today i dragged my arse to sch again as usual.. met marcus in the morn for company to sch as compared to my usual lonesome trip to sch.. didn't complete my tutorials again.. so was ready to get screwed.. but lucky miss cheng no PMS today.. afternoon was a little more fun as we had a GP Common Test was kinda easy.. as i felt the skills finally pulsating through my veins.. moreover it was on sports.. a subject i have learnt silently in JC life as the most enlightening part of my schooling experience better than evelyn's mouth stretching "exercise" for choir eh? ;) but flOWEr elEphant aR machiam beast lidat.. do test next to me.. breathing so LOUD lorz.. like some snoring pig.. then he flip pages ar.. machiam making roti prata.. must flip so hard that everyone can hear him.. thank god i don't sit close to him for exams

today was kinda unpredictable coz it was raining from 3-4pm during our chem pract so i was like "poor ena.. guess her swimming class gonna's be affected" then when my pract ended.. just nice the rain ended.. and as i fabby and JJ walked there.. the sun finally came up as we changed into our suits.. (woohOO!) ena was there with her class and jane joined us later.. did breastrokes today and was surprised to find out i swam breastroke the fastest in my grp! hahaz.. maybe they not trying lar.. but it was kinda fun as ena helped me out with my strokes too.. after that we lamed ard with wL fooling ard as usual.. doing water synchros, diving, SHARKS, catching and all loLx.. unbelievable ar? sounds childish.. but well i find its justifiable to refind our roots again.. coz its innocence in fun is really enjoyable.. thankz for making my day peeps!

then you might be wondering.. why the sudden sadness?? as i and fabby went to hougang mall to meet ben to buy a gift for bEng.. (his bdae tml!) i was still chatting happily.. and followed fabby to get his swimming trunks.. then i got myself more weights for my dumbell.. when i took out my wallet it felt weird.. as i opened i find all my cards all ransacked at wrong places.. i was shocked i searched and to my horror my CASHCARD was gone.. i rechecked my bag.. my HP.. keys... are still intact.. luckily i didn't have any more notes with me.. but that cashcard had 50 dollars just topped up last nite by my dad.. i was totally stunned and angry and in total disbelief.. i'm sorry fabby that i spoiled the fun suddenly.. but the strike is too sudden... today i felt something might go wrong.. and true to my fear.. my wallet was ransacked... but thankz to fabby and benjamin for treating me to meals and chatting.. i managed to liven up abit.. a BIG THANK YOU!

but my mom called me when i asked if she could help me check in case i didn't bring it out.. we ended up in fierce debate and i hung up.. i really HATE theives.. if i ever see them in action.. i will NOT HESITATE to KILL them! they cause hurt not by theft but by hurting ppl.. this year.. i've lost many things close to my heart.. my bikes.... and now my cashcard.. its not becoz its MINE that hurts so much.. but coz these things are what my parents GIVE to me as rewards.. becoz i lose them.. i feel the pain becoz i can feel their pain.. many times i hate myself for allowing these things to happen.. but now i changed.. i picked up the phone and talked to my parents.. abt things in life.. i feel very touched by their words as they feel the same by mine.. its really sad as they feel that their time may well be coming to a close.. tears well in my eyes as i talk and type at the same time.. i really LOVE my parents.. pls let no harm come to them... i can take these pain on my own.. so pls.. let me take the pain.. not them.. pls... god pls watch over them and bring them happiness as you have brought to my life..

thouGht of thE daY: aLways lOVe youR parents.. no matter how many arguments we have.. i always love them....

dEminG
sadnEss.. pAin.. alL i takE upoN glaDly foR my paRents anD my fRenz.. plS don'T let mE sEe them in paiN... plS...

today we had this talk by rear admiral lim.. abt security and foreign affairs and all.. as a REAR ADMIRAL i was thinking he's some big zai talker and leader.. but it turnt out maybe he retired quite long le ba? hahaz.. he presented a 1.45hr slide show.. amazingly he didn't really stop.. even if it was me.. i can't make a speech long enough to fit 1.45hrs! lorz! but gotta admit his tone was really monotonous and boring.. reading off excerpts from political ppl..

throughout the session there was alot of noise from ppl talking and at other times HALF the LT was asleep.. being a student of SRJC looking at this scene was demoralising enough.. and that wasn't the worsT! nearing the end of the session, thE Q&A session had him read another excerpt then the SRJCians made noises of disapproval that really diss-ed me off.. WAT THE FARK are they thinking lorz.. ppl talking then they just openly show their boredom by not paying attention and making noises.. then came the CRUNCH mR phillip tan prepared a super big TEKAN session of all the J2s.. really he said what i really wanted to say too.. that ppl dont look down on SRJC.. they despiese the ATTITUDES of SRJCians! and seeing this.. i can't agree more! this is so pathetic.. makes me feel like we're studying with a bunch of barbaric immature pricks deviod of the most basic form of respecT.. haiz.. maybe they think we dont haf much a reputation to keep so they keep talking like they're some big bItcH of the world.. maybe SRJC should really continue to be degraded by students of such calibre.. totally disgraceful!

today's training was alittle upsetting for me.. coz many J1s did not inform me of their involvement in the COllege spoRts daY and just didn't turn up or informed me 10min b4 the commencement of the training.. worst of all it RAINED so the thing was cancelled after holding up majority of my team for like an hour.. so i had to teach the J1s the power training TWICE coz of those who joined in an hour later.. its like deja vour when they made a huge ruckus in the gym.. i shouted 3 times to ask them to keep the volume low coz it distracts our training.. but they continued to make alot of noise.. of coz i HAD to whack them hard.. but i was considerably soft.. giving them 150 Push Ups +++ ONLY as punishment.. more notably is that many J2s are actually EXTREMELY frustrated with thE J1s while some J2s just got used to it already.. this batch oF J1s have alot of potential.. but discipline wise still lacks alot.. makes me wonder many times.. am i not GOOD enough to discipline them? haiZ...

recently been very busy.. with the mayday outing.. PE nEtwork admin stuFf.. canoEing team admin matters... upcoming mother's day.. and bdaes coming left and right... been really tied up in the mind.. that i actually forgot it was yong shen's birthday today.. i can see he's kinda disappointed coz the class didn't cerebrate.. i feel really guilty and can't really talk to him today.. but when i thought again.. i wasn't the only guy in class.. how abt the other 19 ppl in class?? do they expect me to inform them its someone's bdae everytimE? i've not been doing much work too.. so im really quite tired.. just hope all this tides over soon.. i need time.. i need time to study.. i need time to suceed.. but time just wouldn't give itself to me..

thouGht of thE day:"geRs woulD you join nS?" (all say no...) "do you think NS is a waste of time?" (yes...) "then turn to the guy closest to you.. would you trust him with your life?" (oOo NS iS gReaT!!!!)

*thE tRue colouRs oF thE womEn(oF sRjc)*

dEminG
kiLl thiS disAstifaCtion wiThin.. kiLl iT!!

thinking back ar.. today quite fun leiz.. hAhaz.. learn new stuff and wake up to some stuff.. hahAz.. at least thats something to write abt eh? =] as my social circle expands day by day.. loLx.. im beginning to notice that some gers i know are actually really PRETTY *bluSh bluSH* hAhaz... noT from my class one lar.. *regettablY* maybe its true that gals are like wine.. hEhez.. they become more beautiful with time.. and of coz its not just looks... the SMILE really hits me hard all the time.. =pp maybe i should.. hMmz.. hAiz.. maybe i shouldn't... maybe.. i should......... JUST GO TO THE NEXT TOPIC! >.<

yeah today rather haiRpeE coz as i was at the PE office talking to miss riveria.. lay see and yee kiat happened to be checking their CIP hours for HNF.. curious as i were.. i asked miss riveria to help me check my record.. anD wooHoo!! i hiT 80 HOURS right on the doT!! loLx.. that means full marks for CIP!! haahAz.. alRity thEN!! but my class ppl alot havent reach 80 leiz.. esp floWEr elEphanT siA.. machiam only the children home thingy.. hahAz.. i loVe thE no. 80 loRz.. but maybe top it up abit.. make it look nicer.. otherwise like ENA lidat.. hahaz.. new fren yepz.. she also got 80 hours.. the 2 lucky ppl.. heHez.. talk abt fate huh? >.< (now now don't think too much...)

and yepz gotta thank ena for going with us for the swimming today.. coz frankly speaking i wasn't too confident of the strokes to teach.. then she offered to help me teach teach abit.. so it went QUITE ok lar.. lOlx.. but i was hit unexpectedly.. coz VINAY didn't know how to swim! lOlx.. chAm liaoz.. gotta revamp my plans.. today was mainly fooling ard.. and some basic orientation back to the pool.. hahaz.. the grp was damn lame lar.. esp WEI LUN doing all sorts of stupid stuff with jane breaking 2 goggles.. hAhaz.. guess i didn't make a wrong choice eh? hEhez.. and when i and fabby went back for chem lecture i zhun zhun happened to see the new gal i just took noticed off... you know that kinda cuTe chio typE.. hAhaz.. relac lar.. make frenz nia.. foR noW of coZ.. ^__^

thouGht oF the dAY:"the alternative to falling fertility rate is to promote MASS ORGIES" mR P taN.. =}

dEminG
I loVe swImminG~~~

wah today just realised i havent do my MATHS FILE.. CHEM PRACT & PE NETWORK loLx.. so on my way to sch i was like lamenting whats gonna happen to me.. then i saw a rainbow.. then as i told fabby "guess i won't be raped too badly aR?" loLx.. but as usual i made it past this day.. *yeAH!* but still fear tml.. manZ.. yEpz today ppl see me.. do their usual "DEMING!! whaT hapPEn to youR HAIR?? --__-- likE DUH!! no no.. some lawnmower went over my head again.. hEHez

today whole day hot ar.. then just b4 training.. it RAINED tmD.. maybe the skies see me doing my tutorial b4 that.. thats why touched until it rained ar.. *shRugs* machiam so long nv rain for land training.. kinda pissed coz affected my plans.. but luckily for the J1s (i was abt to vent my anger on them.. muAHahaz) the rain stopped and we went on with the plan.. the J2s had 4 rounds of S-J Circuit loLx.. first time we really do 4 rounds.. then i like nv let them stop.. not too xiong.. coz they really breathless le... next time add to 5 rounds.. muAHahaz.. i today feel quite shiok.. coz i sprinted QUITE fast for me lar.. hEHez.. i love my ASICS TRAINER 9!! woOhOO~! now no BIKE ar.. other than CANOEING i can also SPRINT to enjoy the wind le.. yeAH!

had a long exco meeting on maYday.. hahaz.. my exco beri fun one lorz.. always discuss very long.. talk abt ALOT of stuff lidat.. hahaz.. machiam a small RAMS *winKz aT oDaciAnz* discuss to excrutiating details.. hahaz.. kinda miss last time i dictate then soon soon.. hahaz.. but its a democratic world after all.. but they did surrender part of their power to me yeah? hAhaz.. now reasearching on sentosa landmarks and all.. think last week fabby they all recce drains and cemetries.. now my turn to recce SENTOSA!! loLx.. hey its dangerous lorz... i scared i go to PALAWAN BEACH kana seduced by some Bikini Babes playing BEACH VBALL oh manz.. pls pray for my safe return ya? ;)

thouGHt of thE daY: iF i SurVive wiThouT bEIng sCrewEd todaY.. thEres stiLL tml! wooHoO!!! --__-- *yeAh tml goinG sWimminG!*


bEfoRE


aFter


THe sinGles anD paRt-timE sinGlES oF thE niGht.. caN you Spot who bElonGS in whiCh catEgory? *mighT haf another onE too.. SHROOMS!*

dEminG
i haTe pimplES!!

