us thus far... why must we study so hard for everything... that ends up in one paper that requires luck as a factor as well.. all my life i dreamt of living a secluded life... maybe one with the frenz i hold dear and my wife where time didnt pass by our heads everyday as one with labourous torture and fears.... but yet if i choose to digress.. i would be extradited from society.. family and frenz.. thats why i must go on...
i could find little solace in my time at home... i felt compelled to go hougang point to study and chat with my frenz again.. but when i think of what may befall me on the future.. i just wished i could sleep those thoughts away... irregardless i'm just gonna go on with this monotonous routine.. and just see where the wheel of fate spins me to.. besides i'm but a small pawn on the board where only the powerful can manipulate their lives...
looking on less serious matters.. i was surfing the SRJC website and saw pictures of graduation day finally put up... saw quite a few pictures of me inside... in fact 5? hahaz.. can compare with that of the VIP already... nahZ... 3 were for getting best CG and 2 were coz the photography club took snapshots that happened to haf my face in it... as i saw pics of the the team as well as our class together.. it brings a bittersweet feeling - one with joyous memories but another that separates me from the rest of the pack...
dEminG
i kinda like the besT Cg piCture they showEd... the one we took as a claSs.. wonDer if i can geT it..
My mind's unweaving/ 10:36 PM
Wednesday, October 20, 2004
went to school today and felt like a complete stranger... no longer were the familar faces i rejoice in greeting in the mornings anymore... just ugly faces that seem as distant as pluto... i went in to check the arrangement for my bio mock paper tml then sharon came to tap me on the back... finally i felt like i was in SR... its good to hear she passed her GP but they're still a long way to go b4 they get good marks for GP.. i really wondered if i did help them at all after those lessons i had with them...
frankly im dissapointed with the grades the team got... they have extended study breaks yet they still struggle to get at least C's... i cannot imagine if they had not been suspended from training.. how many of them will make it to J2... studies may not directly link their performance to canoeing.. but their lackadasical towards one will inexorably affect the other... i just pray that i did not put my faith in the wrong arms...
was kinda glad to finally see some familar faces in the library and i tucked in with zhen hao and ducky to study my bio.. was really noisy in the library that i lost focus quite a few times... one of the times i noticed this mag on men's fitness that aroused my interested.. after reading some of their exercise tip i cant help but feel inclined to subscribe so that i can understand what gym circuits would be best... hahaz.. after the library closed... my first thoughts were to go somewhere to get the mag.. =p
ys msg-ed me.. so i went over with donghai to hougang point... met him and rs again at mac studying.. was feeling really tired after absorbing so much bio facts.. so i was a little light headed in speech and action.. went to ntuc to do alittle shopping and remembered what i sought to find.. to my dismay they only haf this magazine "men's health" that included more on sex life and food etc etc... not the 'men's fitness' i was looking for.. maybe coz men's health is singapore version whereas men's fitness is actually a U.S mag... anyways i went back mac to continue drawigng my bio diagrams and all... had a short discussion with ys and rs abt the chalet and drew in a new idea.. a chalet at changi instead of the kampung huts i proposed at sentosa.. well... i'm gonna discuss it with my class tml... i cant wait to haf a chalet with my class guys.. hahaz... the one i had with my team was really memorable that i still recall all those watermelons we stuffed down as we played silly games after midnight... hehZ.. hope the response will be good this time yepZ!!
anyways im back home coz i wanna sleep earlier.. frankly im feeling super super tired now.. but im trying to open the slides ys u/l onto the e grps and do a few more sketches b4 i fall asleep... just now as i was walking back... the same stretch of pavement that i drew similar thoughts b4... its becoming a habit that everytime i walk by that street.. thoughts would cloud my mind.. its just any other pavement that was a little dark as the lights were covered by the overhanging tree branches... this time i didnt think of her.. or her... but myself... for a moment i hated myself... i hate myself for becoming what i hate most.. people who takes such things lightly... i always hated men who can get over relationships they had b4... or any loves in their lives so easily like they didnt love her in the first place... but yet as i try to shake off those times that still cling to my heart.. new thoughts come to my mind.. i cant help but shun myself as a shameless man... i know its wrong to cling onto old feelings forever.. but casting them aside makes me feel like i'm doing them an injustice.. 'the feelings' aren't just things... they are something etched forever in me.. i promised myself that i wont ask her until after NS.. yet reality beats in every once in a while that she might be ard by then.. so should i move on?? wouldn't that make me no different from those loose men i hate so much?? or should i just forget... no matter where i look... i can only find more reasons to hate myself.. no solace.... why must fate play such tricks on me??
to be honest.. frenz and soulmates are on the same level.. but yet i'm beginning to feel like im losing what i haf confidence in all this while... maybe thats why i am condemned nv to be able to love someone dear... i think of what i did exactly 2 years ago... something like what im facing now... O lvls... i rmb the shock of my prelims... i remember the promise i made to myself that i echoed this year as well.. but i can tell... that i am not gonna do what i did for my o lvls again... im not going to make it for uni.. back in sec sch.. getting to O lvl wasnt hard.. but in jc.. when i look back.. i wondered if i really deserve A's that i always preached to my frenz abt... i fondly recall those days in my O lvls there.. everyday i went out and studied at macdonald's kovan.. with beng/amos/fabby or benji... everyday i did tys with joy.. i ever recall the day i stayed overnight at edwin's place asking him to tutor me social studies.. if not for him.. i wouldn't haf got my A1 for combined humanities.. when i think back.. i must say what made a 19 pter into a 12 pter for my O's was coz my frenz were there for me.. encouraging me all the way.. but now in Jc.. i dont know why that spirit has diminished... back then i worked hard not for myself.. but for these people who haf walked the path with me... now... i work for myself.. i hesitate to ask people for help.. frenz shun away my requests to study with them.. i cant find the momentum to go on... and now.. i'm 2 weeks away from A lvls..
what can i do now?? all i can tell myself that i was weak.. i always believed that frenz will help me.. its not like my classmates or my beloved team dont help me.. but the spirit to work hard that my old mates spread to me is gone... everyone here works on their own for the best... its no one's fault.. its just mine... how can i expect ppl to help me when they're tied with their own lives.. all i can do now is just do whatever little i can in this 2 weeks and seriously prepare for a live i didnt plan for.. one without the course of university...
dEminG
1st A lVl papeR tmL... pRay foR me my fRenZ!!
My mind's unweaving/ 8:32 PM
Tuesday, October 19, 2004
today got bio mock paper ar... i woke up 3 times.. means i slept 3 times... =] hahaz.. yesterday => 9am.... 9.30am=>1pm... 2pm=>5pm.. woohoO~~ was raining in the afternoon... the weather seeped into my room and induced me to sleep.. not my fault leiz.. heHEz~~ when i woke up i was sooooooooooooo hyper~~ hahaz.. inevitable guilt got the better of me so i packed and left for HP...
meT manDy fartguy moniKA zUckY anD daWnie~~ at bean of coz.. went for lunch b4 going to the toilet.. on my way i saw ys and rs studying along with ena, andrew and nat... coz the table over at bean with the guys were full, i jioed ys and rs to join me for cheesecake.. hEehez... ys really treated me with a tiramisu cake~~ so niCeE~~ =]
bean is actually ok for studying.. except for 2 things.. the stupid arcade next to it.. and this grp of noisy guys.. they make coffee bean into some kinda flirt club.. coz rs was with us... one fat ugly guy worst came over and tried to flirt with rs.. manz.. even weiliang looks better than him lorz.. i dont know if its the fats or his painted hair that gives him that confidence.. coz he's so full of himself and talks so bloody loudly.. hahaz.. guess he doesnt know the existance of something called a mirror.. hEhez.. fat slut~!
but rs also abit too popular sia.. actually nv really study with her ard much... last time at mac got some gi nan ah bengs come ask us if we know her after she left.. then this time at bean.. after ys went for a walk.. his seat next to rs was vacant and i was delved in studying... then first got that zhu ba jie come for a short stinct to make known his ghastly presence.. later andrew came over from mac.. claiming he was lonely there.. loLx.. just seating next to her also exciting ar? hahaz.. its so obvious he's trying to hit on her too huhz.. i cant help but laugh as i was studying while ignoring their approaches.. hahaz.. popularity comes hard huh??
then ar.. got one sr rugby guy.. went over to thi gal sitting a table next to mine and tried to ask for number loudly.. when the gal didnt really respond, coz he was sooooo loud everyone was looking.. that he went on and say he was from SR... DOH!! wTf lor... disgraced us only... ccB... then that fat slut i talked abt just now like using his usual stupid way by talking so loudly to the rugby guy that he wanna know the gal and all.. amused at first i got irritated later.. in the words of yong shen... he wouldn't find a flirt club if the guys LOOKED GOOD... but... haiz.. i really wonder how they get such confidence... like losers collated together brings them a common sense of comradiership? well.. losers together sure beats a single solo loser.. but they're still losers~~ loLx.. like arent they here to study?? f off and study lar dicks...
manz.. recently this blog has been a bitching site for me.. hahaz.. but also quite fun lar... the usual canoeing gang were talking cock and all... and oh yah.. losta guys called me asking me if i got my enlistment letter le... coz i left in the evening i havent check the mail.. but i already knew its just standard BMT for me lar.. haiz.. weilun got into pasir ris commandos sch... jeremy too... lucky guys... haiz.. darren going in in march next year i think.. fabby jj and kaiyi going one day after me.. i'm going in on the 6th jan 2005 with ys at 3.45pm.. alvin and wx also same day.. but diff gathering time i think... hahaz... so i doubt if im gonna see fabby in army le.. =\ then kL and dong got in earlier... december this year.. sad sia.. like 2 weeks after a lvl go in le... lucky i get in in jan.. got dreams to pursue... kkz lar.. didnt study much today... gotta chiong late tonight...
dEminG
dReamS to puRsue afTer A lVl's
1: Advanced Breakdance
2: 6-Packs
3: saY fareweLl to her
campAign traIL foR baTtlE of abS
suppoRters:
dEMinG => moniKa, duCky~~
whiTe chiCken => niL
my teaM so used to callinG me monG that im rEspondinG to it noW!! omG..
My mind's unweaving/ 10:58 PM
Monday, October 18, 2004
wah today went to sch... kana trapped in school.. actually wanted to go collect my watch from Qq then go makan breakfast.. end up mr tan at the gates there.. loLx.. enter le cannot ciaoz.. lucky i brought my tie along so i just joined assembly along with a few others.... thought i sang the school song for the last time.. hahaz.. maybe today will be the last? >.< anyways took the GP mock papers.. was able to apply losta philosophy for the essay... dont know if its done properly lar.. but its a try~~ hEhez.. coz i nv research.. so no content leiz.. blEahz
for P2 i realised the IRRITATINGNESS of weiliang.. cCb.. coz P2 i take time to think.. so i would not just stare at my paper and keep doing like P1.. end up everytime i think.. i see weiliang *dont ask me why the F*** i sat next to him* POKING his nose.. at first i didnt mind it.. but when i got really fed up thinking of the qns i look up.. he's still at it!! wTf!! IRRITATING LORZ... kanz... somemore i think coz we were sitting next to each other.. everytime he pokes his nose this stench will drift towards me... making me f***ing dulan!! arGH!! if i brought a knife i'll just cut his nose... and maybe his nose.... and maybe his face... arH!! just minced that crap up lar.. think he'll look better that way... f***!!! donT piSs me off!! his breath stinked yesterday and today its his nose.. i wonder wtf he breathes and eats manz.. SERIOUSLY!!