i know in life.. there are GOOD MEN & EVIL MEN but in reality everyone has a bit of each side in them... One THinG i feel i haf in life is the power of discerning the EYES.. sometimes i have the habit of not looking straight into the eyes of someone when they talk.. becoz i have that ability to see if the person is LYING or not.. its not a 100% thing.. but i can see the difference when tat person lies or not..

everyone lies in their life.. even me.. but i can safely say.. i never make lies that hurt anyone.. but yet many times in life... my frenz lie... i can see them... some of them even have the words "I'm LYING" imprinted thru his/her eyes.. but those lies i saw.. nv hurt me... that i'm thankful for.. yet.. thats the root of my depression.. coz ppl i know lie to other ppl i know.. and lie to the extent of breaking the hurt.. tat makes me feel BROKEN and POWERLESS

and its even more saddening to see that ppl lie.. for the 2 most beautiful things in life i cherish... LOVE and HAPPINESS ppl lie selfishly to gain these things.. many at the expense of others.. i used to believe that everyone has a kind soul in them that directs them to happiness.. but in fact.. many of those innocent wants have been tainted in life that they seek to gain pleasure from the most disgusting actions.. yet i feel even more sad.. becoz i know them... I ALWAYS KNEW NO ONE WAS PERFECT.. BUT I WISHED BY BEING IN THEIR LIVES.. I CAN MAKE THEIR LIVES MORE BEAUTIFUL but i was wrong.. more than ever.. i feel weak and helpless.. many times i advised my heartbroken frenz to pull them thru.. but i cant anymore.. because unlike the former.. the prepertrators on both sides are ALL MY FRIENDS.. i cant do anything to help coz it will definitely hurt one of them... but yet i HATE looking at the side as they begin to hurt each other...

many times i did things to salvage things precious to my heart by myself.. but now.. more than ever.. i PRAY to my god... i pray for her to be merciful to them... i pray for them to see the evil in them.. i pray for them to wake up... at the same time i look at myself and feel tears enveloping my eyes.. WHY CAN'T I DO ANYTHING??? why can't i help both my frenz in pain... i always preach that anything is possible as long as i believe... but why cant i do anything now?? i feel in pain.. looking at my frenz hurting each other is something i nv wished i saw... in fact this actually happened in my dream some time back.. i remembered blogging abt it.. i feel that its really gonna come true... and that i fear..

but yet i draw strength to move on... coz even though i have discovered things i choose not to discover.. i always remember that No one is perfect i see ppl i know for the beauty they are in their souls.. thats why i do not hate anyone in life... but at the same time i can't be as naive as before that they are all good.. bit by bit i learn more things abt my frenz.. Lies, cheats, deceit, playing a false front some more.. some less.. as i stand and look.. i remember the times i spent with these frenz... at outings.. gatherings.. meals those moments i knew.. ARE NOT LIES!! but i will go on.. as i hold true to my believes.. TO FOLLOW MY HEART may the gods look upon me and grant me strength... let me do something for my frenz... for that.. i pray...


thouGht of the day:foR many other frenz out there.. dont worry.. i do not doubt your sincerity.. i always enjoyed the company you gave to me.. that is why i wish to do something in return for the happiness you give me.. so.. pls forgive me...

dEminG
i don'T wanT to sTand anD waTch.. i waNT to conTinuE to beauTify thE liVes oF aLl i knoW.. no maTter hoW huRt i feEl.. i musT pERseveRe!!

yesterday was SUPPOSED to be a good day.. coz it was my partner's BIRTHDAY although i admit forgetting to get him a present.. i wanted to get him something by monday... i had a GP Enrichment in the morning thus i was gonna join them later.. hold and behold as i was abt to leave for sch he messaged me that he has a SORE THROAT and was coming for training.. i tried messaging him to convince him to come.. but he didn't reply..

yeah you might be wondering why im saying this though i always preach to TRUST my teammates... i have TRUSTED him for almost a year.. in fact he is now the only guy in the team who gets sick yet doesn't attend trainings.. li hua.. amanda.. darren.. sometimes even me on many occasions were sick too.. yet we still come to training.. many times he didn't attend coz he CLAIMED that he was sick COINCIDENTALLYhappened to be close to when his class goes to outings or when its a public holiday.. and becoz of my rule.. he needn't produce a MC to prove it.. coz i BELIEVE him...

but this has gone too far.. SORE THROAT and not attending training is too far fetched.. i nv told anyone whenever im sick.. yet i still attend my trainings... i make sure i dont miss any trainings unless im bedridden... WHY? becoz i want to be happy.. i want to win something.. i want to prove something.. and more than that i want to PUT IN MY BEST WITH CLIBURN!.. but many times i feel that its a one-sided feeling.. though i always say i trust him.. i can't help feeling cheated as my motivations and drive are not apparent with him.. i always sympathized with him.. but i nv felt him do so to me.. after that 2 defeats i didnt want to lose again.. but if he continues to stay like tat.. i can't continue to trust him knowing that i have to doubt him... i guess its best we went our separate ways then...

dEMinG
toRn beTweEn 2 haRd dEciSIons... sElf oVer othEr? or oTher over SElf.. i don'T know.. i reaLly don'T knoW...

phew.. luckily cleared my NAFPA with 27 pts though not that happy with the results.. im just glad i didn't get push into what those guys are doing on the track.. *loOks on with malicious grin* but not all is rosy in life.. yepz those guys who got silver and gold will be joining this PE NETWORK thingy when we learn new sports or activities.. yepz i said i wanted to join dance.. but it turned out that suman didnt come to sch today and no one was keen on signing up.. to my horror.. NO ONE offered to teach SWIMMING omG loRz.. then with WX pestering i volunteered to "facilitate" swimming..

but when it came to ppl to sign up.. i had to talk and "beg" guys who were keen on swimming to join.. Jane and Vinay came along and quickly signed up.. but my class guys were all VERY hesitant as they worry abt being unable to attend our bio lesson on tuesdays.. after compromising here and there.. i managed to get 4 more guys to sign up.. poor jane was begging my class gals to join so that she wont be the only gal.. but our class gers refused to join.. ended up they joined TAEKWONDO and VOLLEYBALL(rs) hmmz.. cant criticize their choice also.. well if its what they enjoy.. then so be it.. ^__^ i was at first DAMN worried coz table tennis was abolished coz too little ppl sign up.. with only 5 guys i was ready to pack up.. but lucky MISS RIVERIA approved coz she'll be there anyways.. she told me the previous Pe grp had ENA (dunnoe who she is) the captain of swimming was teaching the other grp.. they have 11 gers.. and 1 guy (soo kee).. lOlx.. my side only 5 guys and 1 ger.. loLx.. coRny eh?

sad to see ar.. the SRJC gers are really shy and all.. think they didnt sign up coz I was the teacher.. coz im a guy.. ENA was a ger.. observe the diff?? hahaz.. pls lorz.. why so conservative.. its just going for swim.. i opted for swimming coz im sick of sch sports and i LOVE WATER SPORTS besides it'll give me a chance to shape up and tone my muscles too.. yEah! hEhez.. hopefully more ppl will sign up later.. coz i got losta fun things up my sleeve for my class.. so many go vball.. lOlx.. 20++ lorz.. haiz.. wanna play vball next time i go sentosa teach you all beach vball!! (much more fun than normal vball) hEhez.. but after hearing what Wei Xiong tell me why he didn't sign up for swimming (which he motivated me to reg for) i kinda worry what will happen if he DID join.. pity the gers.. hAhaz

today went out for dinner with my family.. (rare occasion) had a filling meal and abit of shopping at Compass Point (stationary stationary..) on our way back my mom commented that my body size more and more SHUAI loLx.. then asked if my classmates got say anything.. then i told her abt the "B-Cup" thingy.. loLx.. last time i was A-Cup then i recently upgraded to B-cup le.. hahaz.. of coZ its CHEST MUSCLES lar.. its really kinda tight nowadays wearing t-shirts.. lOlx.. scary stuff.. sometimes i see that i have bigger chest than losta gers i see leiz.. loLx.. cham liao.. need to shrink it.. hahaz...

oh yah when i went popular.. i bought myself a SKETCHBOOK.. coz despite all my harsh trainings and all.. i have this kinda strange fliar for the "arts" too.. well i like to ANIME and seek to be able to draw one nice one in the future.. and i LOVE to BREAK as in breakdance yepz.. hahaz.. not the typical artistic kind.. but i also yearn to go to some lagoon with blue clear water and nature at its best.. in my own personal kayak.. canoeing ard and taking beautiful pics of the sun.. sea.. sand.. islands.. sky... just LOVE it.. loLx..

dEminG
lIve foR the pAssIon..

hEy heyZ! soRry foR not bloGging yesterday.. wah kaoZ lorz.. yesterday was SEA TRAINING TURNED GYM TRAINING lorz.. hmmz. .as you all know by now the nicoll highway collapse has caused a huge roadblock (and pavement) tats why the CANBERRAN girls (who trains along with our team using our boats) who came late had to be TRANSPORTED to the landing site... holD and behoLd.. coach devised a smart plan and sent J2s to paddle a T2 ALONE to the SDBA and pick up a canberran and paddle back... omG lorZ.. it was HELL paddling one big fat boat all alone was bad enough.. then some of the canberrans were pretty "helpful" by gently stroking the water while i was slaughtering myself back there.. omG.. and when i tot it was over... coach said "Deming get ready to go back!" ----____----- what goes up must come down.. get iT? aRgH!

abit farnie sia.. we ended training at like 7pm ya... then as night fell we were like talking crap as usual.. then the J2s actually were talking abt the canberran gers.. besides the expected complaints.. came the unexpected... THEY SAY GOT ONE CANBERRAN GER CHIO LEIZ!!! i was like "doH!" haiz.. captain ar.. too hardworking.. train train.. paddle paddle.. see the canberrans one look then bo chup le.. now miss out so much.. hAIz.. =p

then today ar.. MR Tan called for a meeting with all the J2s.. (coincidentally after he got the compilation of results for our CT2) loLx we were speculating he's gonna screw us or something.. when he open hall ask us go in we like "oh shit..." loLx.. but ended up we had an interesting talk from Mr Bernard Tan.. lOlx.. guess what he's from St Gabriel's too!! hahaz.. same as me and LK.. then he talk abt his life.. hahaz quite farnie guy when he's not scolding us lorz.. hahaz.. cheeky laugh that i heard for the first time too.. morale of the story was for us to study hard yepz.. coz he dont want us to repeat his mistakes and all.. makes me respect him even more.. he kinda reminds me of myself.. lOLX.. maybe next time i should be a PE teacher too?? PooR sTudents.. ^__^

today's training was the usual.. but the J1s had something i love the most.. S-J circuiT!! lolX.. that is the ultimate killer kz.. even J2s can still die from it.. hEhez.. then had stick rowing and all.. then came along 2 of our seniors.. then after see see they praised me for doing a "good job" yEpz.. hahaz.. sounds abit bhb lar.. but for working so hard and always thinking of things for the team.. sometimes i worry if i'm making the wrong decisions.. compliments nv fail to keep me up and moving coz its a source of recognition and encouragement as well.. now got losta new plans for the team on my head too.. and dont worry.. IT ISN'T TOO SADISTIC... HeHEz..