blEahz.. anyways P2 was a flock.. coz i was feeling really shagged and just thought of finishing the paper.. so i just scribbled away then fell asleep... one is to get some rest.. the other is to forget abt the smell... uGH!! haiz.. think my P1 should improve content but language deprove abit lar.. didnt chiong my vocab bank this much.. was more occupied reading the european enlightenment.. really interesting stuff i must say.. maybe i'll try philosophy in uni... hehez.. great thinkers.. *daYdReamZ*
anyways i went to kovan to eat with fabby xiong and alvin.. didnt expect to see nat and dunnoe what her name is.. loLx.. ate at yoshinoya.. dunnoe how to say lar.. but felt like its been a long time since i ate there with my classmates.. used to remember we came there often to eat lunch.. taking pics like the infamous 3 testaments of hua xiang.. hahaz.. but duh.. fabby getting boring nowadays... xiong getting cold.. then alvin think lost some of his screws to his tys.. loLx.. but they're still pretty much the same.. i hope~ >.<
anyways i was entrusted by moi fren to pass a gift to some gal.. so i went straight to hp.. meeting the canoeists to study at bean at the same time... did 2 maths papers.. really 3 hours X 2.. kan.. 6 hours.. super sian.. maths sux lorz... some gal came earlier so i passed her the gp notes and the gift as well... hmmz i dont like to meddle in other ppl's affair lar.. but sometimes i can't help but feel that my fren isn't really getting much attention.. and up to now he's like sooooo into her.. haiz.. cant understand him manz.. maybe its something abt her i'll nv understand.. but she tends to be really suspicious.. like too well sought after le.. loLx.. just passing her something a guy i think chasing her chiong and go talk to her sia.. hahaz.. no worries lar.. im not joining this senseless conflicts... i just hope she does settle this things soon yepz.. cant stand my frenz waiting aimlessly.. but also maybe coz they didnt really approach her... so can't blame ba?? seriously is she THAT attractive? question mark... she's just a fren to me.. hahaz.. maybe all frenz look the same in my eyes ba... =]
oh yah.. back to studying.. was studying with moniKA, weiliang*(will only write his name at most once) pok and mandy... the new bean frenz i kinda know came later.. kinda interesting to hear pok gossiping abt the guys who frequent there too.. from the colour coded fellows to some convict looking guy monika was trying to recognise.. hahaz.. but most impt its was HALF PRICE DAY~~ yEAh.. we waited till 6pm and we made a dash for the cakes... that fat slut mentioned above bought one of every flavour lorz.. piG!! then i used the coffee bean card i just bought and bought 2 too.. mocha cheesecake and tripler decker... treat mandy to one too~~ hahaz.. next time i'll treat pok too~~ ^___^ hahaz.. kinda interesting studying with them.. mandy will keep scolding pok whenever he bites his fingers and monika will whack the abovementioned wang ba dang.. i think they should study more often lorz... so they can bite each others fingers and touch each others nose!!! loLx
oh yah.. actually wanted to say this yesterday but forgot.. coz the abovementioned s.o.b kinda challenged me to a 6-pack bet.. you know Abdominal muscles? if you dont get it.. its ABS.. =/ well.. he made a bet with me that after A's he'll get 6-packs b4 i do.. then i'll hafta treat him to sakae sushi buffet.. being a lover of challenges i accepted lar.. but of coz i'm gonna make it vice versa.. hahaz.. but that abovementioned b*tch isn't reliable.. was talking abt using what fat burning cream... lidat it wouldn't be fair right? though i banned him from using.. desperate b*stards like the abovementioned will resort to anything.. hahaz.. later he end up paying more for the cream than my treat.. i'll haf the last laugh!! hAHahahz!!! come on manz.. after A levels... 1000 sit ups a day... that sakae sushi is as good as mine
dEminG
baTtle foR the abS:
supoRters:
dEminG - monikA
loser abovementioned - niL
* plS dElete wheRe aPPlicabLe
My mind's unweaving/ 9:24 PM
Sunday, October 17, 2004
oh yeah... today woke up... lazed abit... then went jogging at 10 lidat i think.. same routine.. jogged to pungol park.. went one round.. did some pull ups... and back i went... honestly i have no idea what the distance is... but i'll figure its about 3km i think.. =p not forgetting the sprint up the stairs after all that... BUT WHY AM I STILL SO FAT!! oMG!!
after that i went back to chill... then went to hougang pooL.. saw pok and mandy leaving le.. pok was like deviously saying 'haha i bringing her home!!'.. loLx.. god bless her manz.. >.< anyways i met weiliang at the pooL.. good to see that i'm not the only fat guy ard.. muhAhahahaz anyways we swam very little.. and talked alot.. while that white chicken was desperately trying to get a tan.. loLx.. how to put it metaphorically? its like "shao ji becoming bai ji" loLx.. if you eat losta chicken rice you'll get what i mean.. =] damn i'm eviL
after that we had lunch and we continued talking abt things like the canoeing camp.. the J1s future... and love life... hahaz... i dunno if i ever mentioned this b4.. but honestly i'm really envious of ppl.. no matter how dumb or naive they are... to actually put this one person above all else.. as the love of their life.. up to now i never ever got close to putting anyone on that platform.. and maybe i wont... as i told ys.. dont talk abt fate.. i hate that fellow.. >.<.. but somehow i met the other wl too.. loLx.. weilun and his sister were stranded by the rain that weiliang just ran to the mrt under... so i helped them over with my handy honkey umbrella.. seriously i dont know why singaporean youth so dread bringing umbrellas~? fashion? looks? haiz.. go ahead and get wet you dumb f**ks.. loLx.. its i who gets the last laugh.. muhAHahahaz
went back and K.O-ed.. kinda miss that feeling of K.O after hard training.. reminiscent of my canoeing training days.. hahaz.. but yepz.. everyone's complaining.. esp pok lar.. that dick.. loLx.. met him at bean in the evening to study... pei yun was there too... pok like quite a busy man.. everyday meet so many ppl.. gals i think.. haha... some guys are just so lucky huh? i just stood up to look at the menu and he had to remind me that "deming.. ni fei le~~" doh! haiz... made me recall the movie goldmember.. hahaz.. if you watched it b4.. remember what fat bastard said?? "its been 10 years since i last saw my little brother~~" loLX!! maybe im just destined to be like my dad... big pot belly.. hahaz
anyways i got back from hP le.. then i saw mab's nick.. come what may.. hmmz.. the first time i heard it was from my old senior gary's bloodchilling singing.. loLx.. fabby remember mr personality? hahaz.. but seriously.. i nv understood what it meant.. anyone care to enlighten me? and speaking of enlightenment... i really gotta thank luke.. manz.. fabby and wx know i've always been pondering abt how to read up on philosophy and all.. coz i always thought they were in books... then luke enlightened me... THE INTERNET.. omG... i can't believe i am soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo bluR!! gaWd.. guess ireally live up to my family's name yea.. hehEz.. really miss my sotong family.. haiz.. but can see them after my A's le.. yeah!!
dEminG
GP moCk papEr tmL... MUST BE SPECIFIC DEMING!!