P.S: pLs read the papers.. its really very saddening to hear to the accounts of the 2 missing victims.. pls pray hard kz? its really really very painful to lose a loved one.. so pls pray for the safe return of the 2 last men..

thouGht of the day: not all gabrielites are thieves.. but we all hate to study.. and all of us love subjects taught by pretty teachers.. =D maRy lEow!!!


iTs eaRth day!! (mRs kok you knoW how to swIm? (evIL smilE)


thE traNquiL niGHt.. maybE can inVent niGht canoEing? ^__^


siTe Of nicOLL hiGhwaY colLapSe.. (frOm SCF)

dEminG
coZ i donT wannA feRry CanbErraNs.. sobZ

phEW today took our chem test.. THERMOCHEM ar.. loLx.. thankz to evelyn i managed to scrap up some fruitful revision on sunday.. but then i forget to return her her tutorial.. up to now its still with me.. >.< HOPE she does well.. =pp was ok lar.. not too tough.. just a lack of time.. dont think i'll fail.. but wont be too good either.. just a small step for tat small determination in me NOT TO BE LOOKED DOWN BY ANY TUTORS!

think abt my classmates ar.. recently kana my vibe le... i dunnoe when but maybe coz of watching too much YANKEES shows.. loLx .. then i always say "Alritey Then!" loLx.. tmD.. they all (EVEN FABBY) keep saying that to the extent of irritating me.. loLx.. but its also kinda farnie lar.. hearing how they use it in as many contexts as possible.. hAHaz... why dont you try using it today too? ^___^

PE was kinda fun.. hahaz first had this results release for our NAFPA results going thru smoothly.. then when it came to me Mr. Tan said "SILVER" for a moment i was like "HUH? -__-||" then he kept reading.. "yong shen - silver, jun kok- silver..." then i knew SOMETHING is definitely wrong.. loLx.. as usual he was fooling with us lar.. allthe silver ones got GOLD.. wooHoo.. (if onlY singapore got this kinda result for SEA games.. hEhez) later the gold and silver guys went over for a briefing by miss riveria on PE Network.. sounds fun.. but cant have canoeing.. abit sad.. hahaz.. then miss riveria ar... got this habit of pronouncing my name.. she goes "Dae Ming" loLx.. guess its her slang ar? actually i wanted to teach breakdance at the same time learn from others.. but i myself not very proficient.. so i decided not to teach.. miss riveria however suggested that i take on 1. Physical Fitness Instructor - for the guys stuck at NIL and Bronze... 2. GYM Instructor - teach basic gym course... hahaz.. good that she holds me in high regard.. but ar.. MACHIAM I NV TRAIN ENUFF lolx.. plus the J1s ar.. i've been teaching alot of ppl this kinda things (esp pre napfa period) so i was like.. forget it.. so i decided 1st Choice - Dance (depends on who teaching.. 2nd Choice - SWIMMING!! wOoHoO)

talk abt canoeing.. on my way back was kinda shocked by the Collapse of the Nicoll Highway its very familar coz we used to jog there when we were doing our warm up jog prior to training.. abit worried at first.. coz this kinda thing in singapore makes me worry for human lives.. although there weren't much casualties i sincerely hope the other 3 workers are safe.. even though we dont know them nor they are singaporeans.. plS pray for their safety ya? alot of J2s started messaging me abt it but i reconfirmed there will still be training tml.. if the sea training cancelled (our training grounds Kallang Basin is right NEXT to nicoll highway) then there'll still be Land Training.. hEhez.. aint i a nice captaIN? nv deprive them to train.. muHHAhahahahhAaz

yeah! as you guess from the title.. i finally finished watching SAIKANO really sad yet silently happy ending.. throughout the show its kinda mature content.. (not hentai kz! no nudity either!! horny ppl..) sets me thinking.. many more characters close to my heart as a viewer lost their lives in the war.. till the finale when the female lead had to protect her hometown from attackers.. but also it was the end of the world as Tsunamis and Earthquakes rumbled... slowly the town the viewer grow to love was destroyed piece by piece.. until EVERYONE died.. save the male lead who was saved by the female lead.. she herself was destroyed in the process but the scene rolls when her heart becomes part of the male lead.. where they relive their memories in the town they grew to love so much.. and it show ended with a memorable phrase "evEn if you're the last on earth... Live on Shuji!! let our hearts resonate the last love song of the planet for all to hear!"

dEminG
no bounDariEs nO limiT to pAin.. buT alsO no End to THe happinEss

anD liFe goes on... ^__^ hey ppl dont worry!! i'm not sad or depressed or anything.. in fact i feel better coz im more honest to myself and ppl i know.. hEHez.. but not much repercussions from moi frenz yet leiz.. either they dont know i got blog or they keep it to themselves.. eitherways.. LIFE GOES ON =] wah coz of blogging that long entry last nite i slept at 1am liew.. then go sch super shagged.. machiam bad hair day somemore (could you notice the diff? =])

today's lesson was the usual.. haiz.. actually i plan hoh hoh one.. last nite finish my thermochem den do 1st order D.E + Electrochem.. THANKZ TO HX ar.. wah lao.. i nv finish shit last nite.. then today kana hong kan by tutors again.. hAiZ.. maybe i should consider stop going to study with HX manz.. >.< then kana sia suay in lesson again.. hmmz sometimes i wonder if i was a smarter guy would i haf better luck in love? *shRugs* loLx.. i'll nv know ya.. hEhez

then after lunch today i decided to pon bio lecture to go home to sleep.. very shagged ar.. really could barely walk up straight... with a lousy hair day to boot.. i evacuated the sch compound quick and went to join tys jk gerard and KKK to makan.. hahaz.. but today damn pissed off ar.. ROCK MELON my fav snack was like 1 day old lidat leiz.. not sweet somemore got that weird taste.. TmD.. con me of 1 dollar.. soBz spoiL my day..

went home and yepz.. surprised to see my bro hahaz.. yes i haf a bro.. taller by me by one head(all the tall genes he taken le.. i am the one nature didn't select.. =~~) older than me by 5 years.. got a beautiful GF.. and is currenly finishing his contract with NS.. great eh? come to think of it i kinda follow after him.. he kinda motivated me to join canoeing coz he was in NYP Dragon Boat hehez.. always out to beat him.. physical and intellect.. but of coz its in the name of fun.. looks wise.. erh.. think he win ABIT hahaz *thiCk-skinnEd* but most prob he got better affinity with gals coz of his height (4 Exs leiz.. by 18.. and im approaching 18 and SINGLE!! woOHoO!!)

after a 1 hour nap (it helped ALOT) i went back for training.. mainly took J1s for circuit then stick rowing.. can see they alot got potential.. but as usual needs alot of pushing to urge them forward.. hahaz.. abit sad ar.. i no coach cert i teaching 20++ J1s stick rowing.. hahaz.. stupid COACH.. blardie slacker.. work outside then nv train J1s one.. think by next year under my tutelage dun need him le lar.. hahaz.. put an end to SEGREGATION of BODY SIZE!!! >.< oh yah just like to wish yasmeen and other tennis ppl.. jiA you for your nationals kZ? kinda envy them though.. they got like 3 matches to qualify.. for canoeists.. we only have one shot at winning.. so.. DO YOUR BEST KZ SPORTSMEN AND SPORTSWOMEN OUT THERE?? JIA YOU!!

dEminG
wanT a piC of my bRO?? hEhez.. soRry lar.. scaRed you gaLs all go droolinG over him.. bESideS hE's attached to a chio gF( and my future sis-in-law) *jealouS*

My mind's unweaving/ 9:25 PM

yoZ pPL.. loLx.. today no matter what gotta blog twice despite the poor viewership today.. loLx.. coz tonight has been really a night of enlightenment for me... if you can't stand boring blogs then guess you shouldn't read this entry ya.. after you read this blog.. your impression of me will change.. more likely for the worst.. so pls read on your own discretion..... hmmz.. the setting you say? today kiat loong jio me to study at HP as usual in the afternoon after my gym... instinctively i agreed.. AS USUAL all of them were late... so we started studying and all as usual.. eventually ended up just KL HX and me.. as RS had dinner with her parents, JK said 2 hours later he's not coming and evelyn was out.. everything's so nostalgic.. until.. 10.30pm...

we were starting to talk more cock.. at first was the same topic as usual from HX.. abt his ambitions and all.. loLx.. i finally decided to give up on him and let him do it his way.. hahAz.. i even came up with a whole load of nonsense quotes that are censored for the benefit of my readers here.. hEhez.. well.. to the MAIN POINT of this blog.. was actually when we moved to under evelyn's block to continue studying coz mac was closing.. there i LEARNT

i learnt of things i thought i knew.. abt our classmates.. things i casually brisked away coz it was none of my business.. I WAS NAIVE many more stories came out to my surprise.. alot of things really happened within our class... i used to think my class was pretty dead.. except the fun bunch of guys.. but there were alot of "interesting" events that came from diff ppl... from the past to the present to the future.. at first i felt really left out.. coz i was totally unaware of these things.. then came the question "WHY?? why should i know? why shouldn't they tell me?" some things i heard and said.. i rather not know.. but at the same time.. i feel i ought to know.. why? coZ i regard all of my classmates as my frenz some were really saddening.. some changed my impression.. some made me laugh.. some made me afraid of the future...

after that long chat.. i ended it abruptly coz i was gonna miss my last bus.. as i was walking to the bus stop with KL.. i actually felt in the mood to they them something.. ABOUT ME.. i was also surprised.. coz up till today.. I NEVER TOLD ANYONE DIRECTLY abt things i rather keep to myself.. i told KL of my MOST serious crush in my life.. what really struck me was when i was abt to leave after completing my story, i told KL to tell more abt himself.. he admitted that he knows ALOT abt many ppl in his life.. yet almost no bother knows him well except JK... then i recalled my mentality that "why should i delve into their personal lives?" that i had few hours ago all my life... when it struck me.. that as a fren... i ought to hear it.. from their hearts...

in my life i recalled back in primary sch when i had a serious traumatic setback with my best friend.. some of you may recall once me blogging abt "BEST FREN".. i finally understand.. coZ i nv really went out to know more abt ZY back then.. and best frenz i thought they were to me of present.. i felt very angry with myself.. many ppl who know me will know i'm always cheerful and frenly to many.. but what i thought i knew of my frenz are but that little.. i really feel very angry of my cowardly self.. for its that being that stop me from really having a "best fren" in my life.. coz i fear wat happened 7 years ago will replay itself..

at the same time.. i feel EMPTY not becoz i dont haf a gf.. thats a childish manner of reflection.. what i finally put into words tat has been in my heart so long.. is that i can feel people love me.. from family.. to frenz.. to acquaintances... those small signs of love.. of care.. of concern.. of joy... for that i am very thankful... but.. at the same time i feel empty becoz.. hardly anyone in my life ever showed me that he/she really LOVED me WHOLLY.. deep down.. i yearn to be loved.. for someone to love me... not for the body.. not for just the personality.. but the soul.. sometimes to ppl i regard as "close frenz" i always try to do that extra bit for them.. but sometimes they shrug me off.. busy with other aims in their lives.. they dont know.. no one knows.. but i feel very heartbroken and hurt.. they dont have to be females or males.. i'm not desperate for love.. but that hole has always been in my heart and will always haunt me in my life... but yet i'll like to tell them i'm sorry for not knowing them better.. in my heart.. deep down... "i'm very sorry..."