My mind's unweaving/ 10:37 PM
Saturday, October 16, 2004
wah today really pig sia... slept till 9am... woke up.. sleep again.. woke up at 3pm.. hahaz... shitty... went to compass point to have lunch.. bought my fav takoyaki.. octo balls yea~~ but then abit chao tah today... blEahz... somemore went to eat KFC.. think i gained another KG today.. loLx... but... eat without worries!~!! hAhaaz.. regret later.. >.<
was loaded with quite some notes to do today.. finally did some fruitful studying on my way to my grandma's place.. then lh asked me out for a movie... along with lk too... i asked her to ask the rest along too.. but all of them weren't free... end up she cancelled it while i was on my way there already... blEahz... tmd...
but looking on the bright side of things at least i saved money.. hEhez.. but i just got my allowance from my mom... then hearing i was going out... my aunt gave me a hundred bucks too... think abt her.. she's really nice.. always lend me stuff.. but she does give me 50/100 dollars weekly secretly... though somehow i know it isnt good.. i'm more concerned does she haf any ulterior motives not.. but she's really rich lar.. loLx.. her daugthers at 6 or 8 already got coloured phones.. while i'm still in the blue and black age... 6510.. loLx
one thing i wondered as i talked to kian who was back to poverty... wasnt too long ago when i heard of his windfall.. coz normally on weekends im pretty loaded.. then i spend abit over the week and get poor again... so i amply call it a vicious cycle.. but is it vicious cycle of poverty of affluence?? hmMz.. i wonderz... actually yesterday i was pretty broke.. after i treated my class to drinks at hougang mall and all those discs... quite glad to get money to spend again... hahaz..next time just treat my close frenz lar... class too big also not good.. =~~
demInG
suNday's finally here!! 6 days of faTtening.. and sundays the exercising day~~ hEhez...
My mind's unweaving/ 11:20 PM
Friday, October 15, 2004
phew... today been quite a wild one leiz.. met my senior in school after i was late... i thought he asked me to set the place.. so i said sk.. end up he was in school.. bleahz.. felt quite f***ed up in the morning coz couldnt get a farking cab... somemore the 2 that i almost got to flagged down got taken by someone who came in front of me~!! bIatCH!!! hmph... but looking on the bright side i saved 5 dollars... hEhez.. =]
today's physics paper was pretty easy.. after that went to eat with ys and his rocmoc fellas.. first time saw our class gers eating at the coffeeshop sia.. or maybe first time we noticed them ba.. loLx.. got back... chatted with kL and yvonnE~~ one thing i lamented was why our class gals hardly come online.. hahaz.. had quite a fun time talking crap.. felt really tired so i slept... but dunnnoe why isit coz i woke up abruptly coz of discomfort... but i got a very bad headache after that.. so i had to cancel the jog i wanted to go with pok one.. hahaz... gotta say he's a really nice guy.. thought he would haf bitched at me for backing out last min... hahaz... =]
anyways last week think i set my blog title as one love down.. lolx.. i just realised i got it wrong.. coz my intention was to write down the lyrics from this song EMBRACE -> Gravity... i didnt know why but somehow i got addicted to it... when i listened to it properly.. its lyrics kinda speak of how i feel at times.. the feeling whether someone could hear your heart beat... how this natural yet unknown force of gravity and all.. hahaz.. i just went to leolyrics.com and found out the phrase i mistook for one love down was 'i wont look down' hAHahahaz...
dEminG
moCk papErs?? *snEezE*
My mind's unweaving/ 11:52 PM
Thursday, October 14, 2004
thE fIRSt evER bEst CG oF sRJC!! 2S04!!
oLympiAns oF 2S04.. why i loOK so ugly.. lolx.. must be coz yS next to mE~~ lOLx
thE moRNing sun really got into wx's heAd..
SenTosa lIBeration aRmy reaDy foR lasT soRtiE!!
iRreplaCeablE tEammates in my hEaRT~!
thE top SRJCian~~ anD my craZiest buDdy~~ >.<
dEminG
GraDuation daYs will alWays bE in my hEarT...
My mind's unweaving/ 10:37 PM
went early in the morning to meet fabby at the coffeeshop.. originally i wanted him to help me write the names of our tutors coz the thing i dont like abt myself.. is my handwriting.. honestly sometimes i get jealous of GUYS who have nice handwriting.. sobz.. though my handwriting HAS improved.. hahaz.. its still a far cry... but honestly.. fabby's font is really not nice leiz.. >.< FONT TYPE: FABIANNA.. ^_^ but ar.. tell you ar... next time you want someone to write something.. bring along the pen or marker hor.. tell you first wor.. dont say i nv warn.... O.O
not bad lar today... all in all i went up stage 4 times.. first was for my PULL UPs... quite happy leiz.. they gave a gold medal.. though its just school one... hahaz.. i finally got a medal for physical achievements to add to my family's trophy cupboard.. loLx.. thE pE hoD was likE "KEEP FIT HOR!!" then was the PW achievement.. all the Band 1 ppl got.. can see not many got it leiz.. hEHez... then MR ong machiam cooL sia... "well donE~~" after that was for the overall 3rd science class.. got a hamper from the mr henry goh.. quite charming.. but he talk 'ji tei ji tei one' *one piece one piece* loLx... then last but not least.. was the SURPRISE BEST CG!! wooHOO!! i wanted to cheer lar.. but i taking it mahz... so must stay cooL.. hEhez... if only mr tan also gave recognition to me.. sobZ... why no best CT rep awArd~!?~?!?~!? =~~~
after that was pretty chaotic.. all rushing to keep the class... i gave the gifts i prepared over the last two days.. loLx.. sorry to alvin and donghai who kept trying to guess what "secret" i was up to.. hahaz... wrote some lame comments at the back.. its actually a CD i collated with all the pictures we took as a class.. i captioned every single picture.. was about 150++ i think... phew... was still was the burning period... 20 discs.. machiam my cd burner got smoke come out le!! loLx~~ really put my heart and soul into making and thinking of what to say to them sia... phew... for once our class later took losta grp photos... i tried to take photos with every single person in class.. but some ciaoz too fast.. then some camera shy.. but gotta say we took losta neat pics.. cant wait to collect all of them!!