then came to the topic.. "WHY?" why must ppl keep secrets? for fear ppl will hate them?? then i shall take that risk.. i shall tell all of you now.. I HAVE WATCHED PORN.. I DID LOTS OF APPALING THINGS IN MY LIFE TO OTHERS so now.. do you hate me? will you change your impression of me? and avoid me? everyone in life keep secrets.. and secrets has always hurt ppl in life.. to tell them or to keep them.. secrets always hurt ppl... but tonight i told myself.. dont be FAKE don't lie to ppl all ard you.. dont keep things from them.. becoz they might want to be closer to you.. to know your bad sides.. as well as your good.. but i PROMISED to myself.. no matter what i heard today and tommorow.. i will and always will acknowledge you as who you are.. i know many ppl also have dark secrets that they dont wish to tell.. i won't force them to tell me.. but i will still always acknowledge them for who they are.. some of you may stigmatize me from today onwards.. but i know i have no regrets.. what i do or did b4.. bad things in my past.. they are in the past.. there is no gurantee that it'll happen again in the future.. neither is there a gurantee it will stop... for that i'll like to leave a note that i made and have always followed in life "LOOK FONDLY ON THE PAST NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENED... LIVE TODAY WITH A RESOLVE UNLIKE NO OTHER.. AND LOOK FORWARD TO A BEAUTIFUL FUTURE" thats why no matter what.. i shall have that courage to smile again... to all my frenz out there.. i dont wanna use words other ppl type in emails.. but i'll like to say from deep down.. "YOU BEAUTIFIED MY LIFE AND I LOVE YOU"

dEminG
hAte mE.. loVe mE.. appReciaTE mE.. foR aLl of thaT makEs mE whOle... foR you GIve mE my mEaninG oF eXistance..

My mind's unweaving/ 12:05 AM

Sunday, April 18, 2004

wah gotta talk abt last nite.. FABIAN ar fabian.. not say i wanna say u ar.. but how could you watch FHM BIKINI HEAVEN??? liew.. without telling me earlier!!! buay kao brudder.. loLx.. hey hey dont look at me lidat.. as i said.. I'M A GUY.. AND A HONEST ONE AT THAT! haHaz.. how many guys you know dare to admit they read FHM when they do?? yEpz.. dont need praise me ya.. hAhaz.. abit sad ar.. RACHEL LEE nv win.. think they are racist lorz.. both rachel and miss taiwan nv win one.. overall winner was gwenelle.. woo.. she aint got the assets like RacheL(pride of ASIA) but i totally LOVEEEE her smile and her haiR!! hahaz.. think abt gers nowadays.. all long hair one.. so common... then i dont find them that pretty.. for your info: i like gers with short hair and BEAUTIFUL smiles ya? hahaz.. and gwenelle got both.. *mElts* but the prob is that she's french and her english is worst than Rachel.. loLx.. the world's so unfair.. *sobZ* Ala VacHE!!

today ar.. woke up at 10 and packing up for gym today.. hahaz.. yepz.. every sunday is GYM for me.. at hougang sports hall there.. as usual.. VINCENT AND CO. WERE LATE!!!! ARGH!! bth them lorz.. always make me wait until i pissed off.. so i started first.. today wanted to wear singlet but worry cant wash in time for trg tml.. so i took my bro's NYP DRAGON BOAT singlet.. hEhez.. honestly ar.. i really like his singlet lorz.. its SOOOO coOL.. with one big dragon at the back.. sad for him.. its kinda tight on me.. (brother ar brother..) until vincent says that if i change in a guys room ppl might think i am a ger without a bra.. >.< but then sometimes i wear.. ppl will stare at me lidat.. (sometimes i can see is coz they shock i can carry heavy weights.. but today got one guy like see me buay song.. hahaz.. maybe coz of the big ah beng dragon lar.. but scully he is my brother's teammate.. =pp)

think abt hougang gym on sundays.. alot of ppl ar.. then you will notice at the locker area.. got alot of GNC BOTTLES stacked with yellow/orange or green liquid.. hahaz.. those are protein supplements yupz.. not SUGAR CANE JUICE LAR! hahaz.. i use to envy those big defined ppl but when i see them take a sip from those things i really despiese them.. hAhaz.. even though i not very muscular.. i gotta say im kinda defined for my size.. and best of all.. i dont need GNC! thats the same thought in my TEAM for we dont need supplements and still can win.. becoz we BELIEVE!

after an hour and all of gym.. we went over to hougang mall for lunch.. on our way we were talking abt japanese coz lai bun was taking JAP in poly.. so we were showing off our knowledge of jap to each other.. hahaz.. kinda funny leiz.. talk until i feel very motivated to watch more ANIME to pick up the language then can stun them next week.. hEhez.. anyways now resting at home and later going to meet kiat loong and co. to study at hougang point.. capTain siGninG oFF~! chiLL~!

thouGht of the daY:i'Ve increaSEd my foOD inTakE X2.. but my weight is even lighter.. omG.. last time i hate being fat.. now i hate being so light.. aRGH!!

dEminG
wonDer who shAll i aSk to danCe foR pRom niGht.. =]


i mAke thiS siNgLet lOOk goOd.. =pp

My mind's unweaving/ 3:19 PM

Saturday, April 17, 2004

KALLANG IS SIMPLY BEAUTIFUL!! loLx.. today was at kallang at 6.40am.. (yEpz you piGs at homE ouGht to fEel guilTy) today the water was very tranquil and calm lorz.. somemore at the sun still edging along the horizon.. then can see the reflections of the buildings on the water.. no ripples no nothing.. almost like theres two buildings.. but.. I FORGET TO BRING MY CAM!!! --___-- suXorz.. whenever i bring camera then low tide then i get welcomed by crabs pointing their pincers at me like they were middle fingers.. loLx

today's training was GREAT loLx.. compared to last week.. today's cliburn was really pushing himself.. WooHoO!! felt very motivated by his paddling.. so i also burst along with him.. although we still can't pace up with lk and wl.. if all our trainings were like today.. i really feel like we can achieve something in our nationals.. also i got enlightened on a few stuff.. like how come cliburn get tired so easily and how i can further extend my front catch.. hEhez.. in addition the water was HIGH tide today so the waters looked very clean (in kallang's standard = clean.. international waters standard = toxic) so i really enjoyed paddling today.. along with my trusty cap and buBblEs i felt very good today as i paddled... thankZ man kAllang and cliburn.. you mAKe my day!

later went back sch to deliever li hua's paddle dont play play leiz.. she SELECTED for SCF training and subsequently national team selection.. after all she got 3rd in the SCF k1 womenz kz.. ^__^ even though there were only 3 racers its still quite an accomplishment eh? went to sch then went ard looking for her.. makes me remember last week when i was helping laysee and all with the tables and chairs for TEC.. but then this time Mr. Zaihan see me in outside clothes again like not too happy.. so i faster ciaoz.. hAhaz..

just a few days ago mrs lim reminded me to take care of my voice.. hahaz.. say my voice rougher than last year le.. really ar? dunnoe leiz.. i find my voice kinda sexy.. >.< loLx!! joking lar! coz maybe i used to shouting alot at J1s and my scouts in the past.. well.. its part of me to shout loud.. maybe one day you see me at NDP parade commander leiz.. then you can say "hey i know that bugger!! sadistic guy always so fierce to his canoeists onE!" ^__^ but well.. i also can alter my voice to sound more sexy and manly and childish wor.. but i still think fabby is the best! he sound become some actor.. he's DAMN good at imitating voices from teletubies to mr andrew cox.. hahaz..

thouGht oF the Day: gRaSses if you looK again are quiTE beauTifUL.. diE le.. alL lAY seE's fauLt.. loLx

dEminG
thE skY iS clEar anD bluE.. THe Sea iS clEAr anD gReEn.. wherE is iT? kAllanG!!

My mind's unweaving/ 9:29 PM

Friday, April 16, 2004

onE thinG i realiSE from my clAss ar.. iF you puT their namEs in a liSt.. anD mark theiR attEndance.. somEtimes you can finD paTterns when the sign "O" appears.. yuPz.. means they're ABSENT loLx.. somEtimes got diagonal.. sometimes one big line.. sometimes even form numbers! (wonder if i should buy 4-D) >.< no wonder there's no such thing as a best cG huh.. but well can't be blamed lar.. we taking 4A's and the most deprived of time to rest and do tutorials one.. but as fabby says: "it isn't fair they can just pon can do their tutorials while stupid ppl likE us come to sch faithfully EVERYDAY and get screwed for not doing our tutorials.." *nodsSs* anyways its still quite interesting observing the trends when they miss sch.. (e.g the day after TRAINING.. coz a turtle nv come.. the mushroom doesnt come...) ^__^ maybe there's some kinda conspiracy theory.. muhAhahAz..

today Mr Kwek ar.. recently like PMS-ing everytime diao us with his eyes.. TMd.. the way he diao ppl i feel like gorging his eyes out.. keep scolding us think we very complacent then if results poor we deserve it.. lOlx.. more like HE'LL CRY for being such a pathetic teacher.. make himself sound so noble.. wanna go home? GO HOME LAR!! anyways later that Martian accent maths lecturer took over... (still dont know whats his name) and as i draw circles i thought of why ppl draw circles so differently.. you see.. you have them... i have them... your parents have them.. your frenz have them.. your pets have them... its of different sizes.. some are FLAT.. some are BIG.. some are OVAL... some are ELONGATED... they... are........... our............... HEADS! now now fabby what are you thinking of? =p

GP had some interesting discussion again.. this time abt SEXISM hmmMz.. got this quote from confuscious:"Women are narrow-minded and aren't meant for great things.." manz.. and i tot that silver bearded guy was a nice guy.. wonder if he has a wife.. >.< b4 you all think i FULLy support this notion.. i came up with another "MEN are Dirty-Minded and meant to hide them from women.. hEhez.. although i kinda like confuscious thinking.. =X hEheEz

but today VERY HAIR-PEE!! woohOO!! goT banD 1 foR PW!!! yEapiEe!!! hAhaz.. my class only me and fabby got band 1.. so was kinda joyous and was hopping ard.. hahaz.. but also abit sad.. see some ppl got band 3.. then those with 2 wondering why they didn't get 1.. took a look ard and saw very little 1s in our cohort.. majority was of 3s... then our class had alot of 2s.. then got this class.. 1A05 (amanda's class) wah kaoz.. got 6-7 1s lorz.. arts ppl sure are good at this kinda stuff.. hahAz.. but ar.. loLx.. its almost like the whole class condemn me and fabby during chem pract.. then i refrained from saying anything stupid coz some of them obviously were really upset... but well.. I DO LOOK FORWARD TO CRYSTAL JADE WOR!! LOlX Hua xianG's treaT of coZ.. ^__^

friday ar.. suppose to be my SHORT day to go home early.. loLx.. then ar.. as i left for home.. Weixiong jio me go HOugang maLl JaLan jaLan.. being the nice old me.. i accompanied him lorz.. then at the bus stop.. we saw 112 come first.. so i was like.. erh.. maybe we should take 113? (coz it was behind) then Wx saw the label "Hougang CTr" on 112.. so he urged me on.. what resulted become a SBS Survey Bus ride.. loLx.. we took 112 all the way from sch.. to xinmin primary to hougang point and back.. loLx.. to my horror i was like.. "SHIT 112 is the bus that i always take to hougang point!!" loLx.. but then it was kinda "fruitful" as i can weixiong happily chatted away and saw losta faces along the way.. either on bus.. on the route.. or at the bus stop.. learnt some interesting stuff from xiong and his post office invention.. loLx.. as it looped back ar.. we were contemplating if its gonna turn back into SRJC.. lOlx.. so xiong said "lets take the risk" then true to my belief.. we ended back in SRJC loLx.. not wanting to "push our luck too far" we decided to get off le.. 38min from where we left the bus stop opposite.. we were back there again.. and this time.. we took 153 to be sure.. --__--

lolx.. later we finally got to hougang point then went ard with xiong to jalan jalan.. look at books.. library.. popular... then i treated him to a sundae as we sat outside his "usual spot" and talked abt scouts.. hahaz.. when i got home.. its 6 le.. soBz.. there goes my short Friday.. hAhaz.. siGninG oFF!