later we went to the staff room to give the mugs to the tutors.. i was the only one who really did the collecting and all... no volunteers and all... but i really did appreciate kL and co for accompanying me that time... wanted to leave my name there but it'll be stealing all the limelight eh? hEhez.. gotta say today i was split between taking pics with my beloved canoeing team and my class... but somehow i felt inclined to join my class... i took some time to wonder why i did so... and then deep down i remember that my team is already at its peak... i really love them so much i have turned a blind eye to any of their individual shortcomings.. but i felt that i was needed... my responsibility to contribute to my class... coz its my last day as CT rep for 2S04.. but im always captain of SRJC canoeing team 2003/2004... =] for the canoeing guys.. im really really sorry for running about lidat... i'll make it up to you guys one day.. i promise!!!
well... you might be wondering what i was upset abt.. b4 i went out with wx and co. my msn nick was "tired with enthusiasm yet this day isn't as great as i hoped it to be" was the closest description i could feel for the day.. though i was very very happy to win the best CG award.. the class response wasn't as much as i expect.. of coz i dont expect our gals to scream... but when they announced that we won... the pride i had in my class faltered as i woke up to receive the prize on a silent hall... maybe i was deaf... but compared to other classes who had some students winning small prizes.. it wasn't something that made me proud of... the other thing i felt very fed up was... was how this class still takes me for granted after sooooo long... they expect me to do things like outings for them.. if i dont do it... no one does it... even though i made the gifts for them.. its only the close ones that really showed gratitude and thanks expressed from the smiles from their heart.. but the rest made me wonder if the sacrifice i made was worth it... its graduation day for god's sake!! i almost couldnt sleep yesterday contemplating how great a day it'll be... but... my expectations really fell short.... way way.. short.. is that not a reason to be sad???
but yet just now... when i was feeling down and all.. donghai met a really black-faced me online on webcam somemore.. coz i was already dressed up for an outing.. i didn't wanna sleep my day lidat... so i jio-ed the guys along... only wx and alvin responded.. but i didn't care... tats one thing i learned.. that numbers nv matter.. its the quality of the company that matters.. and when its this 3.. hahaz.. its hell out of a quality manz!! hahaz.. we had a whacking time play CS.. i was really kbkp... coz we playing with some gi nans.. then wx also damn hua yi.. loLx.. gotta say all my frustrations were all left out in that 1 hour... really it could not have been a more fitting ending to this eventful day in my life!!
well on one hand.. to put it crudely.. im pretty relieved that i finally washed my hands off matters of the class.. but yet i realised that the class wont matter now.. its the ppl in the class that show me the frenzship and care i always yearned for... and i see a future of common interactions and more great moments to come... a tribute to my frenz in class... fabian, weixiong, alvin, kiat loong, yong shen, jun kok, caleb, hua xiang, donghai.. my closest buddies in class... i really feel inclined to make something for you guys.. hEhez.. maybe after A's ba huh!! hahaz... thankz alot for being there for me all the time... you guys are TERRIFIC!!!
dEminG
thE poweR oF yEs.. thE reApinG of joy!!
My mind's unweaving/ 1:43 AM
Tuesday, October 12, 2004
wah today i couldn't wake up so i told my dad i wasnt going to school le.. loLx.. end up wake up at 10am... liew... coz last night i was staying up to do the things... phew... stayed up till 2am... blEahz.. today went to school to meet kian to do maths with him and also for the graduation day meeting... end up i was late for the meeting and ended by the time i got there... then kian also left and thought i wasn't staying anymore... but i went ahead to the library and did some maths... and just realised its 9205!! gawd.. no wonder so easy... shit.. coz we doing maths 9233 mahz.. but why the teachers give us that huh... damnz
got back at 5pm and pumped some serious weights.. my 5BX yupz.. been doing it like 4 times a week at least.. seriously.. my juniors say i gaining weight le.. sobZ.. bad example... dont care manz.. after A levels.. i shall be the fittest ever in my life!! bRrrr... then can go sentosa play play.. hehEz... tml's grad day le.. keep hearing over the radio abt sec school graduations at hotels all this.. so good.. ours tml is just at the hall.. prize presentation and all... still not sure if we winning best CG.. but i got the plan and have to change seats 3 times.. kaoz.. so ma huan... thing i dont like abt prize ceremonies.. 1: they are damn long... 2:the M.C nv gets my name read properly!! tmD.... tml better not cock up... hahaz... hoPE got ppL chEer sia~~ finally getting something from the sch... 30 bucks for puLl ups.. wonder PW will get how much.. muhAHahahaz...
but ar.. tml i wanna go out with my class leiz... but kl and co. got date le... then wx meeting mr tan... the class gers also no response... didnt go to school today and no one even bring up the idea of going out... haiz... think tml will be small grp.. but if its small enough.. maybe i'll treat them to something... hahaz.. i wish i was really rich you know... then i can afford to treat this class to a big meal... hahaz... but well... i'm poor... and it aint a secret....
well... graduating tml... now i'm pretty excited with the gifts for the teachers and all... today i just messaged my team to bring their pullovers for a group shot... and i once again feel touched to why i love my team the most for... they all replied instantly with enthusiasm and all.... though we dont even meet up that often... im really gonna miss the lunches/breaks at the canteen.. totally whacky and enjoyable~~ hahaz... but well.. on the bright side... after tml i may finally put aside my feelings for good... a fond farewell... but frenz 4eva~~ =]
dEminG
goinG joGginG~~
My mind's unweaving/ 6:32 PM
Monday, October 11, 2004
yEAH!! 2 moRe daYs to grAduatioN!! haiz... still got losta stuff to do.. dunnoe can get it done by it notz... taking a much longer time than expected... anyways today i school was lectures and lectures again.. dunnoe why i never pon.. lolX.. but again i feel kinda disgusted by SRJCians complete lack of concern for our teachers.. maths lecture already 75% ppl pon and was so empty yet the row behind us still make so much noise.. just seeing the expression on mrs tan's face tells it all to me.. i really wonder are these people blind or are they just social rejects?? at least pay attention or keep quiet lar!! wTF!!