LamE momEnt of thE daY: mE: don'T touCh my G-spoT.. noOo!! Leb: you want it dont you?? mE: noOoo!!! *leb leb taPs on the lighT conTrol on my G-Shock*

dEminG
i fouND ouT why i sO weAk thiS weEk le.. i'm SICK!! wTh rite.. anD no onE knoWs.. no onE caRes.. *soBz*

My mind's unweaving/ 9:14 PM

Thursday, April 15, 2004

wah recently very tired.. dunnoe why leiz.. usual stuff.. sleep at 12mn everynight.. usual trainings.. usual tutorials (undone of coz).. everything's the same leiz.. but this week i'm VERY tired lorz.. dunnoe why.. been dozing off at lectures like a log without knowing even.. somethings wrong...

yesterday we went to CaLeb's Pocket Fund CPF building at bishan yesterday.. loLx.. quite interesting for me.. coz i always wondered how the CPF worked... thing abt SRJCians ar.. they very MECRENARY ar.. lOlx.. if not for the prize of vouchers on a quiz.. i doubt anyone else other than me would have listened to the lectures.. loLx.. then got this farnie ang moh lecturer talking abt finiancial planning and all.. then mistaked weixiong's name as RACHEL loLx.. overall its nice ar... the ribena and all.. hEHez.. ^_^

after that short commercial break was SUPPOSEDLY our ppl's trip ard J8.. i even brought my outside clothes leiz.. but got some ppl went for cca.. (ODAC and RUGBY).. others went home.. in the end only left a small grp of guys that eventually disintegrated to leave 3 guys.. mE.. hua xiang.. and hao yi.. lOlx.. not that im angry or anything.. but... haiz.. our class ppl dunnoe is really too hardworking.. or no life le.. =\ but well.. its their choice anyways.. but i saw some nice stuff at J8 lar.. (U2 G2000 offer + sec sch chio bu and ah lians) hahaz.. so the trip wasnt a waste after all...

today ar.. got enlightened a little during PHYSICS lecture.. lOlx.. dunnoe what i talking abt coz we were learning something that some physicians came up with b4... then i came to the realisation that.. ALL THESE INVENTORS ARE MEN.. FARADAY.. EINSTEIN.. HOLTZMEN.. etc etc.. all of them share 1 thing in common... THEY'RE EVIL just look how much suffering they enact on us innocent civilians.. they're no better than terrorists dont you agree? gRrr.. (they really nothing better to do.. that physician who was in the navy must have been a chef ar.. what the.. spraying oil droplets and measure charge.. THAT SHIP SHOULD BE SUNK!)

b4 lunch the INTERACT CLUB had this frenzship dance thingy ar.. loLx.. was suppose to be in the assembly plaza.. but coz it was noon damn sunny lar.. then those PUSSIES literally and illiterally all clamour in the concourse refusing to bulge.. until they changed to in concourse.. then me and my class guys had to move in.. blEahZ.. hahaz.. the guys all beri shy ar.. form our own circle.. then i ask the gers join in they dont want.. they rather join other class gals.. HaiZ but we had fun ar.. lOlx.. we like world of our own.. dancing amongst the guys and making one hella ruckus along with other guys we know from the PLATINUM PE GRP loLx.. chILl ppL.. you RockZ!

today actually got GP enrichment one ar.. then cancelled.. wah lao lorz.. my grades all so F up.. then i wanna find out how come i screw up my GP.. tmD.. 26 pTs!!! suCkz lorz.. mdm AN-ION like havent prepare her "you guys are pathetic" speech yet ar.. maybe thats why she cancel.. hAIz.. cant believe i lost to amos lorz.. even he got 30.. i dont wanna live le.. --___-- then mr tan was up to his usual antics again.. loLx "ok now switch on your com.. and play COUNTERSTRIKE!! as though thats gonna happen =}" and "i dont play this kinda games.. i play games of high intellect... PC STREET MAHJONG!!!" lOLx.. faRnie fella manz.. never ceases to crack me up.. loLx..

then just now training.. wah my finger beri pain lorz.. do until big blister in my fingers.. lOlx.. eating cast iron mahz.. FORGET BRING MY GLOVE lorz.. wah kaoz.. my glove also gonna wear out le.. haiz.. gotta buy new one soon... otherwise i got more bumps on my fingers le.. hahaz.. see i so noble? finger pain still type blog.. hahaz.. bleeding all over my bloG ar.. >.<

ThouGht oF thE day: wHy sEa is saLty.. fabBY: fiShpiSs mahZ

dEminG
haPpinEss reVisiTed..


cAleb'S poCket funD


hAhaz.. wE camE we saW we conQuerEd the reFreshmEnts! (Guide:erh.. the exhibit is over here.. )


ouR staR oF the touR.. thE koRean p**n sTar.. jun kok!

My mind's unweaving/ 9:45 PM

Tuesday, April 13, 2004

3 guys were being chased by armed men armed with baronets... the 3 fled into a warehouse and realise that there was no way out.. they quickly found 3 bags and hid inside it.. motionless and not trying to make a noise... when the armed men came in.. they saw the 3 suspicious bags and went about kicking them... the armed men kick one of the bag containing a man labelled "Chicken" and the guy inside instinctively went "pok-kAY~!".. convinced the men went on to the second bag labelled "Cats" and kicked.. likewise, the guy inside went "mEow~~" and the armed men moved on.. until the men reached the last bag.. that was labelled POTATO when they kicked it.. the guy inside went "POTATO~~ POTATO~~~"

loLx~!

dEminG
GoinG oFf to houGanG poinT to sTudy.. so shoRt bloG today.. hEhez.. catCh ya guyS tml~!

My mind's unweaving/ 6:08 PM

Monday, April 12, 2004

waH.. today very cOld sia.. iS iT winTer?? loLx.. today alot of lame stuff la.. but kept me awake for most of the day... b4 we went for our physics pract test.. we were like going to the toilet.. when asked why we must go in big grps.. i replied "Safety in Numbers mahz.." with THINGS like joshua ard.. we cannot be too ignorant ya =]

today i became the sacrifice for the MUSHROOM loLx.. physics lecture sit next to him ar.. bTh sia.. keEp turning and looking at *ahEm* that he asked me to punch him if he glances at *ahEm* again.. lOlx.. just as i thought.. this PEEPING MUSHROOM now owes me 7 punches.. ^_^ guess i gotta shape up b4 i enact punishment.. muAHahaz.. it doesn't juST stop there lorz.. as we were walking out along with Yong Shen he was talking abt pull ups and all.. loLx.. then ys in an attempt to shut him up keep saying "somebody can do lots more lorz".. hahaz.. then i added its actually "SOMETWO" ^___^ daMn i'm evIL~~

as we settled down for chem tut.. i realised the class tables and chairs been split in the middle.. then the gers immediately flocked to the right wing and the guys at the left wing.. (with donghai on the right wing.. maybe he hasn't found his gender yet.. =]) hahaZ.. then i was laming with kiat loong abt prince of egypt.. Parody: with this staff i shall part the waters! *sticks staff into water..* spLash.. (water splurts up at his face) loLx.. but ar.. the age old conflict between the Zionists(Male) and the Pilgrims(Female) has kinda cooled off.. esp since the biggest aggressor (me?) has been subdued.. i see a treaty of peace between the 2 warring states as due in time.. before our graduation ya? hEHez.. wont be good graduating with ill feelings hehz? =}

the climax of today's cold jokes was at the chem lect after sch.. wah kaoz eh.. caleb sat on this chair that was half off the goround.. doing VR Caleb loLx.. Caleb:*shaKes abT chaiR* Goliath Online ; Alpha Squadron to Beta Squadron ; Caleb to Houston i got a problem ; Weapon Systems Loaded and Ready loLx.. damN farniE.. bTh him sia.. recently he like got some things on his mind.. hahAz.. hoPe he recovers soon anD cheer up ya?

hahAz.. not forgetting Zhen Hao too.. sorry abt not being able to go over knowing you were injured.. take a good break from hard training yepz.. but please dont give up on canoeing.. i'll feel very sad knowing that a GREAT CANOEIST is so down.. hope you cheer up from your bdae cerebrations and all k? the team might be selfish at times.. but we're still one big family! =] so recover quick and rejoin us in our final burst to excellence kz? chILL~!

THought of the day: Nuclear Incidents through history.. other than statistics on death toll and radiation effect.. there's also a small point that states: 1 Hua Xiang Born haiz.. nuclear weapons should be banned shouldn't they?? evil thinGs =D

dEMinG
thE agE oF beinG a cAptain iS cominG to a cLose

My mind's unweaving/ 9:12 PM

Sunday, April 11, 2004

yes.. i cannot control fate
even so i don't initiate a relationship
neither will you
I CANNOT PROMISE TO NOT MAKE YOU SAD..
but i dont feel lonely or sad
its not that i'm not ready
even if i know you like me
i don't wish to committ
coz i know you will be hurt by me
because i have things in my mind
but it never came across my mind to avoid you
even though we cannot be together
i will not say i like you
becoz i only say it when my heart means it..
even if you like me.. its but infatuation
but i will return your affection... with love.. only if i know that i truly love you
as the person you are.. good or bad... the you that i want and truly love
you have yet to know the different sides of me.. for i can be a man for you when the time arises
you can like me from observing me from afar..
but i will love you.. from my heart.. to your heart..
and your pains will be mine as well..
THAT I PROMISE YOU

dEminG
thE unkNown siDe oF mE

My mind's unweaving/ 3:41 PM

got my lazy a** off my comfy bed at 10.30 today.. the maid is cleaning up the house ar.. so abit paisey.. always make her clear my pig sty.. lOlx.. so AMAZINGLY i actually moved myself to pack up my room.. wah.. can go buy 4-D le.. hahaz.. if my mom knows this she'll SLAUGTHER me.. coz i nv cleared my room for my mom =p lazed ard.. till 11.30am then packed my stuff setting off to meet vincent and kai jie

been a while since i went to hougang gym.. coZ of the 2 races b4.. didn't wanna overwork my muscles.. but with that as history.. its time to eat cast iron again! wooHoo.. hehez.. did the usual stuff.. biceps curl,military press, front rowing, one arm rowing, leg extension, triceps extension, BENCH PRESS, pull ups, running, lats pull, lap machine, dips etc etc.. hahaz.. shiOk sia.. as usual got the usual GNC BIG guys doing weights like nothing lidat.. sad thing abt being light rite.. i can't do as heavy weights.. after training for 1 year plus.. the weights i carry vincent also can carry.. so sia suay.. thats why i'm beefing up recently to gain weight and thus can pull heavier weights.. all contributions of any kind is greatly appreciated ^_^

as we went abt doing gym.. got those usual big guys and some more new users.. hahaz.. abit evil lar.. but i always like to add more weights to those machines after they're done.. then show off abit.. heHEz.. SR canoeists leiz.. how can be weaker than them? although i lost out to those GNC ppl.. when i go to pull up bar.. did abt 20++ pull ups.. hEhez.. machiam WHOLE GYM looking at me.. how abt that?? hEhez.. (coz its strength over mass ratio good mahz ;) ) later teached kai jie and vincent to how to train up.. coz i officially am their personal trainer.. for free.. want to engage me also can.. but must treat me to milk.. ^_^

hahaz.. this is dedicated to MAY this meiz of mine got FETISH WITH FIRM BUTTS .. loLx.. after browsing thru the gym instructions i found out the butt muscle is called the GLUTEAL hahaz.. so in case you get a BF with flat ass.. tell him go gym and ask the instructor how to train GLUTEALS kz? hahaz.. meanwhile.. i'll try to shape up too.. >.<

now got back.. gonna do some pull ups.. clear my 100 pull ups a day routine.. then later do GP + maths.. (shit lor.. must hand up maths file.. i only got 1 tutorial done properly leiz.. >.<) hahaz.. or think a more likely scenario is i go on my bed and.. well... let go.. hAhaz.. (pIlloW~!~! boSter~!~!! blAnket!!! aiR con~!~! ITtaDakimAsu!!)

thought of the day: when you are light and cant carry heavy weights.. do pull ups to motivate yourself.. ;)

deminG
chILL chIll anD chiLL.... tripLe fREezed slackER cominG up!

My mind's unweaving/ 3:17 PM

wah today.. cannot wake up sia.. slept at 1am then woke up at 5.30am.. went down to kallang for training.. then came in just 30 secs before i was gonna be late.. loLx.. sorry lar lk.. the day you pump me is the day i grow feathers on my head.. loLx.. but today's training is really sad.. to me.. IT ISN'T SEA TRAINING at all.. its GYM to me.. today i dunnoe what happen.. clibby my partner claimed he was pulling alot.. but all i felt at the back was that the boat is even heavier to pull than a T1 + Resistance.. was really dissapointed with today's training.. that i didn't even want to take timing.. sometimes ppl ask me.. why i take double with clibby.. itsr becoz COACH placed me with him after time trials last year.. used to be with WEILUN on doubles.. and tell you frankly.. paddling with WL was the most thrilling part abt canoeing thus far.. coz he always wants to improve.. and push ourselves.. but now.. i still miss the times we used to paddle so fast that i can feel the wind cutting my face.. that feeling.. is non-existant in my trainings anymore..

many times i paddle with clibby.. i lose the drive to win.. and the faith in him.. coz deep down.. i know.. no matter how hard i train now.. WE WILL LOSE for nationals.. but i haf a knot in my heart.. coz one side wants to quit this hopeless chance and opt for a T1 for training.. but at the same time.. i want to win with cliburn as well... sometimes i really hate myself for being so weak last year.. that i couldnt been paired up with weilun... if only.. if only...

after training went back SRJC to help with ORION banner for f'renship day.. met up with alvin,natalie,madeline, owen and sarah.. hahaz.. know more new ppl again.. hEhez.. think i almost can say im closer to knowing more ppl that ppl who know me.. =p *bhb bhb* halfway thru went ard to explore the sch.. met up with lawrence,laysee, joshua, willy, kai kian, jun kok, nigel and shanice etc.. all of them either doing banners or involved with TEC talking of which.. hahaz.. as i was walking ard sight-seeing my farmer laysee CONSCRIPTED me to manual labour to arrange tables.. loLx what ended up as a small favour to clear one class.. became a MASSIVE OPERATION:ARRANGE TABLES AND CHAIRS FOR 12 CLASSES lOlx.. talk abt team excellence man.. we even hit a record of 1.15sec to arrange a class.. ZAI EH!!! mA!! i diD job ShadoWing today lEiz.. bEcome paRt tiME scH aTtendanT!! ^__^ at least laysee owes me a lunch of grass... (anD cows dont drink milK! thEY drink water! sEriouSLy!)

hahaz.. later left for home then pia to my grandma place for dinner.. later my parents brought me to takashimaya! went jalan jalan then saw losta stuff i wish i haf lar.. but they are all but material possesions (e.g Oakley shirt.. Domanchi Suit... VIT Unlimited etc..) hahaz as my mom says:"you must have good pay.. then you have strong buying power.. so work to buy your own dreams!" hahaz.. cooL eh? but its true lar when you work hard then buy your own dreams.. the sense of satisfaction is SIMPLY GREAT.. then came the best part of going out with my parents.. MAKAN TIME and i gotta say.. i totally LOVEEEEEEEEEEEE takashimaya's eating area.. loLx.. jap food and all.. my mouth was drooling even b4 i got there.. but then ar... THEY'RE CLOSED!!! wah lao i was so sad i couldnt lift my head until we reach MRT.. then some VJC chiobu made my day worth after all.. lOlx.. heY dont look at me lidat... i'M a guy too! ^_^

but luckily my mom know me best.. we went to... NEWTON CIRCUS!! where we had my fav food.. BBQ STINGRAY!!! wooHoo eat until damn shiok.. ate some of my brethren too.. but well mrs lim says its natural selection mahz.. so only the FITTEST (in bio terms ;)) soTongs survives! and thats me.. even seen a sotong do 34 pull ups? hEhez.. the rest is alL selF exPlainatory....

deMinG
thERe is No sinGle joY as goOD as makINg pPL hapPy along wiTh yoU

My mind's unweaving/ 12:06 AM

Friday, April 09, 2004

hmmz.. today finally got a good sleep i dead needed for the week... (coZ oF NAFA & trgs).. woke up at 11am lidat.. remembered gotta meet vince at compass at 2pm.. so i decided to rot my time watching SAIKANO wah today cleared another 3 episodes.. after watching NEON GENESIS EVANGELION i tot that was to be one of the most emotional anime i ever since.. until i started watching SAIKANO.. as the name implies "Last Love Song On The Planet" the plot becomes more and more sad as the lovable characters die one by one... it revolves ard a story of war in japan in modern context.. the main characters are all high school students... (like me) some go to the army to protect their love ones.. some take up arms to avenge their loved ones... ALL DIED in the cruel complications of war.. even the innocent ones die as civilians.... the dreadful reality of war really struck me as even the ones who were close to the main characters in the show died as well... the story is very sad.. and it makes me want to value and hold dear all my loved ones... for tml.. they might not be there again... i wouldn't wanna spoil the show's context.. but its worth a watch though the pacing is abit slow... do remember to bring tissue along too in case kz?

after that i went to compass point to meet vincent and kai jie.. but he told me gonna be late by 10min.. so i took the opportunity go CP look for a CAP and sight see as well ^_^.. found one at BOSSINI for 10 bucks.. was quite a deal so i grabbed it and went to meet them... we went to sim lim square today and went to walk ard.. saw my partner CLIBBY with his gf (my da sao) hahaz.. so sad rite? both my old and current partners got GF.. why i.. Haiz.. >.< we spent most of time looking at games at computer parts.. was motivated by the trip to earn money and get 'steriods' for my com.. so i can play the games.. hEhez.. CONDITION ZERO and A3 are my top games for grabs!

later went back meet huiying back at bugis MRT.. hahaz.. shE ar.. bluFf me.. say she add fats le.. loLx.. but she slim down le leiz.. donT pray pLay.. haVIng 3 stomachs do pay off anyways =].. hEHez.. later angela and laibun joined us.. then it struck me to take a look at a neoprint we took at an outing at J8 b4.. then it was the EXACT same grp.. except derrick is now replaced with vincent.. loLx after long discussion due to the inclination of my stomach we went to eat first.. hahaz end up go to I DIM SUM loLx.. damn corny leiz.. 1. i first time go conveyor belt dim sum restaurant.. 2. the guys didnt have enuff money.. 3. i was hungry.. loLx.. add together = eat until very uncomfortable but the food is nice.... the guys eat abit stop le.. coz their wallets abit light.. hahaz.. so we quickly eat then went off.. wanted take pics but they dont allow photography leiz.. TMD!

hahaz later the guys went to the food court to eat.. then the 2 gers went off to jalan jalan.. they eat until like gonna CRY outta happiness.. hahaz.. finally some food they can eat without worrying abt the price.. hahaz.. poor things.. hEhez.. luckily the gers got card.. thats why i sit with them and eat away.. ^_^ later we met again then went to selegie centre to play pool.. thankz to huiyings POOL DIRECTORY we managed to get to the closest pool and it happened to be the one where i went with may and xy not too long ago.. hahaz..

i long time never play pool.. no skill as usual lar.. but always taiko.. hEhez.. we played winner in loser out.. we formed 3 pairs.. i was with laibun.. hahaz.. both noobs.. think hy and ange plus kj and vince grp more zai in terms of skill.. but well think my charms worked with the BALLS.. loLX! we won the most rounds.. (all coz they shoot black ball in! >.<) hy and ange ar.. liew.. happily taking pics of us playing pool.. even took pics of all our shoes.. then when we play finish... want to take grp pic.. then... then.... BATT FLAT wah lAu.. hahaz.. so we left lorz...

thing abt hy and ange.. as well as the guys.. are from 1S10 2003 my first 3 months frenz.. hahaz.. why i love going out with them coz the gers very enthu one leiz.. very on too.. not like.. haiz.. loLx.. HY esp.. KAoz.. her pool is better than me lorz.. beat me at yahoo pool not enuff.. wanna whack me in real life too.. =~~ loLx.. now typing blog at home.. then talking to wendy jean ange huiying alvin vincent donghai.. all of them 1 common thing.. first qns:"whats with your nick?? kiSs? waH..." loLx.. some i play along with them.. hahaz.. but actually its an excerpt from SAIKANO when the male character meets the ger character after they broke up coz she didnt want him to be hurt... still runs thru my head... hahaz.. cant wait to finish watching the series manz.. tml got trg le.. can finally use my cap! wooHOo cyAz ppL~!

dEminG
wE bROke up.. sHe said wE weRe claSsmates... wE kiSsed


vinCent + kaI jIe teAm


lAi bun + dEminG teAm


ANgelA + huiYinG teAm


eVen gerS can plAy kz? donT pRay plAy!