anyways today i got a letter for graduation... gonna get some Achievement for Excellence in PW thingy this wed... not really a grand prize since i figured all the band 1 guys got it too... but i think i would be going on stage like 4 times??? loLx.. can compare with weixiong ba?? lolX.. *dayDreaMZ* coz mr teng also told me that i was getting the nafta award for best pull up counts.. heHez.. waited so long for that you know!! >.< then also our class got 3rd overall science class.. not very impressive coz we always pride as the best ya... but yep as kL say.. ppl like him ought to feel guilty for pulling down the average... *iGnoRanCe is bliSs whiStles~~* hahaz... then last but not least i might be taking the BEST CG award!! loLx.. the other time spent one whole idea consolidating our contributions awards etc to the school coz of the nomination.. think i told you guys b4... then recently mr tan keep hinting to me that the whole class must come.. and that i gotta go in front of the class and all.... hahaz... i'll love to know if we really won lar.. but as i said.. should get best CT rep leiz.. sobZ.. haha.. not say the class not good lar... but some of them dont deserve the recognition~~ muhAHahahazZ... i'm a b*stard.. but since i'm such a kind guy i'm giving fabby a chance to go on stage too.. get the 3rd overall science class thing ba.. dont wanna go so many times right?? hEHeZ
oh yah i finally collected the teacher's mug i made le... isn't exactly the way i pictured... but it looks okay ba... then comes the next prob.. how to give to the teachers.. hahaz i may be gam with them when talking crap or asking qns.. but give gifts this kinda thing i dunnoe what to say leiz... hahaz.. then ar.. the salesger machiam zai.. b4 i can negotiate the price she write the receipt hor hor liaoz... tmD.. hahaz.. but she's quite cute though.. hEHez... this wednesday i gonna bring losta stuff to school.. maybe get dong help me take... i wonder.... actually wanna pon tml ar... but then got the rehearsal to attend then somemore got GP summary to show mr tan... hahaz.. wouldn't wanna get the most PON-tual class award too eh?? hEhez... if we do win that.. gotta thank the heavens for the likes for hx and chia hong eh?? hEHez
dEminG
haiZ.. weDnesDay go whEre?? how comE you aLl stiLL so inDiFferenT?? whaT muST i do to tuRn you ON???
My mind's unweaving/ 9:17 PM
Sunday, October 10, 2004
whoa.. to be honest i haven't got much to write abt recently.. coz its more or less the same old routine.. studies.. sleep.. studies.. sleep.. although the latter does take up 80% of the day.. hEhez =] but today its a normal yet eventful... f**ed up yet fun day i gotta say...
hahaz.. it all started as i was moving SOME files ard... just as i was dragging kiat loong's pic ar.. the bloody com hang... damn... he's cursed!! hahaz.. at first i shut down... then on again... but coz my radio was on.. i didn't hear this "beeP~~~~ BeeP~~~ bEep~~~~" sound that was coming from my com.. i was kinda stunned when i realised that the sound came from my CPU!! wah kan... on and off on and off.. still same thing.. no response to keyboard, mouse... windows cannot start up.. the beeping sound just keeping going and going.... almost like it heralded the death angels... MY COM IS DEAD!!
i called my com pro brother to come take a look.. like me he on and off-ed the com but the same thing happened again and again.. its kinda spooky coz i never heard this kinda beeping sound from my com b4... then he said.. IT CRASHED.. gaWd! i was just doing something really important... omG... i was so stunned and crapped... but i wasn't really pissed.. wonder why.. hmmz.. coz i thought maybe a com shop can salvage the hard disk at least... my bro asked me to let it rest first... after half an hour i tried again but the sound came again.... aRGH!! its time for deming to get into action...
together with my honkey handLE screwdriver.. muhAhahz.. i dissected my CPU... frankly i was never thought how to do this kinda stuff.. only my bro showed me alittle when he fixed the graphic card.. so i opened the cpu.. remove and attach some stuff.. and.. WELLA! its on again!! muhAhahahaz i resurrected my com!!! yeAH!!! i was so happy i took all my cds and started burning them... literally~ or was it illiterally.. hmmz... as i worked on what i left off i finally saved the pics i needa use for the mug into a floppy disc and left for hougang mall~~
on my way to the bus stop.. i was looking at the fine weather and saw some birds fly by... as i was thinking... i wondered how birds survive in urban conditions... mynahs and sparrows feeding on our scraps.. its kinda sad.. then i saw this big ant and squated down to take a look... suddenly a huge blanket of shadows passed me... u thought was shedding leaves.. but it actually was a flock of birds! lolx.. just at the moment.. i remembered what i was thinking... you think ar.. birds always chirp... but yet they seem to understand each other so well... humans have so many languages... but we must not forget the small gift all nature has.. is the bond from heart to heart.. that no voice can ever voice out.. =]
i went to the print shop at hougang mall yepz.. the ger there was really ruffled.. or something lidat.. lolx.. eating ban mian.. work table so luan.. just like me.. like pig sty lidat.. loLx.. she tried to open my floppy discs.. and end up hanging 2 times.. loLX.. wTF!! she asked me to get a CD-RW to her tml instead.. haiz.. another trip tml after school ba.. but i did some nice shopping along the shops near hougang mall.. bought myself some cheap stuff and chocolate milk tea~!! hEHez... simple pleasures in life... as i walked to the interchange i saw 27 leaving le.. so i broke into a sprint and dashed to the bus stop about 300m away... i sprinted like a madman as my feet hurt coz i was wearing sandals.. when i got to the bus stop... i still could wait for at least 2min b4 that stupid bus driver drove his a** over.. tmD!! waste my breath!! loLx.. but long time never run for my life lidat le.. hEHez...