My mind's unweaving/ 11:39 PM

Wednesday, April 07, 2004

today had another GP tutorial on war.. haiZ.. WAR is pretty interesting.. but too many lectures and tutorials are making me sick of it le.. somemore recently so many GP homework.. i realised we have FOUR days with GP lessons a wEek.. and with hW after every tutorial is killing me manz.. hahaz had another fun lesson with mr azahar.. he teaches very enthusiastically and cheerfully yepz.. makes you want to pay attention.. lOlx.. and i thought MRS LIM was the best.. maybe the whole BIo dEpartment is just with GREAT TUTORS except some EVOLUTION lecturer.. >.<

today was CCA recruitment day ya.. set up our booth with those many medals and trophies our seniors won over the years.. 20 in total.. hahaz.. this year we add 7 more to the collection.. but still got one more race.. if we win 13 medals then can go on par le ba? ^_^ unfortunately we had to leave for training at 2.. so we did a noisy tribal to attract attention then fled to kallang le.. loLx.. (maybe should haf live telecast >.<) actually wanna go ard take more photos and talk to other CCAs to improve relations.. hEhez.. afterall canoeing is one of the MOST respected CCAs in SRJC ya? *bhb bhb* hEhez.. j/k lar

sea training today was shiok but tough.. hahaz.. ever since the SCF race my sea trainings has been more fruitful as i put in much more effort and pull harder strokes.. went on 8 laps.. clearing 12km of non-stop canoeing.. phEw.. managed to try the MOSQUITO today with clibby.. managed to clear quite smoothly but cap-ed twice as we were sprinting.. but NO FEAR i will master mosquito and take WL and ZH on mAnz.. hAHaz.. talk abt optimistic... hEhez

when i got back i saw this TV on TVMobile called "split ends" its kinda sianz.. but got one segment they went penang laksa hunting.. and i happened to be the biggest eater i ever known (yEpz.. he thrashes BENG flat) weI Lun.. he has like 3 bowls of rice.. or 3 bowls of kway chup and still isnt full.. and worst of all he doesn't get fat --__--hmph! then they went to this stall.. which sold LAKSA for 85 CENTS loRz.. wah laoZ.. and it looked SOooooOooOOoO gooD.. tmD.. no wonder S'poreans all so small sized.. fooD sO blaRdiE eX.. i wannA bE a quiTtER.. noT a sTayer! >.<

when i finally got home.. starving and all (i diDn'T had lunch coz of recruitment) i watched an anime i bought a week ago its called SAIKANO:LAST LOVE SONG OF THE PLANET for those anime fans do check it out.. i only watched 3 episodes just now.. but it got the works of a romantic yet sad setting with a tinge of humour... sure gets me interested.. unlike all the recent adventure based anime nowadays.. its actually abt a ger who just got a bf but becomes a target of military reasearch into a WEAPON.. so the story evolves ard how love pulled the two of them thru.. will talk more as i watch it ya? ^_^

thouGht of the daY: don'T aSk me qnS or crap wiTh me aftER sEa trainiNGs.. i tenD to be.. erraTiC.. muAHhahAhahahaz... erh.. dUh...

dEminG
fRom saikano: hoW mAny cOuplEs still shaRe diaRies today? sounds olD.. kinda romantic but it sure is touching as how it becomes the bond that helps them live thru the tragedy and pain of love....


ouR booTh


xionG cLimbinG tRee.. loLx.. koAlas arE endanGereD spEcies leiz.. >.<


thE viEw afTer a haRd day'S traininG.. next timE bring gF comE.. hEhez

My mind's unweaving/ 10:36 PM

Tuesday, April 06, 2004

hahaz.. paisey leiz ppL.. hEhez.. yesterday beri tired coz of land training.. did some endurance pushing stuff.. so came home watched eye for a guy and went to sleep.. hahaz.. tell you ar.. I feel kinda sad for Rachel Lee our homegrown bikini heaven winner.. surrounded by a bunch of thick-skinned, proud, noisy, and not too handsome too not that i'm THAT handsome lar.. but.. for a local ger of such standard.. SHE DEFINITELY DESERVES BETTER but at least next episode sounds more fun.. hEHez.. 'tuRn aRd gEntlMen.. pAnts doWn!' hahAz.. i'm Sure my mEi maY anD other gaLs will diE to waTch thaT shoW ya.. =]

today abit more fun.. hahaz.. coz we got NAFTA today.. woOhOo~! abit tense lar.. dont know how we will fare.. so today nv do my usual DR coz i still having difficulty recovering from yesterday's training... HX ar.. he is a viven, hexen, jinx etc etc lorz.. everytime pon lesson never got caught b4.. he jio me go library then kana caught... loLx.. today had bio pract under mr azahar.. hahaz.. damn farnie sia that guy.. straight away go 'hey yong shen is it true that your gf is half Jap?' ^_^ pooR him.. the jealOusly oF gerS is suRe a poWErfuL foRce.. eSp in SRJC.. i shALl pray foR youR safEty olD fRen..

GP was kinda slack.. went IT rm 4 for tutorial.. Mr tan showed us a interesting video summarising the conflicts in the 20th century.. a disturbing fact pointed out by Fabby was that Mr Tan was smiling throughout the whole show! loLx.. and it aint comedy to see heads pouring out bandung without the milK woR.. o.O as the lesson drew to a close.. muAHahaz.. i heard the nicest thing in the world at that moment.. THUNDER wooHoo~!

hahAz.. lucky it rained lorz.. then we started off with our 5 Stations instead of 2.4km first.. was kinda smooth running... got abt 23 poinTs by the enD of the 5 stations.. not much lar.. mY tests are as follows (if my memory doesn't fail me)

ShuttLe run=> 10.1s 5 pts *Close to 10.2s min for A*
Sit Ups => 67 5 pts *abit far from the 40+ max for A*
Standing Broad Jump => 230cm 3pts *aiya.. stupid station.. didnt get full mark.. got C*
Sit and Reach => 51cm 5 pts *couCh potato! but still close to 50cm for A*
Pull Ups => 28 5 pts *erh.. A is 12 pull ups lar... hmmz*

^_^ abit sad leiz.. Mr Bernard Tan set 30s means 30s one.. hahaz.. i doing my pull up halfway the boys all make so much noise.. distract me like siao.. hahaz.. then did ONLY 28 loRz.. i usually do 33 one lorz.. but if i had more time think i could haf done 36.. hEHez.. but damn farnie lar NAFTA got this malay guy damn farnie.. do 6 puLl ups.. more than his usual 5 then damn happy then kept shouting like some retard while pulling.. hahAz.. Quote:"mAchiam paSsion oF chRist" loLx.. havent watch tat show yet leiz.. wonder how it'll be..

thEn the rain stopped... and it was... 2.4km time.. omG.. i long time nv train stamina.. somemore yest just did interval training.. no matter what i wanna beat my PB of 10.45min.. so i kinda pia.. was damn wet lar.. by first lap my pants and *ahem* were drenching wet.. on my last lap.. i was catching up with kaiye who had been in front of me before.. i shouted 'coME on! don't give up' coz i saw him slowing down.. then we together pia our last lap.. hahAz.. think i really love canoeing training lorz.. always give me that strength that many dont haf.. to cheer and motivate ppl when they need most.. even though he's one of more eccentric guys in class then last burst i sprinted ahead of him and came in 10.40min yeAh! hahaz.. got a B = 4 pts.. so my total is thus 27 pts~!~! wooHoo~! finally in my 18 years of existance.. during my last NAFTA i finally got GOLD!! wooHoO~!

later whole body in sweat with a bulging pain on my left knee we went to join the chem lecture going on in LT4.. machiam Band Of Brothers sia.. all shacked look and walk in together.. loLx.. went in settle behind the gers and erh.. VENTILATED ourselves.. hahaz.. sorry lar gers.. cannot afford to get ABRASION or ATHLETE'S FOOT so tahan kz? (and evelyn: no matter what happens dont turn back.. loLX!) as usual i screwed my chem up.. F again.. then when i wasn't paying attention miss cheng THREATEN ME sia.. hahaz.. i wanna complain! say what wanna say my SurnamE.. blEahz.. later ask the Lee Clan come fight war with the Chengs.. then we can go *chEng chEng chEng chEng chEng~~~* wiTh cymboLs.. hEHez

later went on for MY night study scheme.. but today the 12 guys i expected turn up 5 only.. mostly coz say tired from NAFTA.. but still we had a fruitful yet fun study session at C1-1.. hahaz.. Wei Lun, Alvin, fabby, hua xiang and me stayed on till 9 then ciaoz.. actually the dance team were practising their dance performance for tml at 8 lidat.. but by the time i wanted go see (yEapz.. i Love to daNce.. anD i love to sEe PPL daNce too.. noT only geRs kz? =p) they ciAoz le.. hahaz.. noW at homE rottinG lE... manZ.. why i diDn'T hiT 30 puLl upS? *soBZ*

dEminG
phEW.. yonG shEn almoST beaT mE aT puLl upS.. hAHaz.. StReSs.. ^_^


winner of the FHM bikini Heaven.. RacheL LEe~! Lee alSo leiz! donT praY plaY.. hAHaz.. anD guys.. donT nose blEed on youR keyboaRd.. ^_^

My mind's unweaving/ 10:12 PM

Monday, April 05, 2004

today is Qi Ming Jie~~~ (yES charlyn i confirmed it IS Qing Ming!) hahaz.. woke up early in the morning to go ard visiting my ancestors urns.. we went to mandai and yishun columbarium.. followed by tong teck temple.. i was virtually SLEEPING everywhere i went.. still very tired from yesterday's sea training.. ^_^ going ard lidat reminds me of what is always in my heart.. yet i havent touched for a long time.. my religion yepz.. in case you don't know.. i'm BUDDHIST yepz.. i dont go temple once a week.. but occasionally coz its my parents who bring me there.. though i dont pray often.. the gods are always in my heart.. the god that my mom told looked over my family was the Godess of Mercy.. often when i am troubled i think of her and i gain strength.. the grace and gentleness of the godess always impresses me...

talking abt my believes.. i have this kinda mentality since young that after offering food to our ancestors or gods, the food becomes TASTIER.. hahaz.. sounds childish? but i still hold onto that belief till today.. everytime we go praying.. i will always happily eat the food we bring home.. coz the fruits always seem to be VERY SWEET.. but today also at the columbarium i came across a memorable urn.. the urn had no picture on it... but had alot of gundam models decorating it.. already i felt sad that the person died young.. but when i looked closely i saw that he was born.. AND died on the same day at that point tears were welling in my eyes.. but i sent a silent prayer coz i was touched by his parents' courage.. to give the child a proper burial despite their grief... though saddening it hardens my resolve to LIVE LIFE TO THE FULLEST becoz i dont want to let his spirit see that i waste my life away.. that i want to do something for my frenz.. for my world... to deserve my place to live..

went out just now to HP to meet up with Hx Kl and evIL lyN to study again.. this time we went coffee bean.. long time nv go mahz.. hahAz.. makes me think of our history in hoUganG poinT.. from thE inventIon of 'Hua-Xiangism' to all the rumours that originated.. it really makes me think of how much these 3 haf make to my life.. hahaz.. coz fabby always hesitant to go out study with me.. hougang point has been where i study most outside of sch and home.. these 3 always no fail will come study when i ask them down.. we tend to talk more than we study.. but.. they DID help me study.. hEhez.. but more often than not we have a great time talking abt our class and life in JC.. takes out the dullness in living life just to STUDY.. hehez.. but makes me strike a revelation too.. evelyn is actually the closest ger to the guys lorz.. hahaz.. at least she interacts and talks like a normal hyper active ger.. not like SOME nice slow moving marine creatures.. hahAz.. get to learn alot abt the gers perspective from her.. that it makes me wonder we have a division within the class in the first place so i told myself.. that tml.. i'm gonna be nice to the gers.. and try to talk alot to ALL of them.. hEhez.. wonder how it'll gO... =]