got back and had a nice dinner with my family.. i didnt know why but i was unusually talkative.. sometimes i lament why am i so cold towards my dad.. but honestly i think age is coming to him.. he gets unnecessary irritating and "deaf" so talking to him is really a chore... but yet sometimes simple meals like that really can make us sit down and talk abt anything under the sun~~ hehEz.. but ar.. donghai suddenly jio me go buy the webcam.. tempted i quickly ate and went off to meet donghai to go to the place to buy...
i myself was surprised when dong said the shop was 24 hours.. i was like "WTF?? 24 hours com shop??" lolx.. end up it was a petrol kiosk near eunos.. was some ntuc fairprice express that was situated inside the kiosk.. pretty cool i gotta say.. much more things to shop when you're on the move... found it to be originally $36.95 but promotion was at $12.80.. so i snapped 2.. one for kl and one for me.. hehez.. now im home fixing up my webcam and doing silly stuff.. lolx.. but my quality like quite shitty leiz.. compared to donghai's one... haiz.. cheap stuff.. can't expect much i guess.. but at least i can see myself in it!! hahaz.. actually i suspect it isn't the cam prob that the picture sux... maybe... its... ME...
dEminG
sElf dEniAL isn'T my fORte~~ hEHez..
My mind's unweaving/ 10:04 PM
Thursday, October 07, 2004
whoa.. really fast that we graduating on wednesday le... feels like theres still so many things i wanna tell others in school... coz no matter how much we promise to meet up.. i guess after this.. meeting up isnt so easy anymore... other than our a lvl's... i guess i'll never be wearing a school uniform ever again... weird huh... feel so old... though its good that studies are almost done... its kinda sad that you gotta put aside the chance to socialise.. the opportunities to forge frenzships... can't say i made the best of my 2 years with the ppl i know.. but its not like its completely a wasted trip as well...
tml wont be going to school... need to settle some stuff i'm gonna get busy with... hEhez.. anyways we just collected our canoeing pull over... quite cooL.. like those kinda biker kinda suits.. loLx.. just that its in wooL.. can't wait to use it!! hEHez.. gave mr tan his today too.. he seemed really happy and touched.. walked ard school taking pictures of the school... i tried taking from angles that we normally dismiss as normal and nothing special.. after school and gymming with monica.. at about 2pm.. the entire school was so quiet... no one ard except in the library... so i could walk ard take photos of the quiet school that i've grew to love... but well.. nows not really the time huh.... my grades more or less set as D E E C5 and probably a C... really bad... hAIz.. hope i make use of tml properly... niTez!
dEminG
thEre'S no nEed to eXpect gRatiTude.. The saTisfacTion oF saCrifiCing foR othErs is aLL that maKes the eFfort woRth it..
My mind's unweaving/ 10:05 PM
Monday, October 04, 2004
yEpz.. about today ar... coz last night i was waiting for my mom to finish typing her minutes i watched bLade 2.. wondered where i got the strength from considering i even chionged with pok in the evening after our swim-gym exercise to study at coffee bean... i didn't feel sleepy.. but when my mom finished at 1.. i Knocked out the moment i touched the bed.. manz....
when i woke up my whole body was in agony... arGh.. the back muscles were like screaming in pain in its own way... i felt super sleepy too.. coz of all the lactic acid awaiting oxidation ba... hahaz..was like stoning the whole day.. amazingly i didn't fall asleep for any of the 4 god-damned lectures... got back maths and bio p3 today.. maths only got abt 45% i think.. haiz.. then bio is 36.5/65... at first can increase by 1 mark.. very happy.. but then i check properly she gave me 2 1/2 marks that she said is wrong when she went thru.. so... gain = 1 mark.. loss = 2 X 1/2marks.... therefore nett profit = 0.. see the importance of the word "NETT" now?? =] so always remember diffusion is the nett *blAh blAH blAh*
hahaz... but as usual its GP that takes the cake.. hEhEz... today mr tan was going thru the prelim qns papers... felt my gp skill flowing back.. its somewhat like warcraft 3.. sometimes on-form.. sometimes off-form ar.. loLx.. the diff between undesirable and UNDESERVED... sounds easy?? after you think that out... let me ask you.. what defines what is deserving? =] well.. to me.. its all product of the human mind.. the media.. etc etc... as usual i was crapping in GP class... then we reached this interesting topic...
"FINDING A SUITABLE LIFE PARTNER IS HARDER TODAY." DYA?? hahaz... mr tan is good at this manz... 1:he 'whacked' miss tan that she said can talk about dogs etc too... coz she's still a MISS... loLx.. 2:this is true becoz the gers are the picky ones... loLx.. b4 you start whining.. (esp if you're a gal) he successfully muted my class gals when he asked "then gers you tell me why compared to the past its the guy's fault??" loLx.. yeah.. to put it nicely.. its education and all that make gers more expecting sometimes.... so he concluded.. its best that women stay uneducated.. loLx.. those were the days of polygamy huh?? =] if you've gotta say its a comparison to the past.. can say is coz compared to the past.. hourglass shape is becoming a rarity... tat ppl are too stereotyped to say ppl are short and tall.. instead of a smarter way of classifying ppl only as tall and taller.. =] but i gotta agree on mr tan with one thing.. hEhez.. why guys aren't to be blamed for this?? well.. coz through all the ages.. guys will always be the same... they're always playboys.. ^___^ to be more exact... guys are... erh.. hormonally stimulated huh.. =p
hahaz.. as i was blogging tuned in to perfect ten i heard a dedication from sharifah... was wondering if she's from my sch coz she did mention 16th student council.. but i confirmed it when she asked MONICA TO BE PATIENT or something like that.. so ONE DAY AARON WILL NOTICE HER.. loLx.. manz... 100% chop she's from sRjc.. coz the monica she said was no other than our dear viCe captain!! hAhaaz... nv thought she still obsessed with aaron.. haiz... gers nowadays... you see the point now?? if not read the abovementioned paragraph again.. loLx.. but still i gotta say not all gals are lidat yepz.. esp the gal i felt so attached to that i feel that i want to love her... =]but well i guess its over... hahaz.. but mr tan gave me a cold reminder today when he actually said i wasn't bad-looking and that i impressed gals in my school.... say what he like draw a food web on the couples and hotly in demand kinda gals/guys... urgh... *coLd winD bloWs* to be honest i dont care what ppl think i look... the only ger i want to impress is also the same ger i want to love.... will i ever get to say the 3 words to her??