ThoughT of the daY:so many youngsters are converting to christianity.. what will happen to my religion in the future? (maybe i should swear to ABSTINANCE.. hEhez)

deminG
hEy i saw Zhen Yi aT thE tempLe.. hAhaz.. pooR wL.. poOR daRen.. ^_^

My mind's unweaving/ 12:00 AM

Saturday, April 03, 2004

loLx.. today morning had our weekly dose of GP enrichment.. but today miss kelly tan one woMAN show.. today abit more dense.. but was kinda interesting.. really good points for EDUCATION and MASS MEDIA but now then teach.. aiYoz.. but miss tan was super cuTe loRz.. doing all kinda lame stuff... sudden expressions of euphoria.. with quotes like 'when i was a teen.. NOT too long ago... abt 15kg aGo...' 'I.T is important.. but dont make those CBLC jokers think their the epitaph of education' 'alrite... with my wonkey karaoke mic..' 'where you got your uniforms then? hide somewhere and ambush the J2s right?' 'you know red riding hood.. hokkien is hood=bash someone up' hahaz.. goes to show whenever she's not making ppl pull their ears and stand outta class she's actually a very fun lecturer ya? ^_^ but still.. fabby would agree.. we still wouldnt want her for our tutor.. loLx..

after helping out with the class wall i went for sea training ya.. met alex under the bridge.. then he tell me abt the boy's brigand adventure race its a whole s'pore BB adventure.. wah.. say until DAMN fun! loLx.. after my national's im gonna do this for St Gab's Scouts man.. iTs so KEWL! today trg abit xiong.. but i had the feeling of fulfilment.. we went abt Long D training today.. coz i was on a T1 (my fav craft) i kept pushing myself.. remembering my SCF memories.. and i kept pushing my mentals.. and i was kinda pleased with the outcome.. i felt that i really put in alot of effort.. i tried overtaking the other 3 boats in front of me.. i managed to overtake a K2 Mosquito(new boat) with resistance.. abt to overtake the T2 by jon and KZ but they suddenly speed off.. loLx.. soBz.. after that did K2 then K1...

after packing up i just punished the team 140 push ups coz of late coming.. then went to suntec to makan.. had losta fun talking crap with weilun, zhen hao,li hua and monica.. they even treated me to a ICE JELLY THANKZ ALOT TEAM!!! hahaz.. after in JC for 1 year and 3 months.. this is first time anyone really treated me to something in SR.. loLx.. later on the way back with weilun went flash shopping.. (walk fast go shop see see until the CONTIGENT of the SR canoeists came past our shop=>given their speed we had quite a good time shopping.. loLx) but today alot of chiobu leiz.. saw alson chew with his gf somemore... last time in sec sch so kapbei.. now talk until so quiet.. hAhaz.. pian xiao mei mei sia.. =] fun day!! tml gonna go 'sao mu' but gonna complete some tutorials en route if possible ya.. hEhez.. chILL PPl!

dEMinG
whEn you are walking alone.. with no lights.. you see a shadow.. coz tonight.. its a full moon.. beautiful isn't it?

My mind's unweaving/ 10:34 PM

hahaz.. today ar.. i realised a bad thing that happened to me in SRJC.. my ENGLISH is deteriorating!!! OMG! liew.. last time in st gabs my standard of english SUPAH powerful lorz.. waH liEwz.. come to SRJC.. know ppl like LI HUA and interacting with SRJCians too much.. haiz.. words like (COM-PROMISE :hao yi) until my english all gone le.. wah laoZ leiz.. i always took pride in my aptitude as a good speaker.. until... SRJC!!! return me my english poweR!!! aRgh~!!~

highlight of today was the outing with the guys.. hahaz.. actually wanted go out yesterday after our last papers.. but coz i got training so didn't go.. and yepz.. the gers went out in secret today.. somemore put on pictures of yesterday one on our noticeboard lorz.. wah kAoz.. loLx.. today my plan was to go bishan jalan jalan then go watch movie.. but then KL and JK like wanna play pool.. not i wanna say ar.. but everytime our guys outing.. ALWAYS go play pool one.. buay sian mehz.. loLx.. i preferred we just go walk walk or watch movie.. tis time i was more decisive.. i set it as my original plan and then they went play with their other frenz...

but yupZ it wasnt wasted.. coZ it was dAMN FUN!! loLx.. went with Hao yi,kai ye, yi chuan, pao chern and hua xiang.. loLx.. small grp ar.. then not those i normally hang out with.. but this goes to show.. really small grps are more fun than big boring grps.. hAhaz.. we went makan.. *=-*SIGHT-SEEING*-=* then did abit of shopping.. wanted take neo print ar.. but then the fav machine spoil.. then they like all wear so cha-pa-lang loLx.. then i only one wear nice nice.. so abit paisey..

loLx.. actually i wanted go watch HIDALGO.. but pao pao they all wanna watch THE EYE 2 loLx.. it turnt out a little out of the expected.. but so as not to spoil the show for those potential watchers.. heres some thoughts thruout the show:

1. whEn you wakE up.. anD you See aLot of ppl aRd U.. don'T lOOk agaIn..
2. don'T looK up whEn you'RE in thE liFt...
3. nEVEr disturb a ghost at work.. coz she might make you her WORK instead..
4. donT try to rape HK super stars.. they BITE
5. being banged by a mrt is not the last thing you'll see.. coz she'll bounce a few times.. then blood will FLY
6. dont use digital imaging to sub the place name.. coz we know its ang mo kio... NOT some TAI PO MARKET..
7. when you see a ghost once.. look again... if she is still there.. dont look again.. coz she might be staring at you..
8. you think some people's face look FLAT? look again...
9. always answer a qns like 'what time is it?' coz.. something might just come down on you..
10. dont bring kids along.. they always ask qns.. even if half their brain is on the ground..
11. 'nan ren mei ke hao tong si' is true at times.. but.. we're still emotional people ya? =p
12. ghosts are nice ppl.. they are very patient.. coz they can wait till.........
13. if you gotta take scenes in singapore hk and thailand.. pls dont try to make it look like hk when its s'pore.. *esp if the students are wearing singapore school badges!*
14. normally guys wont be sitting next to gers in a female toilet.. DUH! so dont try to strike a conversation ya? =]

well.. the movie kinda left some impressions on me.. it takes a break from the usual vengence driven ghost movies.. to a more buddhist perceived perception of ghosts.. coz i also am a buddhist i really support wholesale.. the ending's kinda cute.. hahaz.. but disturbing at the same time.. just some more scary parts.. is when the taxi ger.. STARED at shu qi.. manz.. that was DAMN spine tingling.. the 'what time is it' one also gave me a shock.. hahaz.. but the most disturbing is the endoscope scene.. when the baby actually opened her eyes.. OMG.. tat was f***ing disturbing lorz.. keep thinking abt it.. loLx.. but still i think that guy is stupid.. shu qi is SOOOOOO chio lorz... why DUMP HER~!?~!?? --__--" the show gives a whole new perspective to life and death ya... reincarnation and all but still a scary movie at times la.. can see who freaks out.. hahaz.. HX ar HX.. so hum ji.. loLx.. pao chern was abt to sleep loRZ!

hahaz.. no regrets going out with these guys.. really wasn't a wasted trip.. hahaz.. pao pao is also one of my closer frenz too yup.. hahaz.. although he in diff class but we always click so well.. hEhez.. GREAT MINDS THINK ALIKE YA? ^_^ its great to go out from the usual "kallang-SRJC-kovan-sengkang-kallang-SRJC-kovan-sengkang" trend.. its like a POLY-SIANZIATION.. hahaz.. apparently.. some DOG LOVING ppl dont understand lar.. always stay at home.. haiz.. poor guy.. =] besides really small grp outings like this always stand out from big grp outings.. so to KL: if less ppl are going dont keep talking abt 'so little ppl coming' coz it really turns me off ya? but it was fun!!! hEhez.. wanan go again.. until next time.. chiLL ppL!

Lame qUOte oF the Day:"wah got new Ten Year Series lei! diff from last year one!!!! eH? oh yah hor.. its a Ten Year Series..." -> dEminG

dEming
dON'T loOK up TOniGht.. ghoSTs likE DaiKin teChnolOgy.. thEy comE in INVERTED


jiAn gui aR!


PC: tOP? no boTtom~?!?~ *evIl smILe*

My mind's unweaving/ 12:11 AM

Thursday, April 01, 2004

today is finally my last papers.. woOHOo!! maths was kinda easy.. but i wasn't too prepared coz i was trying to juggle physics last nite.. after my bio paper i went back.. super shacked.. managed to sleep a little b4 joining HX, KL and evIL lyN foR studying at hP.. loLx.. pity evelyn sia.. kana 'chan shang' by hX.. but he still pesters me for tips ar.. abit dont like his attitude sometimes.. put HER above frenz.. think he'll be the type who wouldn't give a f*** abt me once he meets his lusts.. >.<

anyways... gotta thank FABBY!!! hahaz.. coz of the recent SCF compeition.. i was kinda down.. so even if i did spend time staring at my notes.. i really blanked out and cant absorbed.. although it is some kinda cheating by helping me with my revision.. he saved me from certain remedial lessons.. really my worst fears abt this common test was that they put me into remedial coz of my results.. worst of all was that coz of monday.. i had to take 2 papers for yesterday and today.. and it is really very demanding.. coupled with my unstable emotions then.. i would have really lost myself.. hahaaz.. so again to considerably one of my bestest frenz.. thankz alot! coz i also got the urge to study thankz to u! ^_^


but yEah.. after a long break since sunday.. i'm donning my CANOEING singlet again.. really missed the trainings over the exam break.. ever since the weekend.. i have added alot more to my daily trainings.. more DRs, added stroke training every day.. even my strokes style has changed.. with the papers ended i had a fun training today with the J1s.. coz i one man show i lost my voice AGAIN lar.. but its really encouraging to see new hopes and aspirations in the J1s.. really motivates me to become a better CANOEIST!

after trg they jio me for dinner.. but coz my mom told me she was cooking i left abruptly after seeing them to kovan.. but when i got home my parents already finished their meal.. thank god.. was worried that they might be waiting for me.. oh well... had my dinner alone then went abt with my new DR.. cast iron.. pull up bars and my bamboo sticK! *vRoOm vrOOm* tml lessons will begin again.. but i'm looking forward to tml morning's gym with my partner and the wall painting after sch.. then also will be going out with my classmates after painting the wall.. quite regrettably the gers in my class went for a movie today... its not like they can't go ahead lar.. but its almost like they dont even regard us as frenz anymore.. after their papers they just left without saying a word to the guys even though we met on the way outta sch.. well.. i just promised myself i wont let myself get hurt again.. so well.. look forward to a fun day with the guys tml! wOOhoO!

dEminG
i caN fEel thE waRmtH agaIn.. tHe lOve oF liFe...


25kg and 10 kG dumbElLs.. muhAhahz.. i haF caST iroN foR breaKfasT..


mY trEadMiLL!

My mind's unweaving/ 9:02 PM