dEminG
i ain'T ugLy.. but i ain'T hanDsomE too... hAHahAz.. so i think its just coZ that im tall huh?? well its reality... gers only like TALLER ppL.. loLx.. but i love bEIng talL.. fEels gooD huh??? =D
My mind's unweaving/ 9:14 PM
we went to play arcade first... i always liked bugis coz its arcade was always up to date but just a little loud.. loLx.. played houSE of the DeaD 3 with Jm anD laysEe.. loLx.. first time play with a geR so pro at gun gamEs.. hahaz.. next time must ask my farmer to clear somE gun gamEs le.. hEhez~~ we played iniTiaL d too.. hahaz.. all of us were amateurs but they caught on pretty quick.. hahaz.. luckily i play with yee kiat i won 3 games.. but lost to com.. hAHaz.. of coz lar.. machiam i only took the nissan skyline without mods.. hEHez.. cooL game.. but alittle ex if you wanna get a card to record your car details.. =/
didnt have a full lunch.. hahaz.. kinda whacky to be with their gang.. hahaz.. really all out to chiong games one... they were on squid head (i rather call them calamari heads.. ^__^) frenzy from old chang kee.. hEHez.. but i got myself TORI Q~~ my fav!! hahaz... so next time wanna treat me meal you know what to buy eh?? cheap cheap one nia.. >.< we went back to play cS too.. hahaz.. terenze was super pro lorz.. take knife also can kill 3 guys.. hahaz... think i 3rd top fragger ba.. loLx.. so much for a frEefraG.. but i likE laysEe's nick.. hahaz.. angelic gunnEr... cooL stuFf... if only i can draw manga well.. i would sketch whatever is in my mind right now.. =]
later we went to parkway parade to meet jane and we left for east coast to jm's father's place.. BBq sEafooD!! wooOhOo.. janE looked really tired though.. so she was pretty stoning.. hahAz.. but she suggested that we go swimming again with the same Pe gRp.. hEHez.. this fRiday.. think the rest dont mind lar.. but its always fabian that not enthu one... vinay, wei lun, jia jun, fabby and me... hahaz.. maybe ask ena too? >.< but she fellow teacher leiz.. teach the other grp one.. =/ gotta say the BBq foOd was nice.. hahaz.. the kai lan oyster sauce was super nice~~ heHez.. gotta say i feel alittle out at first lar.. coz they know each other better than i do... but still i felt pretty warm with these guys.. hEhez... graduation... i really hope those memories nv die...
sunday was a rest day for me.. actually pre-planned to sleep my day away.. loLx.. then pok jio me go to run and swim... but i felt lazy to run.. so i suggested swim then gym... phew... met in the afternoon... ran for a short moment but got sunnier... one thing i'm kinda worried abt.. whenever i swim.. i feel this mounting pressure on my lungs when i do prolonged dives.. my mom did warn me that coz my dad has heart attack b4... its liable i may inherit it too... sometimes i wonder.. what if it strikes as im swimming??
but well.. at least i survived sunday.. hEhez.. but after the swim we went to hougang gym... kinda reminiscent of it.. used to go every sunday with my 1s10 peepz.. angela, vincent and kai jie.. but ever since it became $2.50 coz we're above 18 we've not been meeting regularly le.. maybe i overestimated my physical tolerance.. coz i did my usual weights i last left off since my last trip there.. i managed to carry up the weights but i felt my arms were really strained after the swim... so i only managed to do one big long set of most of the stuff except bench press.. haiz.. too crowded le... was talking with pok abt maybe next time after graduation... that we meet up at gyms at least fortnightly... hahaz.. considered california.. but erh... im not that rich eh... hahaz...
oh yeah.. whats with the topic?? well i was like "oh~~~ oh yEsh.... alMOst thEre... haRder harDer!!!!!!!! oh yEs i fEel iT cominG!!!!! aLmost there!!!!!!!!!!! aHhhhhhhhhh~~~~"
and the water droplet came out from my ear... hEhez.. felt great... =] whaT were you thinkinG?!~?!?
dEminG
enD oF paRt 1
My mind's unweaving/ 7:56 PM
Friday, October 01, 2004
aRgh... today 4 lectures in a row.. wTf.. all thE in LT5.. at least had break after the 1st period lorz.. or i'll just sulk my day away... i aint coming next friday le.. tmd... even if the P and mr tan says so... its really not worth the time lorz... i was attentive for GP, Physics and Chem Lectures but i slept thru the maths lecture... can't remember why... but somehow maths lectures seem so dull nowadays... crappy...
anyways was supposed to study in school today for Maths.. but wtf.. just nice they gonna stop night study scheme today... wth lorz... i got back my physics paper 3.. got 54.5... think its upon 110? haiz... sucky.. but somehow i seem to be getting grades in the best science for physics.. ironically my most unliked topic... haiz.. bio ar bio.. now J1s just started on their promotional exams.. sure hope they really score well... if they really score badly again.. i really nothing to say le... haiz... i helped them with GP but yet i can't shake off the feeling they went in unprepared and with the techniques i thought all gone down the drain... haiz... damn it..
when i got back today.. i dunnoe what hit me.. lolx... i just went to the flight of stairs and walked up carrying my big fat bag... CONTENTS: 3 Bio PRactical Manuals... 1 Maths Lecture notes (binded of all J1 syllabus) and my clear file... NUMBER OF STEPS:20, 18, 18, 18, 18, 18, 18, 18, 18.... total: 164 steps.. lOlx.. think coz is after yesterday's big hunt... carrying a big fat load of pullovers climbing the stairs.. hahaz.. figured i could add it to my 5BX.. hEhez.. so i get the warm up with my legs aching as i set myself upon my weights when i get home.. cooL!! now its a full body workout~~ hEhez.. wanna burn fats?? hit the stairs ppL!!
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hMmz.. if i clImb thE stairs with a BaG eveRyday.. wiLl i geT shoRteR?? o.O
My mind's unweaving/ 7:59 PM
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